Sira was feeling very disgusted with herself and what she did to him and how he just stopped the spell all by himself .
She rested her head on his shoulder while he was still looking at the wall behind her .
She couldn't even look at him after what happened , that is why she didn't move even when the spell was done .
Sira just couldn't see his eyes after what happened and he didn't seem to care enough for that .
`` Thank you , love, without you , I would have lost a lot of blood and eventually died randomly . it was not your decision to save me , I would have died `` He said with a calm voice .
When listening to him in that position sira felt more calm than she would ever be , her heartbeat was slowing down after he started to talk and she felt relieved that all that huge desire started to fade away slowly .
`` i still hate you," she said to him .