Barely

Out for an evening jog which K. Min (Nickname - Mina) now hardly does, but still he somehow managed to gather all the little bit of energy, and motivation left of him to go outside lately which he doesn't do. He had a heavy lunch and usually goes out whenever he gobbles down meat, so he used that pattern to convince himself to go. After his so called gearing up for jogging he managed to go outside but his mental space was so down that he could barely stay alive while being alive, he found a analogy for that situation in which he consider his life as four room compartment and each compartment have a light bulb in it, now he don't know which department was handling his 'down' moment but he thought that in at-least two rooms in his life, the light has been turned off and this insincere feeling he is having right now has been going on for a while the reason is still unknown he may have an idea of it's causing but that is inconclusive, going back to the jogging part yes he finally started walking down the street, he puts a wireless headphone to ignore all commotion happening in his surrounding, the weather is quite good with occasional blow of wind, after 10-15 minutes of walking bypassing the market and reaching a stretch of road around an old graveyard having less commotion comparatively and he started jogging , after 15 minutes of jogging he caught his breath and he stops and he feels like to moving so slow that he just stops. The sun is almost gone with little to no light left he now starts his return journey which he decides to go with the same pace with which he was continuing and he looks at the sky, trees, and clouds, which are his common activity when he is outside and this time he caught looking at one particular Palm tree whose shades were very dark, the leaves of the tree are oriented like an ergo sphere surrounding black weird geometrical construct and he stopped for a while like 5 seconds just to see that tree, noticing his infinite depth and after that, he continues to go back to his house but that 5-second experience was so memorable as watching a star collapsing in front of his eyes. He hardly gets calls so most of the time he spent either working for the company or watching or reading exciting stuff, after wrapping up his work he remained laid in the bed which has been his position for some time, and he got a notification from the HR team one of the top 5 company in the world confirming his offer and date of reporting, he has no one to share the news apart from his mother who doesn't really get the idea for working in one of the top 5 company in the world, for her holding a position in public administration trumps any lucrative job in the world, he still informed one of his closest friend who he shares everything, a couple of other colleagues and received the greetings but after doing all that he doesn't get a bit excited, his mental space is still in that position as it was there earlier. At this age, he gave up all his quests and is simply following the societal procedure of a normal guy but that is unlike him, what he is waiting for is 'Perish'.