It's quarter to six and Liam should be arriving in fifteen minutes. Even though I'm showered and have shaved to an inch within my life, my hair is straightened, makeup is perfectly in place, and I'm dressed, I'm still not sure if I'll go through with this date.
I hate to sound like a broken record but...
What's the point?
We're either going to walk away at the end of the night and never see each other again or-
My brain shies away from considering the other possibility. I'm scared to death that this date will go well. What if we have a nice time?
What then?
The age difference between us feels insurmountable. If we were both older, and in the same place in life, it would be a different story.
But we're not.
If I've learned anything over the years, it's that relationships are hard. What's the point of investing time in one when we both know it's not going to work out in the end?