BITTER TASTE

I and Kelvin just finished having dinner when I started feeling pain in my stomach I started shouting again I told Kelvin I think I was in labour but Kelvin told me to relax I would be fine he thought it was like before but I kept shouting then my water broke he called one of our neighbors and they told him I was in labour so Kelvin rushed and drove me to the hospital the doctor and nurses rushed to me and carried me into the labor room, before I was rushed in just like that Kelvins crazy mother and sister rushed to the hospital and started calling me all sorts of names they called me a witch,and how I have come to kill her only son,she announced to everybody in the hospital that I'm not Kelvins wife that the child I was carrying doesn't belong to her son,just when I needed strength to push this woman came to draw out the little strength I had,I started crying I was crying with the pain I was going through and the words she was saying she told everyone my story just when I was happy no one knew my story which gave me courage to have beared it till now. Now she has come to ruin everything,everybo everybody started showing at her and told her to leave the doctor told her to keep quiet or she will be sent out but she didn't stop,the doctor asked some men to drag her out of the hospital before they could Kelvin was there already and pushed her out of the hospital. I was pushed to the labor room with uncontrollably tears flowing down my cheeks i was asked to push but I couldn't push I was weak,so weak they kept begging me to push I tried but it wasn't working they were worried my baby would die,they were tired,they asked me to push again but I didn't the doctor left and came back later yet their was no progress. They asked if they should bring in Kelvin I said yes Kelvin was in their holding my hands and begging me to push "please mummy push,push our baby" Kelvin said with tears from his eyes too he called my baby our baby so I begged him to put a Christian song for me,a song that will calm my spirit so they put a song for me with kelving holding my hand and a song calming my spirit I kept praying inside me I can't die now I have held it till this point I can't die now please God don't let me die I picked courage and started pushing I pushed and finally a head was out finally the whole body but nothing from the baby,no sound the baby was not alive I felt weak and started crying again then the doctor told me not to stop their was another baby so I pushed again and the head was out,and the whole body came out and the baby was crying. Kelvin felt so happy I was so happy I finally did it,I did it...they showed my baby boy to me and asked if they should show my dead baby to me and I said no. I never knew I was carrying twin and whatever is the cause of the baby's death I didn't know was it when my sister's beat me up? Or when Kelvins mother and sister beat me up or when I was with that woman I didn't know but it would break my heart more if I see the baby it was a girl so I refused to see the baby. Kelvin was the only one that saw the baby. Later my new baby boy's name was registered bearing Kelvins. I was happy and felt free a little,kelvi Kelvin went home to make food for me that was how he was doing everyday until I was discharged I went home with him and our baby Kelvin junior. The next day his friends started visiting with their gifts and as usual it was only my sister Jane that visited. My elder sister eve made it easy for me to hate her. I had she was married now and lives with her husband I was happy for her. I had no one to nurse me as a woman that just put to bed luckily one of our neighbors an elderly woman always came in the morning to assist me and help me out I was so grateful to her when I was all nursed and my baby too was fine everything was back to normal so it seemed. But it seemed like Kelvin became so busy he was working so hard that I hardly saw him in the house,he would come back with gifts for our baby stay with me small and leave he was always away told me I shouldn't worry he was working on something I think he was trying to make enough money for us,money that will be enough for us to marry. I missed his presence but I tried to understand him,one day he packed his bag told me he was traveling with his friends but he will be back,left me with money. Tried coping with just me and the baby indeed it wasn't easy now I understand the pain of being a single mom,I was grateful I had Kelvin he will be back after awhile so I thought. But a week went by and Kelvin wasn't back and no phone call,I wished I had a phone that could help me connect with him but I didn't. I tried relaxing maybe what he traveled for was still keeping him but then another week passed and Kelvin wasn't back yet. I was becoming worried and scared didn't know who to ask or who to talk to his friends too were not around. On a Thursday after giving breast to my baby and he was sound asleep i decided to sleep to he kept me awake through out the night after all. In my sleep I saw Kelvin and it felt like reality Kelvin came to me and told me he loved me and I should never forget that,I should take care of myself and our baby,I asked him why he was saying that with a sad look on his face he told me I should never give our baby to his mother no matter what and I shouldn't let our baby close to his mother,I asked him again why he was saying this he then told me he died for us,thst that for my sake he died for us I started crying I begged him to stop saying that I tried holding onto him but he went away with speed I jumped up from sleep I looked around Kelvin wasn't here I realized the crying I was having in the dream reflected even in reality. Not long someone knocked on the door,I was shivered and scared the knock continued I opened the door it was one of Kelvins friend he told me Kelvin was dead,that Kelvin was shot they had a business they went for then those other people started shooting the rest escaped but Kelvin was shot. The news crumbled me to the ground I didn't know if I should shout without talking tears started flowing uncontrollably from my eyes his friend came to hold me to console me but I kept crying I didn't want to mind if my baby was sleeping I was crying. Why me? Why will this happen to me?why will Kelvin leave me just like that? Which other business did he have to go for we were okay the way we were,we were managing fine. Kelvins friend was with me hours and left but I didn't stop crying my baby got up and started crying I gave my baby food but I was still crying. Kelvin was my happiness,kelv Kelvin was my saviour,he gave me hope when I didn't have hope,he gave me a chance to be loved and desired,he respected me in spite of everything,he didn't look down on me, he loved me even more than my family could love me now he is gone. It was really hard on me I wasn't okay I was living in a shell I couldn't get over the fact Kelvin was gone. I loved that man and I wasn't opportuned to say it often or show it. 2 weeks later I had a knock on my door I went to open the door it was Kelvins mother and one guy I didn't know she shouted as usual with her name calling and how I have succeeded in killing her son,she looked around the room and started carrying things she said belonged to her son she carried everything and wanted to carry the gas I bought with my money but I refused and told her I bought the gas after carrying everything she left. I heard of the day Kelvin was to be buried but I know I can't go there or be seen there I mourned him alone in the house. Weeks later I went with one of Kelvins friend to meet the person that gave Kelvin the keke as higher purchase,kelvi Kelvin only had a month to complete and would have had the tricycle all to himself the woman told me she sympathises with me and told me because she liked Kelvin I can have the tricycle myself I could give it to someone to ride for me I knew that wouldn't be easy so I begged the woman to just give me some money and have back her tricycle the woman felt for me and gave me some money enough to start a mini business so I left. I thanked Kelvins friend for going with me. That day I said I was going to go to my father's house if he likes let him send me away that day I packed I and my baby's things and carried everything I had,kelvi Kelvins friend helped me pack and dropped me in my father's house and left my sister Jane assisted me I saw my brother he was all grown too I saw my father he didn't send me away and I then saw another woman. My father remarried and I never knew it's all good it's his life as long as I and my baby has a place to sleep on. The woman too has a baby for my dad just how nice later I was well settled. In the house when I want to boil water for my baby or make food for my baby my father's wife will shout at me and ask if I provide anything in the house? Every day she does that a gas that belongs to my own mother now the woman is claiming possession of every property. I decided to start up a small business for myself that would help I started selling roadside gas with the money I got, my father's wife will always buy from me but never pays. My child started growing so I enrolled him in the same school with my little brother when my brother want to go to school he will wait to take my baby along the woman will shout at him and ask him why will he be waiting for my son?if I was the one training him in school? My brother will always reply her by saying the baby was his nephew and the woman will shout at him and he will leave. Because I didn't want a fight with my father's wife and I didn't want my brother to be maltreated I will ignore her and take my child to the school myself. I tried hard raising my son all by myself.