5. Loser

Work out! Eat healthy! Be happy!

... Yeah affirmation weren't really helping.

It's was kind of hard to get over the fact that you died with tons of regrets and got reborn as a baby whit this regrets still clear in your mind. Especially when you had the time to dwell on this regrets and the fact that if you gived your all in everything your life could be different.

   But hey, new life !

On the bright side , crawling around a lot was helping me with my coordination. And it also mean that I was out of the crib more often instead of laying around wrapped up like a burrito.

   I even got this neat routine that keeps me out of depression.

  Crawl around in the day to work out, get feed , mess around whit my brother, get clean, nap.

  Crawl around more in the afternoon while using the new energy from my body then collapse from the exhaustion, Wake up, mess whit my brother, get feed again, get changed,  nap .

  Wake up in the bed at night . Do a lot of visualisation exercises, math and other mental gymnastics to ignore the moans and the dirty talk that I could actually understand now, mess again whit my brother, use again  the new energy to collapse from  the exhaustion.

  Wake up, rinse and repeat.

A pretty boring life but it was something to keep  me busy. Especially messing whit my brother. I didn't do much to him , just a little hair pulling , trying to pinch him whit my small hand, slapp him gently in the face , and taking the blanket for myself at night, of course I was covering him back if he didn't waked up, i don't want him to get sick and have to sleep with a snooty brother in the same bed.

    Anyway I also found out a bunch of new interesting things during my crawl session.

   First, it that I was born in a pretty well-off family.

   Our house was a nice two story wooden building. There were five rooms I could crawl to on the first floor, and there were loked up a few more upstairs but since I couldn't climb the stairs without suffering the same fate  as Kuina, who died by the hand of Down D. Stairs, brother off Truck-kun .

  Either way, it was a nice house, a bit rustic since it was mostly from wood , but in a fancy European way.

   Not only that but from the glimpses I could take outside whenever someone was lifting me up , we were living on a tall hill, in the country side too, whit a village in the distance and loots of farmland.

   My dad was irresponsible and whenever he was home all he did was flirt whit my mother and swing a sword outside in the courtyard.

   I wonder if he will teach me in the future swordsmanship.

I think he is a low-rank knight or something sice he can afford a maid and this type of house. And knights did have some fiefdom and land. I think.

   My mom spend most of the time whit us when we were younger but these days she leaves the house more often, I heard them talking about a clinic ,so I think she works there.

   Either way I was wrong , she was a doctor after all.

  That meant I was mostly home alone whit my brother and the maid who handed us bottles of whatever we were  hungry and changed us when we needed it.

    She was a bit wierd though. Since in the first months she was looking at us like we were possessed or something.  But these days she seemed more relaxed and treated us like normal babys .

   Anyway she was wierd. For the most part she was acting professionally, prim and prospect like a maid should me . But I  other times she was a bit...of? Like she closed a part in her? Maybe a trauma?

  Meh.

More about me.

  The colours that I started seeing were definitely not colours. As days passed by they got clear and clear. I also noticed that people started to emit colours too. That why I decided to call them ' magic eyes '.

  Mom seemed to have a calm golden light around her, Dad had this wierd silver light. The maid had that too but her was calm and soft, and my brother Rudes or ' Rudy '

had a small blue light.

  It was wierd but baby's are wierd in general.

  Also I got the names for everyone, dad was Paul, mother was Zenith, the maid was Lilia  and my brother Rudeus.

  As my name was Yami, Yami Greyrat.

I think mother chosed my brother's name since it a fancy one and father mine since it sounds cool.

  Anyway time passed, boring days, but busy days. Mostly just me hanging around Miss Lilia when she was doing chores.

  But one day something happened.

The little fucker thought he was better then me. He actually started fighting back when I was messing whit him.

  And one day, in the morning Mom was probably busy knitting sweaters. Probably because winter was close. My dad was outside training as always and Miss Lilia was cleaning the upstairs rooms. Basically everyone was busy, except us.

  Out mother left us in the living room whit a kiss on the forehead, before she started working on her stuff.

  My messing whit Rudy transformed in little fights . Well not fights ,more like hugging and rolling around, but they were fights. And we were fighting for supremacy.

   I knew that one day that  he will start fighting back but I never expected to be so early.  Anyway I need to make a move that will remain as a reminder to never fuck whit me.

    Since I been crawling around my leg strength and coordination got better,  so I standed up. He was clearly surprised seeing me do that,since  we were not old enough to do that.

  Felling confident, I looked straight in his eyes and took the first step.

  That's when really fucked me. Just because I know how to do it doesn't mean my body can.

  *SNAP* That was the sound of my legs breaking in two like spaghetti .

  " E-Eh? "

  I gasped and quickly tried to soften my fall by blocking it with my hands, like any normal person would do.

   But I underestimate the fragility of my body and just like my legs *SNAP* my hands broke too.

  A laud crack . My arms bending in wierd angles . My legs to. And pain , a lot , but it was nothing besides the one coming from my soul.

   Rudy seeing my curent state got  panicking and started crying, loudly.

It didn't took long before the  sounds of huried steps were coming over. Since it was wierd for us to cry so loud.

    First was Mom who started panicking seeing my curent state.

  " Yami ! Oh no , nononono..." she was panicking and was trembling really hard.

  She then looked at my face and saw no reaction, I was watching her with no expression on my face.

  I fucked up

  Real bad . Sure I could use the 'world energy' and slowly heal my limbs but i am baby. My body it in a it is in continuous growth so they will never be the same.

   Watching my Mom as she looked at me. The she did something cool. She calmed down suddenly, her face was calm, her arms stopped trembling and had a focused look on her face.

   She didn't picked me up or anything, instead she carefully laid me on my back to check the damage.

   " Good, I can fix this. "

.....not sure how I can avoid being a cripple after this but sure mom, if it makes you feel better. Should I try to make you feel better to?

  I tried to smile but she kissed my forehead and slowly patted my head

" Don't worry Yami, mommy's  here , mommy will make pain go away."

  ' You know that's very sweet but I don't think it woks like that '

    "Let this divine power be as satisfying nourishment, giving one who has lost their strength the strength to rise again  " .

  Eh?

A sudden flash of light. At the same time the golden light usually floating around my mom gathered and flew into my broken arms and legs . Then, before my eyes my twisted limbs snapped back in their place.

  ..Wait. What ?

My mom let out a sight, picked me up and poked my nose . " See? Momy was a renowned adventurer. I healed a lot worse then that ... mostly you father . " she furrowed her eyebrows and said  " He was serious reckless at times. "

  Wait . Hold on. What just happened?  Was that magic ? Adventurer ?

   The door slammed open and my dad run over drenched in sweat .

  " Zenith, what happened? "

My mom bobbled me up and turned towards father " Looks like Yami inherited your reckless steack. He tried to walk but fail and braked his limbs."

  My dad blinking and started to laugh. Walking over he grabbed me from my mother and lifted me up in the air " Looks like we got a natural sword man in our hands , don't we? "

  " Hmph" my mom shook her head and said " You don't know that yet, maybe he has a better affinity with magic ? "

  My dad frowned " But you promised, if we had a son he will learn swordsmanship "

   " Well you brake your promises all the time, plus we have two sons. And after all it's their choice to choose what they will learn . "

  My mom put me down on the floor again " Be careful ,okay , Yami? We don't want you to get hurt " then she goes over were Rudy was, who was still amazed about what happened, she kissed him on the forehead and said " Rudy, please take care of your little brother when we are not around " .

When I heard that I could fell the world crumble under my feet, lastly and most importantly was Rudy who had a smug expression on his face.

   I lost  * gtaV death sound efect *