ACCEPTANCE PATH :(

There is a person that I've ever known before he was choosing the path of life that make him needed always acceptance as what happened in his life even that's all things going on going to hurt him. and all he can do when everything around him is not as he expected he just take it all in even its really tortured him so much.

And now i know recently how is it the life going to challenges me because i was choosing the path of acceptance, the reason I choose this path is because I don't want to lose everyone that I love and I don't want to see them fade away.

So, even the truth is really hurt me at the time all things is happening left me only 2 choice the thing is either I try accepted it and keep all things in me even its going to hurt me or I just need to let go everything to avoid me from getting hurt.

But I can't take either that 2 option because I don't want t' lose something that I love and I fight for and I didn't want to lose someone that I devoted my heart and my soul too because I can't imagine my life without it.

And I can't make sure that he didn't want to lose me too or what but he just always trying to keep everything away from me and even I only ask something that I want to know he always take it with offensive way and avoid it.

And all I want to know is what's going on and I keep telling don't make me find out by myself because its more going To hurt but its seems no point because whatever I say didn't mean anything but one thing for sure you should know I love you so much and I am devoted my heart and my soul to you so I would let you slip away even I can't ask you do the same but all things I could do is always keep you around me, no matter what even the truth it's going to killing me and hurts me a lot and one day for sure I going to know it.