Chapter 6: Sadness

She runs to her room and shut the door loud without care, her heart is aching painfully that she can't explain, her dad has been going on business trips often but this one feels like she was losing him fiercer. Her heart hurts like never before, she falls beside her bed and lay her head on the bed crying nonstop. She understands that her dad got a company to run but the feeling was just too much for her to handle, she doesn't understand why she always has to spend little it no time with him.

She wishes to stay in his arms forever while he sings lullabies with her, she wishes to live a life full of happiness with her dad beside her, she spoke out her wishes, hoping the heavens are listening and will grant it for she can't imagine herself in this mansion without her dad every single day his not at home for it is hell for her. She believes her dad is her home and without him in the mansion, she has no home.

I, Brown was already confused as he told his family about his upcoming trip in two days but upon seeing his princess climbing up the stairs at a higher speed as if been chased by something, he became much more confused and was clueless about what to fo next. He follows her and upon reaching her room, he hears her cries loud and clear, her cries had a lot of meaning as his heart could infer clearly. He stood by the door as tears roll down his cheeks as he silently listen to all her wishes. After some time, he composes himself and wipes off the tears on his face, and gently, he knocks at the door waiting for her to respond as he patiently and calmly calls to her.

He stood at the door for a while before she opens the door letting him in. He yanks her into his embrace, she cried more but it was nothing to him because he was willing to comfort her. After he successfully calmed her down, he kiss her on her forehead and wipes away her tears with his tomb calmly, he starts explaining everything to her, making her understand that he never meant to wish for any of these to happen. He thought he had more days to spend with his little princess but it was quite unfortunate that life is bent on keeping them apart.

Not wanting to be so clingy and unreasonable, Amalia tells her dad not to worry for she understand everything just even though she knows she is important to her dad, it does mean her dad will abandon his business for her, it is her future her dad is trying to pave for her and holding him back will be a very selfish thing she would do. He nods his head at her with a proud smile on his lips as he hugs her again, feeling blessed to have her as his daughter, and for that, he will never get tired of thanking his beloved wife, Melissa and God Almighty, mighty for giving him such wonderful gift for a daughter.

Later that day, at nightfall, Amalia leave for the fields and sat at her favorite spot while gazing at nothing in particular. Her thought went wide as she thought about her life. She raise her head to the night sky and notice there was no sign of stars talkless of the moon. The night sky was so dull and dark, a sign of loneliness and emptiness. She looks at it and wonders if the night sky feels everything she is feeling, she knows her life is no different from the dull night sky she is looking at, that only gets its light and beauty from the moon and stars because for her, her dad us her moon and stars and without him, her life is nothing but emptiness and loneliness, there is no firm if beauty in her life...it is like a world that's immersed in complete darkness.

Tears roll down her cheeks as she sobs quietly, trying to hold herself from crying. The field was glamorous and with the sight, she sang her favorite song, she sang as she sobs quietly doing her best to hold it but when it was too much for her to bear, she cries harder, letting it all out, she was frustrated with the feeling inside of her, she hopes someone is listening to her pleads, God, her Mum, anyone.

Her cries could be heard in the silence of the night, begging someone to help her out, from this grief and agony. how she wishes her wishes will be granted, all the fairy tales she's been reading, how she wishes a fairy will ask her to make her wishes then she will wish to spend more time with her daf, to do what she has always wanted to do, to live a peaceful life with love and happiness. She wishes things could just go back to the way it was ten years ago when her family was complete and filled with happiness. She wishes her mon never left them in this lonely and loveless world.

Her absence has caused her a lot of pain, sadness, and emptiness, her absence has made her see the other side of life and the true nature of the people she once considered her family. Why can't bless her with happiness and love? why can't he make stepmother Lizzy and little sister Dellia live here and not hate her? why can't help her through it all? she asked herself this question for she doesn't understand what is going on anymore, what she was born to suffer like this? she believes in a better tomorrow but where is it now that she needs it? will it come only after her death? or is God mad at her? she cried in grief as she kept on asking herself questions, everything is going wrong in her life and she is losing it.