Chapter eleven

That night, I had a dream. A strange dream. I didn't know how to explain it. All could say was that it was about Xavier:

I was in a beautiful garden. Xavier was smiling and carrying me in his arms. He was telling me how beautiful and how lucky he was. He occasionally kissed my forehead and we hopped happily about. He was very happy. I was wondering what had changed about him.

Suddenly, I became confused and the place changed. I was back there at the waterfall where we were picking the rabbits. He turned to look at me with dark eyes filled with hatred and pure disgust. It was like he didn't want to look at my face.

He told me I was a burden to him. He said I was tormenting him and I should have stayed with my mother and died. As tears fell down my face, he still went on and walked away from me.

My head kept spinning and the scenery changed again. I saw that I was in a dark room and I saw a human heart of the brightest shade of red on a golden plate in a white room.

Just as I made attempts to reach the heart, a strong force pulled me back. It kept me from reaching the heart.

I tried harder to push but it sent me back again. This time, I ran so hard. It threw me backward and I flew in the air and landed in darkness. I let out a shrill of pain but it was as if my voice was tied in my throat.

Just then, a voice filled my head. "I'll never give you access into my heart. I wish you'd rather turn into dust and go far away from me…"

At that moment, I woke up suddenly. I was sweating all over. I realized that I was also crying. I got so scared. I suspected that the voice I heard belonged to Xavier.

I didn't know why, but it just hurt me that he didn't want to be around me.