Saw

I hope. I've been hoping for a long time that I'll be Lucian's bride because that's what Lucian's mom wants. I'm the one Tita Arcelia wants for her son. And discovering that Lucian loves someone is heartbreaking and system-debilitating. The long-lived hope in my being is crumbling. The hope that one day Lucian will love me is now falling apart.

My biggest dream is that one day, Lucian and I will form a family! I hoped because I thought he loved me MORE THAN LIKE A SISTER! But damn it! How come that, that he's in love with whoever bitch!

"Just tell Amanda that you love her," said Samuel. No! I can't let Lucian say he loves that girl! I need to stop him!

"I will, Sam. I'm just looking for a time."

I felt so weak. Lucian is about to say that he loves that girl. I can't agree. I will not allow Lucian to end up with just any girl. That he goes to someone else. He is only mine. I just want him to be mine!

I did a lot for him to notice me. I have sacrificed so much, so I could have a chance on him! I waited so long! I can't let him just end up with someone else! He's mine! Lucian is mine!

I closed my eyes because my heart would explode from the pain, frustration, and anger I felt. I turned to leave. I can't listen anymore. It is too much punishment to hear from the person you love that he is in love with someone else.

I won't let you get to her, Lucian. I'm the girl for you!

"Have you talked to him, Ma'am?" Lucian's female secretary asked after I left Lucian's office. I shook my head and tried to smile even though I wanted to cry inside.

No! I won't be crying! That's only for weak people! I am Lucila Anika Sandoval! I am born that everything I want, I'll have. I am strong, and I'm not a cry baby!

It's not over yet! I will do everything to make Lucian mine. And all of that includes that bitch. I'll make sure she'll be out of my Lucian's life!

"I'll just surprise him at my house. Don't tell him I came. It seems he's busy talking to Samuel, so I'll just go home." I said to his secretary. And that Kris is Lucian's male secretary in Manila.

"Is that so? Alright, Ma'am. Take care." he smiled at me.

I smiled and turned to leave. I know people in his office because I've been coming here for a long time. They know me as Lucian's best friend, and it hurts me that I am just his friend. Until then! Shit!

While walking, my heart hurts. A pain is spreading through my system.

I never thought it would come to this point. That Lucian will have a woman, he loves. Lucian is that person who doesn't take a relationship seriously, especially women. All he wants is his business. He is ready to do anything for it. He is that man who girls are just a game. He's that guy who doesn't know how to have a relationship. She hasn't even become a bride yet. He doesn't believe in love, especially since he lost her.

And I am waiting for him to love me. I am waiting for him to notice me. That I can change his love view. But why did he find something else? Why didn't he even see me?

Why does he still treat me like a sister?

I couldn't stop my tears. I waited in the car until Lucian came out of his office. I want to know where he hides his woman.

I know it is not right to stalk someone, but I needed to know who is that girl, so I followed where Lucian had lived for the past months.

I was stunned that he needed to fly. What? Where exactly is Lucian hiding that girl?

I know I cannot figure it out alone, so I hired someone to do it. It wasn't easy, but I got the address after some days of waiting.

I was nervous while waiting in my car in front of Lucian's house in Camiguin, one of the beautiful islands of the Philippines. I cannot believe Lucian allowed that girl to stay in his house!

I straightened up my back when I saw Lucian arrive. He got out of his car, and I saw how the woman greeted him.

I saw how Lucian hugged that girl. My heart was broken delicately. My chest hurt, and I cried even more, when I saw the smile on Lucian's lips that he was obviously happy when he closed the door of his house.

I didn't think... That he had already made his plan. I didn't even doubt that he could find another woman.

And I didn't think he would love either.