I remember a verse from 2pac where he says, "Bitch niggas do what they can do. Real niggas do what they wanna do." I understand that, completely. And right now I know I'm neither. I'm not doing what I want to do. Nor am I bitch doing what I can do. I'm simply a bitch that does nothing.
Has nothing.
Accomplished nothing.
A new category of "Do-nothing Bitch'' who feels hallow.
How many others are there? I hope not many. If so, then many who have a plan to navigate themselves out of nothing and into something. Anything.
Anything new and different. Anything better.
I do not know how this world works. There is too much I haven't figured out. It scares me to try. I don't want to hesitate. I want to fly up into something where I can feel myself truly soar.
But what?
Right now I'm just staring at the world.