Chapter 17

Stigmatization for life,she asked...But Sharon,what if I die,or any thing goes wrong,I asked her,what is killing you,I have done abortion four good times,and nothing happened to me as you can see I am still alive,I have a good specialist for things like this...she said.

But Sharon I am scared, isn't there another way,I asked in tears...

My dear there are two ways, it's either you abort the child and move on with your life,or keep it and regret it for the rest of your life,....and by the way you had better be fast with the thinking,if am not mistaken it's been five months with your encounter with chief,that means you are five months pregnant,you better act fast for your own good,she said...

I went back home,I couldn't sleep all through the night,I was thinking about my situation,indeed there are only two options,it's either I terminate the baby and forget this night mare,or I keep it and live with it for the rest of my life,after much consideration,I decided I was going to abort the baby and pretend all this was a bad nightmare....

The next day,I placed a call to Sharon,hello Sharon,I am ready,I said.that's my girl talking,come over later,so I can take you there,she said..

I went to Sharon's place later,and off we went to her doctor..

Well,to be very honest with you,a five months pregnancy is no joke,why did you wait this long before coming young lady,the doctor asked me...

I didn't know I was pregnant,I was having my periods and no signs of pregnancy,,I said...

Hmmmmm,nature played a tough one with you, nevertheless,I am going to do my best to get it out,hope you know drugs would not work at this stage,it's going to be a DnC,the doctor told me,I turned to Sharon for explanation,cos I didn't know what a DnC meant...

Calm down Sharon said and she began explaining ,it's just another way of getting out the baby without the use of drugs,but trust me,you would be fine,she said and held my hands..

So young lady are you ready to do this,the doctor asked me,I nooded my head slowly in affirmation..

He took me with him to another room,and asked me to lay on a small bed,he spread my legs apart ,and started the process,oh the pain was excruciating,I thought I was going to die right there and then,I cried,like I was crying for help and to be rescued,I called on God, because at that moment it seems God had turned his back on me,after about 40_50 minutes,he was through,at least so he said..I had blood stains all over my dress, thankfully Sharon had brought something for me to change, truly she knew what to expect...

I could barely walk straight,I bent like an old woman and could only walk with the support of Sharon.your friend is obviously new in the system,she was very tight, she's going to feel some pain for some days, ensure she takes her medications, they would go a long way in reducing the pain she's feeling now the doctor said..

No problem doctor ,thanks alot,she said,and took me to her car, obviously she had sorted the bills....

Should I take you to my place or yours,she asked as she drove,take me to mine,I said believing the pain was going to stop soonest.

We arrived at my hostel and thankfully nobody was around,they had all gone for lectures.Sharon took me inside,she went and bought some energy drinks and provisions for me,she stayed for like 30minutes and she left promising me she would come check up on me latter....

The pain didn't stop,oh it increased instead,I went to hell and came back,it was like God and the universe was angry at me because of the evil I had done,my phone was off,It was out of power,I couldn't reach anyone for help, neither did I have the ability to walk out and get help or go to the hospital. I knew right there I was going to die, for I felt life going out of me, I slowly was losing my sight and couldn't even feel anything, then suddenly all I behold was darkness, for the end has come.....