11

I drew circles with my finger on Liam's back while we were still in the same position hugging.

Somehow when the adrenaline wore down I didn't want to run away.

He inhaled my smell once more and finally let go of me.

"Go take a shower. I will make something for you to eat." he cupped my cheek gently and placed a peck on my lips.

"Are you going to breakfast with me?" I asked looking in those doe eyes.

"I'm full." he smiled softly and helped me down from the table.

When I was about to exit the kitchen I heard him say "There's a shelf on the left in my wardrobe. You can find clean clothes there." I stopped moving because it finally hit me.

He was luring me into a relationship and he was doing a great job. I turned around butt naked and looked at his happy face.

"Why did you do this?"

"Do what?"

"Why do I have clean clothes at your place? We aren't a couple. We aren't even fuck-buddies. So, why?" I sounded harsh but I was confused and angry understanding that I was tricked.

"Go take a shower and we will discuss it while you eat your pancakes." his commanding voice wasn't doing the trick this time because I was determined to know what the hell he was up to.

"Liam, I told you I am not looking for a boyfriend. I thought it was clear. What is going on here?" I tried to sound strict but honest.

He rubbed his face and put his hands on a table leaning on them.

"Why are you so scared? It's not like I am proposing to you. I just nudge you a little. I want you to see how much I adore you. You're the most gorgeous, funny, arrogant, and feisty girl I've ever seen. It's logical I want to work things with you. It's not like I had a huge experience in dating. But at least I try. I want you, Devina. " his words struck me hard.

"Are you falling for me?" I asked looking into his sad eyes. He just kept silent. "Are you?!" I asked louder making him lower his head.

"Oh my God!" I threw my hands in the air and stormed out to the bedroom.

I quickly found my clothes from yesterday and got dressed calling a taxi with my other hand.

I ran down the stairs but stopped near the kitchen door seeing Liam still leaning on the table.

"How long?" I asked him.

"Does it matter?" his head was still low and for me, it was for the best. Seeing his sad green eyes would have killed me. "Just go," he added.

"I asked you a question, Liam." I insisted.

He hit the table with his fist making a loud noise and looked at me.

"I said fucking go." his voice was broken and I could see the pain in those beautiful eyes.

So I turned around and left.

All day at uni I was a mess. Lora was right. I should have used Noah. Then Liam wouldn't have made such a stupid mistake as to fall for me.

I was no good as a girlfriend. I had so many insecurities and no trust. But those sad green eyes broke my heart. How fucked up could a person be to behave as I did?

After classes, I was determined to work from home and clear my head but my phone rang.

"Hi, Anna. I was just calling you to remind you about our date." Noah beammed in my ear.

How could I fuck up this much?

"No Noah, I'm sorry, but I am not in the mood. I'm going home and I don't want to see anyone. Bye." I hung up and securing my bag on my shoulder made a sprint home.

Lora was out tonight; apparently seeking a new prey so I was home alone. I skipped my shift thinking it won't make it worse because there was no way it could be more worse. If you can say like that.

I drowned deeper under the covers with a bowl of ice cream and a horror movie when the doorbell rang.

The stupid Lora forgot her keys again.

When I opened the door I saw Noah with a paper bag from my favorite burger house and a pack of beer.

"What are you doing here?" I definitely wasn't expecting him to show up.

"I spoke with Lora and she gave me your address." he smiled sweetly and waved the paper bag with burgers in front of my eyes.

"Traitor..." I mumbled and snatched the packet from his hands leaving the door open.

We settled down on the couch and ate and drank in total silence watching the movie.

After the titles, Noah finally started talking.

"Do you want to share what bothers you so much?" he sounded sincere but there was no way I would tell him about his brother.

"It's nothing." I lied. "Look, Noah… You're a great guy but-" I tried t explain but he cut me off.

"No, let me talk first." he shushed me. "I've been meaning to tell you this a long time ago but I was afraid…" his pupils were running inside his eyes like crazy. "I like you a lot and I know we're a good fit," he stated making me laugh inside.

"Noah, you don't get it. I just don't-" I opened my mouth again but he interrupted me. Again.

"I'm Succubus."

My heart stopped beating and all the air left my lungs.

How? Is it even possible?

I sat frozen looking at his face, seeking if he was telling the truth when the memories of my dialogs with Succubus appeared in my head. Flannel shirts. How could I miss it? He wrote about my type and mentioned flannel shirts. This was the start of our story.

So Noah was Succubus all this time? The man that knew my every fantasy and knew my position about dating and stuff?

My head started spinning remembering all the dirty thing we've done and I started to hyperventilate.

"I know it's a lot. But I think we are a great match together." he grabbed my hand kissing it sweetly.

"But how did you know it was me?" I asked after some portion of shock left me.

"Well… Remember when you ran into me the night I exited Liam's office? I hacked the app and found your nickname."

It all made sense now but somehow it didn't feel right.

"Okay, you have to give me some time to think this through" I freed my hand and stood up combing my hair with my fingers.

"I know we had a lot of heated conversations but I would like to start slow and prove that I am not a bad guy. I will go now but I will call you tomorrow, okay?" he awkwardly moved closer and kissed the top of my head, and showed himself out.

All Saturday I was sulking in bed with Lora. I told her everything about Liam and about Noah being Succubus. To tell you she was shocked is telling you nothing.

Somewhere around 7 PM and after finishing 3 bottles of wine, I felt more relaxed.

"I think you should try to make things right with Noah." Lora finally said. "Liam is not a bad guy but he tried to lure you knowing you didn't want anything. And Noah…" she trailed off seeing my killer gaze at her. "Well, he was honest the whole time. And imagine your wildest fantasies coming to life with him. Fantasies that you fantasized with him." she wiggled her eyebrows.

She did have a point. I sighed heavily remembering the heated morning with Liam. I didn't know why but something inside me was drawing me to him.

"I don't know Lora… I am so confused now. And drunk." I took the empty bottle and put it on the floor.

"Look, sooner or later you had to start dating. You can't just be alone your whole life. And Noah told you he would take things slow. Let him prove himself to you and then you can make a decision to be with him or to become a nun." she smiled at me and stood from the bed. "But now, we are going dancing. And no men tonight. Only me and my bestie!"