Facing Judgemen Blair

After Nyx reassurese me a bit more I get ready for the firing squad for a second time today. While making my way to office I try and give my self a pep talk. "You can do this, Blair," she whispers to herself. "You just have to be honest and ask for her help. She's your mother, she'll understand." I sigh and knock on her office door.

"Come in," her mother's voice calls out. I take a deep breath and enter the office, trying to steady my nerves. My mother is sitting at her desk, her hair perfectly styled and her expression unreadable. "Blair," she says, her voice colder then ushal. "I trust you have come to explain yourself."

I nod, my throat feeling tight. "I'm sorry, mother," I begin, my voice shaking. "I broke one of the rules and suck out last night" if I thought she was mad before shes about to lose her shit.

I blurt out the rest before I lose my nerve "I went to a fae party and I got drunk, I don't remember much of what happened. I woke up with these tattoos and no memory of how I got there." I explain, my voice barely above a whisper. She dosnt need to know about the golf or my collection of bicycles. My mother's expression hardens even further. "Tattoos?" she repeats, her voice tight with anger. "What kind of tattoos?"

I hesitate, feeling my face flush with embarrassment. " They blessings from the stars and my chosen mates"

Her whole expression changes from cold indifference to fiery wrath.

My mother's anger is palpable, her voice tight with fury as she speaks "Mates?" my mother repeats. "You mean to tell me that you went to a fae party, got drunk, and came back with bond marks without any knowledge of who your mates are?"

"Do you have any idea what kind of danger you have put my coven in, Blair?" My mother continues, her anger barely contained. "These bond marks mean that you have chosen mates, and yet you have no knowledge of who they are or if they are suitable for you or the coven. This is unacceptable."

"I understand, mother," I say, my voice trembling. "I made a mistake and I am willing to do whatever it takes to make it right."

My mother's expression softens slightly, but her voice is still stern as she speaks. "You will begin a thorough investigation into who your mates are and their suitability for the coven. If they are not suitable, the bond will be terminated."

I nod, the thought of having to terminate a bond makes my skin itchy.

"And you will also be placed under strict training regimen to better control your actions and understand the responsibilities that come with being a witch and potential leader of the coven." My mother adds.

No anything but having to sit through another lecture given by the elder coven members about how I should be a perfect little witch like my mother. I just nod "Yes, mother," I say, trying to hide the reluctance in my voice. "I understand and I will do my best is that all."

"Yes, for now," my mother says, her expression still stern. "But understand that this is a serious matter, Blair. Your actions have consequences, not only for yourself, but for the entire coven. I expect you to take this responsibility seriously and to make amends for your mistake."

My emotions are so overwhelming that all I can do is nod.

"Good," my mother says, her expression softening slightly. "I expect nothing less from you, Blair. Now go, and begin your investigation."

I stand up and walk straight out the door, as soon as the door clicks shut I bolt down the winding hallways. No way am he'll am I going another lecture if I can get out of the house before my mother tells that old hag she gets to give me another lesson I can stay away fir a few days till she forgets.

I run down the stairs and out the front door, not stopping until I'm well out of sight of the coven house. My heart is pounding and my breath is coming in short gasps. I can't believe I just left like that, but I know I can't handle another lecture right now. I take a moment to catch my breath and consider my options. I could go to Nyx's house, but I don't want to burden her with my problems. I could try to find my mates on my own, but I'm not sure where to start.

Instead, I decide to take a few days to clear my head and gather my thoughts. I'll stay with a friend or at a hotel, and focus on my investigation and training on my own terms, I'll focus on retraining my control and focus, and come up with a plan of action for finding my mates and making amends for my mistake.

I start to walk, not really sure where I'm headed, but knowing that I need to put some distance between myself and the coven house. I'll figure everything out, I know it's not going to be easy but at least I'll have some time to clear my head and come up with a plan.

As I walk, I can't help but think about the tattoos on my body and the mates they represent, I'll have to find them and make sure they are suitable for me and the coven, I'll have to regain my mother's trust and prove my worth to the coven. But for now, I just need to get away and think.