Chapter XI

19841016 diary

After school in the afternoon, we went to the new experimental building with biqingyuan. The building has three floors, which is divided into two from the gate. To the East is the experimental building. From the first floor to the third floor are the chemical laboratory, the physical laboratory and the biological laboratory, with three offices on each side. The first room in the west is the meeting place, the second floor is the library, and the third floor is the reading room. There are two teachers sorting it out. There are a lot of books in it. It's not too much to be full of sweat, is it? Several other students are busy. Then I went to play badminton with biqingyuan. I thought that after the opening, I would seriously go there to read books and play badminton. I went to have my hair cut. I heard that the old man in the bathhouse did a good job, so I went there. It happened that no one was there. The old master was eating bread. He asked me why? When I said to have my hair cut, he asked me to sit down and eat my own bread. I looked in the mirror and saw that my hair was long, but I was very impressed (it was good, but I didn't feel happy). I suddenly wanted to ignore it, but I thought I shouldn't have long hair, so I cut it.

19841017 diary

This afternoon, the school held a school meeting. Secretary Yao gave a speech entitled "completely negating the Cultural Revolution". His speech was divided into two parts. First, he talked about what the Cultural Revolution was like and its harm. "It was a catastrophe that was mistakenly launched by leaders (Mao Zedong) and used by two counter revolutionary groups, LinBiao and Jiangqing, and caused great losses to the party, the country and the people." he also gave an example of eating from a large pot. I am very familiar with it, When the production team goes to work, men get 10 points a day, women get 8 points, and just 6 or 7 points. Then he talked about the changes in the motherland after the smashing of the gang of four. He also talked about the expansion of our school. He said that one month after Chairman Mao Zedong died, the gang of four was smashed, but what if Chairman Mao died? Unimaginable, man?

19841018 diary

In the morning, I got the first (81 points) in the geography examination paper. In fact, the paper is not difficult. I can get more than 90 points. However, the examination was sudden because I didn't review. However, I am still satisfied. This is an encouragement to me.

In the afternoon, we went to the Xinhua bookstore with biqingyuan. When we came to the school gate, we suddenly saw the first issue of stream sponsored by our writing interest group posted on the bulletin board. The inscription was written by President Wang, and teacher fan wrote the first words of the issue. On three sides, there were several articles, "golden deer" was right beside us (Liu Hui), and "you feel the beauty of your hometown when you return home" (a senior high school student). Suddenly, I saw my article, "a story of a peach garden outside the world", which was inspiring, Suddenly I felt a little drunk and full of pride, but there was no my name on it (somehow), but anyway, it was my article! Biqingyuan and I went to the bookstore. I bought the book 300 poems of song, yuan and Ming Dynasty, which was compiled by the Qing people. I decided to memorize it. When I returned to school, I specially went to see the stream and silently read my peach garden.

In the evening, I went to Mr. Ji's dormitory with Li Erqiao to see biqingyuan carving steel plates. Mr. Ji told me that as long as I worked hard, I would be able to enter the University. He said that I had a good foundation in English and mathematics, and I did well in history and geography this time. Li Erqiao said that I was going to take the exam in Nanjing University, and biqingyuan said that I was going to take the exam in Fudan. I thought I was going to do this, but...

19841019 diary

In the morning, when I walked out of the classroom and saw Wang Feng on the railing, I came forward and patted him. He was shocked. He was about to attack. When he saw me, he said, "it scared me to death.". At the second break, I also leaned on the railing. He came out of the classroom door to me. I saw him and greeted him. He said he should scare me. I said he didn't. At noon, we played ball in class. In the afternoon, I said that the ball was broken. He joked that he would accompany me. I said that you wanted me to take the ball. Then I would find an excuse to accompany you. He said: "how do you think of me as such a person, let alone a ball, is..." I asked him something. He thought for a while and said, "even my head won't do it." It's true. I'm very glad that our relationship is good again. He really knows me, really.

In the evening, after reading a novel in sprout, I suddenly understood something. The hero's words were a wake-up call to me: "I am looking for love, not a woman." How much do you know about it? And what I think about day and night, vulgar me.

19841020 diary

At noon, Li Hongtao said that he had a copy of ancient and modern legends there. I wanted to read it, and he agreed. In the afternoon, before class, I asked him for it. I didn't see him in class, so I went downstairs to the dormitory. I couldn't find it. I just found a book, thirty six strategies, and took it to read. After a while, Zhao Jiankang came to help me find it, but he couldn't find it. He said he was sorry for me, and I said I was sorry for him. I don't know who is really sorry. Before class, I was reading a Book (thirty six strategies). Suddenly, Li Hongtao smiled modestly and asked me if I could find him? I knew it was zhaojiankang who told him, so I said yes. Then I asked for the book. He couldn't find it for a while. After school, he brought it to me, and I began to read it. When I was reading the book in the evening, Li Hongtao came and asked me if I had any reference books on chemistry? I smiled and said, "why do I take it at home? It's my brother's, and I'll bring it next week." he said that his chemistry score was not very good, so we talked for a while. He left, and I watched the Chinese and foreign legends again.

19841021 diary

Today is Sunday. I have been watching Chinese and foreign legends all morning. When Wang Feng came, he said that his watch would be repaired and played with for a while. He asked me to look at the watch. I gave it to him. He pulled off the strap and suddenly said, "it's Zhongshan's," I nodded. It seemed that he suddenly found a mystery and said, "I thought the gem flower was there." because my surface was Gem Flower, I laughed and he laughed. After a while, we had a friendly talk, and I relived the warmth of the past. At noon, I went back to the classroom to see my Chinese and foreign legends. After a while, Xu Qian came and wore a pair of crimson sweaters. I felt very uncomfortable. I can't deny it. However, I thought more than that. "What is it?" I think, but I can't help feeling sad. Maybe it's not a bad thing, but maybe it shouldn't be. So I think of the novel again. It's love and people, vulgar.

19841022 diary

Before I woke up this morning, as usual, it was like a kind of consciousness that forced me not to get up. I was not human, but God was not God. Anyway, something oppressed me. I was confused, but I was very clear. After I got up, I knew that I had been cheated. I regretted that I should not be cheated. After I got up, my mind was very bad. It seemed that I had a heavy burden to bear. I was not happy. I was afraid to go out during recess. I felt sad and had nothing to say to anyone. At noon, I went to the street to play with Tai Chenghua, but it didn't get better. I was still groaning and at a loss. It seemed that everything was indifferent, and everything didn't belong to me. Looking back on my carefree mood in the past, it was funny, and I had no intention of it any more. At this time, I just felt that I was the most sober, but I also felt that it was meaningless to be a human being. In fact, this has happened many times. Sometimes my mood is good, sometimes it is like this. How is this going on? There is no spiritual sustenance? I think.