Road Trip, II
"Elia--!"
"Ru- awa-y now!"
"My dea- s-n"
Muffled, darkness, a female voice screaming, telling me to run away. What is going on, why am I running? Wait, running? Am I running right now? Why are my hands moving?
What's going on right now!? I need to know! But who even am I? Why am I crying right now? Am I even crying? It's dark I can't see well and it's blurry, could it be because of the tears?
Huh, why am I looking at the sky right now, did I fall? Yeah, even though it's muffled and not understandable to me, I can feel some pain in my leg. Did I trip on a branch?
"Ahh… Mom, why…?"
A sound, a voice, a child's wailing voice was heard. Whose voice is this, is it my voice? Why am I alone here?
Is it just me and you here, Moon?
Are you the only one trying to console me in this lonely environment for me?
Is this an environment?
I can still hear the child wailing. Or am I crying and wailing with snot coming out of my nose and tears out of my eyes?
Is anyone to tell me?
Is there Anyone?!
Someone, please?
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I gasped, bolting up "hah, hah… W-what was that?!" I was breathing heavily and sweating a lot when I woke up from that dream… Or was it a nightmare?
What was that? I asked the question myself once more. I started wondering… Who was that child?
"I can't remember it well," I said as I tried to calm down my racing heart which still was going out of control.
Concentrate, control your breathing! I started inhaling and exhaling through my nose.
"Huh, where am I?" I said that as I looked around the room.
"The Moon?"
The nightmare that I just had, of course, was almost forgotten and not to mention the feeling that it was muffled from the beginning.
But that thing! I looked at the object floating in the dark sky shining in my room with its magical luminescent light.
"You, why can I remember you? Why can I still hear the cries of that miserable child? How are you… What are you trying to tell me!?" I asked that as I noticed that my chest was getting tight and my throat parched for water.
Why am I feeling angry? I thought to myself.
"Huh?" I got confused as my sight blurred.
Am I crying?
Am I really crying?
I am crying.
Why is it that I am crying?
The moon?
Was it because I saw the moon?
But what could the moon do to make me cry?
What is this feeling?
Is it the longing for someone?
Am I crying because I miss someone?
Who am I missing?
I am not longing for anyone!
It was the child's longing!
But who was he longing for?
I don't remember!
I need to remember!
I sniffed my running nose, "Ahaha, why? Why for? Ahh, why did she leave me?" I said that in a quiet tone as the tears came overflowing. I covered my face with both hands. But who was it that I talked about in those moments?
I started to feel lucid, surreal again. I was crying and sniffing like a lost child crying for its parent…
I kept crying and crying without a single valid reason, which made me look pathetic…
"Huh?" My breath left me as I noticed a hand pulling my head close to their body. It was soft. It was a woman's body.
"Seren?" I called out the name of the only woman in my heart. I then heard her soft and soothing voice that calms my very soul.
"It's alright Elias. It is alright to cry, so you can cry now. I am here with you."
"It must've been hard on you… Coming all the way here to us, all alone…"
But this time it was different. I don't know why but water overtook my eyes even more powerfully than the first time. I couldn't stop it, instinctually I also held her body.
For a short time, a pathetic side of mine was shown in front of the girl I like as she consoled me.