Painful Feelings (Chapter 98)

Holly got home that night conflicted

She hadnt thought about Jasente in awhile but for her to suddenly imagine them together as a family

It messed with her as she was trying to suppress those feelings

She had already destroyed all of their pictures and got rid of any gifts he had given her

Yet she still had feelings for him

She laid in her bed and hugged her pillow hurt and confused

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Holly Petal

I need to get rid of these feelings

Frato doesn't even talk to me anymore and I don't want anything to do with him

So why do I have these feelings.....?

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Dekion was outside the door hearing all of this

The guilt was hitting him hard but he chose to ignore it

He continued walking to his room spinning his football

It was the next day at school

Holly was in class writing down notes but just couldn't focus

She kept looking at Jasente and it was hard to look away

Yet Jasente never once looked her way

After class Holly went to her locker to grab her books for the next class

She saw Jasente from afar but her heart stopped from what she saw

Jasente and Isa were close

Too close

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Isa Rose

So Jasente when are we going to train for the mission?

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Jasente Evans

I don't know

Cameron said he would let us know soon

Apparently, we are going over to his house

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Isa Rose

Oh ok

Well we need to discuss our plan again

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Jasente Evans

Ok let's go to the rooftop no one goes up there

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Isa Rose

Ok

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Isa and Jasente went to the rooftop and Holly damn near cried

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Holly Petal

I thought that was our spot.....

I...

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Just before Holly could lose it Kizzie showed up in her usual fashion

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Kizzie Joyner

HOLLY!!!!!!!

YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE WHAT JUST happened...

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Kizzie could see her teary eyes and noticed she was on the verge of a breakdown

Kizzie quickly grabbed Holly and dragged her across the school to an empty room

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Holly Petal

Kizzie....

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Kizzie Joyner

Girl, you need to explain to me right now what is wrong

You're acting different

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Holly Petal

Its Frato....

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Kizzie Joyner

BITCH!

Don't tell me you're still acting like that over a boy like him

Yall broke up in November its almost February

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Holly Petal

IT'S HARDER THAN YOU THINK KIZZIE!!!

He was my first love....

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Kizzie Joyner

Mhm get over it

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Holly Petal

How do you expect me to do that!?

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Kizzie Joyner

Simple just get another man

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Holly Petal

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!

I am not dating for a long time

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Kizzie Joyner

Did I say date Holly?

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Holly Petal

Wait you mean...

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Kizzie Joyner

Mhm friends with benefits BITCH!!!!!

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Holly Petal

There is no way I could do that

I can't even imagine kissing a random guy that I don't love

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Kizzie Joyner

I do it

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Holly Petal

You do?

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Kizzie Joyner

Mhm

Out of those 15 guys that gave me their number Im only talked to 5 but one of them I see today

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Holly Petal

Wait do you guys

Like, have sex....?

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Kizzie Joyner

No, I'm still a virgin

I just like cuddling and getting my boobs played with

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Holly Petal

WAIT THEY TOUCHED YOUR PRIVATE PARTS!?

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Kizzie Joyner

Um yeah that's kinda what friend for benefits is for

I have sucked his thing and he has played with mine

Just no intercourse because I don't want it

Yet

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Holly Petal

But what if he forces himself on you?

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Kizzie Joyner

Girl all I have to do is bite his thing or just hit him

Besides these boys don't even do that to women

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Holly Petal

Whatever I'm still not doing it

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Kizzie Joyner

Ugh then how are you going to get over it?

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Holly Petal

I don't know....?

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Kizzie Joyner

Well you already heard my opinion

Anyways I have to go but call me if you need anything

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Holly Petal

Ok..

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As Kizzie left Holly just thought to herself

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Holly Petal

I can't believe Kizzie has already done that stuff

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Holly then thought of getting close to Jasente in that way and clenched her heart

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Holly Petal

UGH PLEASE STOP THESE FEELINGS I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!