CHAPTER 36 - CRUMBLING WALLS

Alina POV:

We had a bit too much wine, so Tino is our ride. Sitting in the back of the limousine Romeo puts his arm around me, and I gladly fall into it, the city lights dancing around the car providing me with enough light to see his beautiful face. So handsome, his dark hair perfectly styled, his beautiful eyes, every time I look into them I get lost in it depths, his straight nose and pouty full lips, so kissable, don't get me started on how good he smells, it should be illegal. He's just perfect, I'm sure on another life Romeo could have been a model, he's that good looking, how this man with beautiful heart to match became mine, I just don't know. As if feeling my eyes on him Romeo stops checking his messages on his phone, slips it in his pocket and looks at me. My heart suddenly picks up speed, it's not like I haven't been through hell and high water with this man, but it just feels like more now, like we crossed some invisible line that has made everything more intense.

Romeo turns slightly and slides his hand into mine. "What are you looking at sweetheart?" Romeo asks with a smirk.

"Just looking at you, I don't know how I got so lucky, you could have had any woman you wanted," I say truthfully.

Romeo stares at me, his face unreadable, for a second I think I might have said something wrong. He puts up the privacy glass and looks back down to me. "But my heart chose you, my stone cold heart wanted you. I never thought I would love, or be loved. I am the Mafia, it's who I am, and to find someone who truly accepted that, and didn't do it for fame, money or just connections or what they could get out of me. When I saw you it was game over, even if I didn't know it right then, it was love at first sight, you were just different." Romeo finishes and my heart just melts, I lean over and give Romeo a kiss, a real kiss from all my heart and soul, which he returns with just as much passion and love.

I move onto Romeo's lap sitting sideways and he holds my waist, gripping lightly as I put my arms around him, Romeo slowly runs his hand down to my thigh and the kiss gets more heated. Romeo slowly kisses down my neck, my coat falling open slightly down my shoulder. My heart picks up as Romeo begins to kiss me with more urgency his hand coming up from my waist and I stiffen slightly and Romeo pulls up my fallen coat and just holds me, running his thumb over my cheek looking into my eyes. "I love you Lina, we can take things as slow as you want. I don't want you to feel obligated in any way, holding you is enough," Romeo says sweetly, his voice full of emotion.

The car rolls to a stop and Tino opens the door and I move off Romeo and he takes my hand helping me out. "Tino, check with Dario if there's anything to report on tonight's security, if it's important let me know, otherwise all men to keep their distance around the perimeter of the house and be on guard all night. I don't want to be disturbed understood? If it's business related talk to Leo," Romeo says.

"Understood," Tino says and he gives me a smile. We walk into the house and Romeo puts the downstairs lights on.

"Anything to drink baby?" Romeo asks as he strips off his coat, suit Jacket and tie, throwing it on one of the bar stools.

"No thanks," I say standing at the entrance of the kitchen and undo my shoes and kick them off, to which Romeo smirks at my habit, he's tripped over many of my heels, but he always seems amused to find them there. Romeo opens a bottle of water and takes a sip, and I walk over to him dropping my coat my nerves kicking in, I try to dispel them and be in the moment with Romeo. He puts his water bottle down and run my hands up his torso looking into his eyes, Romeo let's out a breath as I wrap my hands around his neck, he holds me around my waist and backs me up to the kitchen island and kisses me slowly, his tongue exploring mine, in a dance only the two of us know the moves too, leaning one hand on the island and one still on my waist, his body is pressed against mine.

We start breathing heavier, and still kissing slightly more urgently now. We break away and I can see the internal struggle within Romeo, "let's go to the bedroom," I say as our foreheads touch. Romeo picks me up and he carries me up stairs as if I weigh nothing, giving me slight kisses as I play with the long hair in his neck, I know he likes this.

Romeo lays me on the bed kicking his shoes off after closing the door. He lays down next to me watching me as I undo my hair, once free he runs his hands through it and pulls me closer and kisses me deeply as he moves and hovers over me. I unbutton his shirt, and run my hands up his strong chest, both of us breathing heavier as I slip his shirt off and fling it onto the floor. Running my hands though his hair Romeo kisses down my neck running his hands down my body and up again cupping my breast. I have a mental war going on, wanting this but being so scared to go through with it, I love this man, and I want to give him my all, flashes of Angel pop into my head and I try so hard to push them out and be in the moment.

Romeo reaches back and unzips my dress, my breath picks up and I kiss him harder, Romeo leaves my lips and shimmies me out of the tight dress, dropping it to the floor. He looks down at me in appreciation and I relax slightly, still trying to calm my mind. He steps off the bed and removes his pants almost hesitantly, but let's it drop and I get a view of this magnificent man, he's all mine, I just need to get out of my head for a moment and try to be present.

Romeo kneels between my legs and kisses up my leg to my thigh and my breathing increases getting heavier and heavier. He kisses up past my panties and lays gentle kisses on my stomach to my breasts, kissing over the material and lays his body over mine kissing me his tongue massaging mine, and he lowers himself and I feel his boxer clad arousal pressing against my covered sex, and he runs a hand down my arm to hold my hand and my tears start running and I panic as he starts to move against me. "Romeo," I whimper starting to panic, my heart slamming against my chest, as I push him against his torso and he looks at me and immediately stops sitting up.

"Alina? Baby are you alright? Breathe baby, just take a deep breath in and out," I shoot up from the bed when he tries to touch me and grab his shirt covering myself and move to the window. My tears are running and I'm shaking, Romeo comes near me and tries to reach for me, and I freak out even more. "It's ok baby, it's just me, Romeo, you're safe," I drop down to my knees and rock back and forth, and I feel his arms around me as he kisses my head. "It's ok baby, it's alright, just breathe and let it all out," Romeo says soothingly.

We sit for what feels like hours, him holding me, never moving from the spot, kissing my hair and telling me its going to be ok. "I'm so sorry, Romeo I'm so sorry, he didn't do anything but he might as well have."

"It's not your fault, I should never have done this, I was stupid, I should be apologising. It was too soon," Romeo says and I eventually turn to look at him and I see tears in his eyes.

I put my hands on his cheeks, "Romeo it's not you, it's me, I'm screwed up, I feel ready but when you were over me and you reached for my hand, I couldn't breathe. I had this internal war going on, it's not you, you were perfect," I say my tears running, he let's out a heavy breath and kisses my forehead.

"Lets get into bed and cuddle, just be bella, I love you," Romeo says sweetly. We get off the floor and I slip into bed, removing my jewellery and placing it on the nightstand. Romeo goes into the closet and slips on some light grey sweatpants and slides in next to me. He switches on the TV and puts on Friends, he knows I love it and it makes me laugh. We watch a few episodes and I'm cuddled into his arm stroking his chest and I feel him breathing heavier he's been asleep for a while. His hand laying on his stomach, and I can see every part of his torso, he's so beautiful and I swear he's a lot bigger than before, trace my hand lightly over his stomach muscles, and he doesn't flinch.

I'm enjoying tracing my fingers over all his tattoo's and I come across my name over his heart and place a kiss on it. He really does love me so much, a sense of calm runs over me, I no longer feel that anxiety gripping me, just looking at his peaceful face, and having his arm around me, I feel safe, no longer afraid.

It's as if a switch has flipped. I shift softly not to wake him, and he moves slightly his hand dropping next to him, kiss lightly from his neck down his collar bone and across his chest. He moves a little, and I move over him, kissing down across the tattoo meant for me, and I feel him breath heavier but he's still asleep. I get to his happy trail and a light dusting of dark hair leads down into his sweats, and I lick down slowly and I run my hand over his crotch and it's hard, he's having a pleasant dream.

I tug it just a little further and Romeo stirs and I hear a soft moan and look up. "Alina baby? What are you... " Romeo whispers huskily and I cut him off by squeezing his package and I realise there's no underwear under his sweats.

"Shhh, don't speak," I answer and kiss his length over his sweatpants and he moans and I lightly graze my teeth over it and squeeze harder.

"Bella... You don't have to do this," Romeo says even more huskily, a moan escaping his throat.

"I want too..." I say and Romeo pulls me up and kisses me as I straddle him, we kiss so passionately my breath hitches and we break to breath and before I know it Romeo is kissing me again, removing the shirt, he rolls me over onto my back and breaks the kiss, looking into my eyes as if asking if it's alright. "Don't stop," I whisper.

Romeo kisses me harder and grinds his hardness into me, moving harder against me and I realise I'm matching his rhythm, moving along with him and whimpering, soft moans escaping me. He moves off me to my side and his hand goes to unclasp my bra and I don't feel afraid, he kisses down my neck to my naked breasts and latches onto my nipple his tongue moving in circles. His fingers move lightly down my body and reach my barely there lace panties and he stops what he's doing and looks into my eyes to see if I'm ok, and when I show no hesitation he moves his hand into my panties and looks into my eyes, my breathing heavier and my body shivering in delight.

His hand moves lower and I can feel his erection pressed against my leg, he is rock hard. He runs a finger from my bundle of nerves down and up again. My breathing is picking up and I feel so warm all over finally he slides a finger inside me, and I moan out loudly in pleasure and Romeo kisses me hungrily, and I return the kiss with just as much hunger. He breaks away and latches onto my nipple again and bites slightly causing me to move against his hand more fervently. "Romeo..." I whimper, "please..." what I'm begging for I don't know. My hand moves down into his sweatpants and I grip his length, I hear him moan in appreciation, I run my thumb over his leaking tip and he shivers, moving his fingers in me harder, "Don't stop!" I moan out loud.

"Lina baby... Yes..." he whispers and runs his thumb over my nub and I move harder and my breath starts to quicken and grip Romeo harder moving my hand in slow hard strokes.

My climax hits me, and I kiss Romeo hard and he let's me ride out my orgasm still gripping him and he moves in my hand. "Romeo yes!" I manage as he runs his finger over my sensitive nub and makes my body shudder.

Romeo moves to take off my panties but hesitates, and I nod and he keeps going throwing them lord knows where. He moves between my open legs, giving him a view of all of me, and he moves down his sweats slowly just in case I change my mind. I sit up slightly and run my hand down his chest in assurance, even though I'm a bit nervous, I feel ok. The look of love in his eyes, want and lust for me is over overwhelming.

Romeo takes that as his encouragement and moves over me and kisses me deeply and pulls away looking into my eyes he reaches down and positions himself and slides into me slowly, my breath picks up and I'm panting along with him and bite my lip as I feel him fill me up an inch at a time till he's in to the hilt. Romeo kisses me pouring all his love into me and he begins to move and his head drops to my neck and I hold onto him sliding my hand into his hair gripping it lightly and closing my eyes, happy tears falling. I'm finally brave enough to make love to the man of my dreams that has captured my heart so fully.

I Romeo lifts his head kissing me holding onto my hip lifting himself up slightly moving his hand from my hip he reaches between us and massages me on my sensitive nub causing me to moan louder, and pulls his hand away and starts moving into me harder causing me to arch my back meeting him thrust for thrust, kissing my neck as I scream out louder and louder. "Romeo I'm so close baby don't stop, harder!" I manage to scream out.

Romeo moves harder, his breathing getting heavier, he's close. He looks into my eyes, "I want to see you, come for me baby," that's all it takes and I explode around him shaking and moaning loudly unable to say anything coherent. It's takes less than a few seconds and Romeo explodes inside of me. "Lina..." is all I hear and his head drops to my neck and I hold onto him tightly my body still sensitive and Romeo's body still trembling lightly with small spasms. Breathing heavily we lay like that for a while and he rolls off me pulling me to his side. Romeo kisses my head, "I love you baby", he whispers.

"I love you too, more than anything in this world," I answer exhausted feeling my eyes close. I feel Romeo get up and a warm cloth and I drift off feeling him getting back into bed and holding me close.

"You are my world Lina..."