I really needed answers to my questions and here I was, being muted. It also felt nice being like that but I needed to stop that madness. I needed to stop my racing heart, my heartbeat was getting too loud for my ears. As if sensing my thoughts, he drew away from me.
"You have to stop your heart from racing faster whenever you are with me. You don't have to get worried whenever I'm worried. You have to stop your heart from aching for me. You don't have to get hurt when I call you by your name or yell at you. And for the rest of your questions to ask, you have to stop them all", he said holding with my cheeks in his palm.
"And why should I?", I questioned.
"Because I'm not a good guy. I'm not as good as you think or see. I'm too dangerous for you. So please listen to me", he wasn't making it easy for me to understand him at all.
"I don't understand what you are saying Keenan, can't you explain to me further?", I asked but he just smirked and walked out on me. He left me standing confused by the door. I drove straight to my house since I wasn't in the mood for Ryan's jokes anymore. I walked lazily to my room ignoring Ana's presence in the hall and I knew she would definitely come after me so I locked my door behind.
"Princess", I heard her call when she failed to open the door.
"Go away", was the only answer I could give her. I wanted to be alone to figure things out on my own.
"What's wrong with you darling?", she spoke again.
"I said go away. I want to be alone", I said sitting on the floor.
"Just open the door first and I promise to leave after that", she was trying to negotiate with me but I knew her too well. I didn't respond to her calls till I felt she had left.
Then I began to recall all that happened during the day causing another pain in my chest.
"Did he really kiss me? Why did he have to that? And why did he say he's dangerous for me? What at all is going on with him?", I couldn't stop questioning myself because I needed urgent answers to my questions. I knew I had fallen in love with him because I knew the symptoms of falling in love and I wasn't going to deny it but, I didn't know why he was trying to make himself scary to me.
"Maybe he doesn't love you as you do,", I answered myself since that was the only answer that could explain his deeds to me better.
"Are you asleep?", I heard Ana's voice coming through. She couldn't leave me in the state I was in earlier so she came back to check up on me.
"Why can't you just leave me alone Ana", I yelled at her.
"I'm just worried about you princess, can't you tell me what's going on with you?", instead of getting mad at me for yelling at her, she was rather pampering me. She's just the best nanny anyone could have.
"I'm fine, you can leave ", I told her trying to remain calm.
"Is it about your friend at the hospital? Or did you get into a fight with anyone?", she was still asking and I knew she wouldn't leave unless she got what she wanted. I got up from the floor and opened the door for her. She didn't waste any minute before walking in after me.
"What's bothering you?", was the first question she asked after walking in.
"I told you I'm fine, didn't I?"
"You are not fine to me, just talk to me darling", she insisted. I knew she wasn't going to leave until I said something to her.
"I signed Ryan's document as his fiancé and I'm worried", I diverted her attention to something else since I didn't know how I was going to explain how I was feeling to her.
"Is that why you are worried?", he asked heaving a sigh of relive.
"What else? And why else won't I be worried?", I asked raising a brow.
"Maybe he's just pulling a prank on you. Now come downstairs and eat, food is ready", she said tapping my shoulders before walking out of the room.