Story of my life

"Uhm-I..." I gulped,  really really finding it hard to talk.

Battling my fingers, I looked at my siblings faces one note time.

Everyone had this quiet solemn look on Thier faces Aside from Racheal and Jayden, they look so much tensed, ounce of anger emitting in thier eyes. While Racheal didn't affect me, Jayden scared.

"Well I use to have the best life ever. At least I would say my family use to be the best thing that's ever happened to me. Being the last baby of our house, everyone was fond of me. From my parents down to my All three brothers. Yes I had three brothers but—but things take a turn when my father's dad. I basically was the cause of father's death. He died trying to save me.

Dad have. critical Aquagenic urticaria so it was dangerous for him to immerse himself in salt water but there was this very day at the beach. I was drowning, dad had warned me to swim but I was so stubborn and he  was the only one there. He didn't think twice on his decision, he didn't think of the consequences of his Actions when he dived in to rescue me out.

But just after saving me, the water burned through  his body rapidly and before help could come, he—he died.

My brothers blamed me for dad's death, they grew hatred for me for causing dad's death. And thier loathe towards me increased when mother's became more closer to me.

I mean I was greatly affected by dad's death, the fact that I killed him made me depressed and traumatized, for straight one year, I couldn't stop crying but Mum was there for me. She kept consoling me. She never supports my brothers in blaming me for dad's death and that triggered my brothers to hate me more, they hated me so much with passion.

They started hitting me on most times, it started from Dennis my second elder brother. He fired slapped me right inside the hospital ward and then as days rolls by, my two other brothers started hurting me.

They'll get angry at me for even the slightest reasons just so they'll have a reason to beat me up. Sometimes they'll group beat me and leave ugly bruises on my body. But I dare not tell mother about it, I've to find a lie to tell her because they threatens to beat me more if I dare tells Mum about. The torture from my brothers continue, they later starts doing for fun.

They starved me for no just reason, beat up with whips and sometimes Dennis cuts me with sharp objects. When he was extremely angry he'll do more vile things to me, burns me with Iron, make me sleep outside the cold when Mum was on night duties. My brothers sometimes uses me as thier punching bag each time they are angry or just want to have fun.

My life was hell, I was suffering and dying in silence but couldn't let Mum know about it because I was scared of what my brothers will do to me.

When we all resumed school, the suffering became worst. My brothers weren't the only devils in my life, but people at school. I was awfully quiet and literally scared of everything because of what I'm suffering from my brothers, I thought being meek will help me not get in trouble with anyone but instead they all took advantage of me.

Everyone in school bullies me and I couldn't defend myself. My brothers hated me more because I was a disgrace to them. I mean they were the new hotties of the school, everyone loves them both girls and boys. I was a stain to them and for that reason, they joined everyone to bully me. Honestly I preferred other student bullying me cause each time my brothers bullies me, they make sure they beat me up to whimpness. The bully kept on increasing cause there was No one to protect me. I mean my brothers obviously publicize thier hatred towards me."

"I thought I've seen it all but as if breaking me completely, my brothers s..started taking me to men. They made me a slut for them. While the men they take me to will sexually molest me, they'll get money off it. I...I really didn't want to remember all that those men did to me but it...it was the darkest moment of my life." My voice was breaking in decreasing other of my telling my tails and this point, I was trembling vigorously. Breathing became difficult for me as I ended my tail.

"Seriously!!" Racheal grunted and she was looking dear angry, gritting her teeth and clenching her fist.

Jayden's fist was clench tight on his thigh, his veins popping out from thier places, he became more muscular and his facial expressions describes nothing but a beast, An angry beast.

Antonio was just staring blankly at me. I couldn't read him. He looked like someone who was in a trance.

Mattoe who'd been beside me was now standing, pacing back and forth. The person beside me now was Liam. When I look at him, my heart broke to pieces. For the first time, I've seen tears in one of my brothers eyes. Liam was crying.

"I am so sorry for everything you've been through..." Liam croaked while cuddling me to himself. "I...I don't even know what to say exactly. But...but I promise you no one will hurt you again." Liam's voice was extremely husky. Trying his best to stop crying.

"I swear Those fuckers deserve a slow painful death. How could they do that to thier own sister!!" Racheal lashed out in Anger.

I tenses up.

please don't do anything to hurt them please." I cried out to all my siblings. "I don't want anymore trouble. I just don't want you  to give me away to them that's why I told you all these. At least whatever they put me through, I deserved it somehow. Our father died because of me. Maybe if father haven't died..."

"It wasn't your fault clarrisa..." An angry voice cut me off. I look up to see Jayden's fiery eyes. "Your father did exactly what every fathers would do for thier child. No one have the fucking right to blame you for his death..."

"I swear..." Mattoe cuts in almost immediately. "Those fuckers... I'll kill them. No I'll fucking break them. They'll beg for death. I so swear they'll." He yelled and punch the nearest wall. Imprinting a fist Mark there.

"No, No no please don't find them. Please don't..." I was panicking when Antonio hacked in.

"It's alright clarrisa. We won't Do anything to them." From the moment Antonio said that, he received Angry glares from everyone of my siblings. Glares enough to kill him but ignoring them, he came to the bed to console me.

He snuggled into his arms, making me wet his shirt with my tears while he pats my back.

"Don't be scared alright? we won't give you away to anyone. Hell, I can never do that to my princepessa" Antonio reassured.

Gradually, I was able to get an ounce  of relief  and calmness. At least relieved that my eldest brother had assurrred me that he won't be finding nor giving me away to my ex-brothers.

They all later left after I've assured them I'll be okay. Liam didn't want to go but I promise him that I'll be fine. I mean it's 1:00 am. I've already been enough burden. I don't want to sap them off thier sleep.

Racheal P.O.V,

"It's alright clarrisa just stop crying already!!" I really didn't mean to sound harsh but it came harshly.

I mean clarrisa had been crying while I'd been pacing around the room, highly exasperated.

"I...I am sorry." She sniffled apologizing and I felt more angry.

Angry at myself but being this angry. No I wasn't being angry at clarrisa for crying but angry at all the bullshits I've heard tonight. Grenades was exploding in my head and seeing clarrissa cry without me being able to console her, got me more wild. I really wanted to console her but just don't know how.

I just paced around while she cried.

Puffing out so much Air, I went to her on the bed. She was surprised when I slowly hugged her to my shoulders, even me was surprised too. But I just have to do something. I thought I was though but my heart was crushing seeing her cry. Was this what they call twins bond.

God how  could your own family do all that to you? I was

I thought I've seen a lot but this sure break something in me.

I felt so uneasy. I was just waiting for clarrisa  to fall asleep cause my brothers asked me to look over her.

Once she fell Asleep, I headed for Antonio's  office.

He's the eldest. I've to know his plans about this whole thing because I ain't buying that bullshit he told clarrisa.

Those motherfucker who could have a heart to hurt thier own sister, deserve nothing for a barbaric Torture. Just anything that'll break them.

Getting to Antonio's office door, I didn't bother to knock. I just barged into the office and as expected, Antonio was inside but with the rest of my brothers.

They all startled the moment I walked in like criminals who've been nabbed by myriads of cobs, shunning whatever they were saying.

"Racheal!" Antonio breathed out, a surprise frown etched on his face. "What are you doing here? You should be sleeping by now"

"And you all shouldn't be." I said rolling  my eyes. "Well I just want to know your plans regarding clarrisa's bastard ex brothers. You can't just sit back and do nothing right?"

I shared glances with all my brothers and after the short silence, Antonio spoke.

"You heard her right Racheal. She don't want us to get involved with them."

"That's bullshit." I yelled before I could stop myself. Well I was dead angry. "Someone hurt your sister and you going to let that slide? I thought the De' Costas  kill people even for the slightest reasons. Don't tell me all those stories are all fake."

"Fake or not, our sister don't want us to get involved with her ex-brothers. We have to respect it." Liam said.

"Well, if you don't want to do anything then I'll take matters into my hand. You don't know how it feels to be abuse cause you haven't been abuse before. Those bastards  that  hurt clarrisa.  deserve a pay back." I spat angrily.

"And just how would you do that?" Jayden scoffed angrily.

"Have you forgotten? I work in a mafia before so don't underestimate me."

"Tsk tsk..." Jayden scoffed and stood up from the chair he was to face me. "Stop using that phrase to deceive yourself Racheal. Mafias are supposed to be strong and cold-blooded. Have you forgotten how a crying mess you was that night you talked about your past with your ex-boss. And how scared you was of him as if he was right in front of you about to kill you?  My point is... If you could get scared of him that much just because you've a past with him then put yourself in your sister's fucking shoes."

Rage and hurt surged through at Jayden said that. Talking about my weakness is a very sensitive topic for me but trying to keep my cool, I clenched my fist right.

"Maximo is different..." I said through gritted teeth.  "Maximo is dangerous. He's a mafia leader. He have connections. But from Clarrisa's story her brothers are just high schoolers. I'm not bragging but I alone can take them all down."

"If you are that strong then why did you have to cry over some event that's already happened in the past. Don't tell me you are only strong physically but your emotions are weak. If ask me that isn't the trait of a mafia."

"Jayden!!" Liam, Antonio and Mattoe all chorused at the same time.

He'll break loose, my emotions was taking over me in an explorative form and blurring my vision with tears.

"What? let me knock some sense into her." He said to all my brothers and unexpectedly, Mattoe pouched so hard that his lips bursted.

"What was that for?" Jayden yelled at mattoe. Staggering to keep his balance.

He just muttered 'Dick' to Jayden and leaned forward to meet me but this time my tears had stubbornly fell down. I didn't want my brothers to see me cry like a freak so I ran out of the office. Ignoring them yelling at me to come back.

I ran into the room, slumped on my bed and cried out all my anguish.

God! I hate Jayden. I hate him so much.