Terrible night with tear,

Honey, are you prepared for tomorrow, we are going to attend Nately's daughter's marriage, said mom .

yes I remember sedwen ,said dad.

secretly noticing their conversation, I understood mom and dad talking about Gabie and ryan marriage, I remembered gabie saying, my parents are best friends to her parents.

blayer,join with us,it will be fun ,mom asked.

I was crying in silence,before expressing my feelings in front, I moved away from the place and replied shortly.

no..!,I uttered.

what happened to blayer?,why did she leave so early?,mom quired to father.

I push myself onto the bed, the vision of tomorrow never let me sleep or rest.

circling thoughts of ryan ,past memories, by thinking all these,night ends,sun raised but I haven't slept,sat with holding the letters given by him ,still the time I believed he will come to me,I heard the noise of my family hurried to go for marriage.

it was 9 'o'clock,I was sobbing by hugging the pillow, suddenly I had a call from Katherine,I attended the call,she spoke in nervous,

Katherine,'why don't you come?'

why do l come?to see him marrying with gabie?,I said disbelievingly.

we are tried to convince him in that karden was injured by ryan,said Katherine.

what...what happened? is he fine?,I asked

yes,he is fine now ,but we can't able to change his mind,what should I do now?,Katherine asked .

leave him to take a decision by himself, take care of Mr.karden.i said and hung up the phone.

I sat on the sofa suddenly someone pushed the calling bell so harshly,I was curious is this Ryan?,I opened the door with little happiness,but it flew high when I saw Mr.karden outside the door,I searched behind for ryan.

ryan came with you right?,I asked.

he saw into my eyes,he understood my pain .

"no..blayer"

come inside Mr.karden.

he sighed on the sofa near me.

I came here to check you ,said Mr.karden.

why don't you attend your brother's wedding? he might take wrong thought on you,

"no worries, I can't be there"

I saw his right hand was wrapped with a bandage.

what's wrong with your hands?,I asked

nothing .'I am sorry blayer '.

why ?

I failed to give ryan back to you,he was changed totally ,I am sure he is hiding something from others,he was forced to marry her not with his will.

ohhh...!,whatever, he won't come to me hereafter .I cried so hard.

karden,don't worry we all believe you,don't think about him,just relax.He cheated on you even though he make his life then what about you to have one.just leave.are you had breakfast?,he asked .

"no"

he glanced at my dull face and headed to the kitchen, soon he came with a plate of sandwiches and peppered salad.

"Have your breakfast"

I will eat later,I said.

But he compelled, I obeyed him,and ate breakfast.

He comforted me with his warm words,eventhough I hadn't stopped crying.

he decided to leave after sometime, just he went close to the door,all at the instant my family came angrily.

mr.karden stepped back.

how dare that ryan cheated blayer,said my mom.

they shouted to me.

From the beginning we warned, don't trust that idiot,see now what happened, we went to gabie marriage the groom was ryan,your father almost went to beat him,he shut our mouth by his dreadful words.

"your daughter is a money digger"

see,this is the praise for your wait,atleast obey us now.

"mourning"

they become chill after seeing mr.karden.

he bowed and they started their talk.

I tried to leave but my mom compelled me to mingle with them.

we won't be silent anymore,your marriage will be on next week,this is the only solution,said dad.

I kept silent I saw mr.karden ,he too thought why so sudden.

I need some time, I requested.

'how many days',dad asked .

I don't know,I said crying.

I left the place .

he might be married, my thoughts of Ryan.

I wasn't consoled,instantly,back pain increased ,the same place before,middle of the vertebral column,pains like someone stabbed with a knife ,I can't bear the pain I fell on the floor from the bed when I tried to get down. I was jammed ,I wasn't moved an inch just stayed silent ,I went asleep on the floor itself after an hour.

I was sleeping on the floor,when I was opened my eyes cold water moist me,I was wondered where it comes from, I raised my head ,where it was dropped from the window side because of rained yesterday night.

I thought I want help to stand because of pain but I did it myself.

I understood only status was considered not a person.

I was drained ,emotions are lost,only the body exists.

I decided to attend the class I was ready and has took my bag , that time I saw the stone I collected, I get one of them and went to college, I walked slowly towards the bus stand, there I saw Ryan and his friends standing beside the parlour behind him gabie came from the shop, she raised her hand from distance I smiled to her and walked straight to bus stand, I can hear his friends badmouthed about me, I was angry over Ryan. Atleast he can't control his friends.

As soon inside and sighed, I wasn't expecting this from everyone in the college gave a different glare, some griefs showed grief, some scandalous about myself.

No one has known really what I am, except a few.

l met lily at the library, I apologized for not coming to the library yesterday.

without waiting she hold my hands and comforted me.

lily, "I know how can your heart feels now, but you need to come out of the situation. you are good enough in your studies, improve your skills and experience a new life".

I nodded, and after hearing her advice, I realised the fact.

"I need to move on"

Education is the only tool to live my remaining life,

Mr. karden is right, I gave pure and true love to him but Ryan left me then, why do I need to think about him still, stuck in his thoughts,

it will be okay to move on.