UNSURE FEELING AGAIN : (

I really hate the feeling unsure & have a doubt about everything and it's just makes me stress and makes me so sad because i don't what i gonna do about everything and i am just being curious and worried all the time.

I mean like i have been telling you from the first time that i was having a sharp feeling so even a small single thing you trying to hide i will know it and i will keep thinking about it and i wouldn't stop until i know the truth.

I only ask one thing from you be honest with me always and please don't trying to hide anything because you just think like with you hiding everything can keeps me safe you are really do a big mistake because when i found about it one day and i know it not from you it will really hurt me the most, i don't know how i could handle it.

So please i am asking to you if you had something don't hide it and if you had something to say just say it dont keep it even it's gonna hurt me it's okay it's probaly will hurt but is not more hurt when i know it from someone else and i just want to know everything from you.

And also i just want to say i am not stupid, i am not dumb, i am not deaf, i am not blind, i might be just being silence so far even i already found one of you dirt and it's really suprised me because it's happens in the beginning of our relationship and i just found it beginning of this year but i just keep silenece about it because i cant say anything about it since our agreement about OPR so i just trying to deal with it even its really hard but i will do my best do deal with that suprised and i just hope there is no suprised more in the future that i heard from someone else.

Because i love you so much so i despite everything is i heard for now but i don't know if i found a bigger fish in the future i just hoping that will never be happens because i don't want to be in that situation anymore and you know all my story in past but i don't wish you feel sorry for me because of that and i don't want you hide or not saying the truth because you dont want to hurt me.