she was worried that he would hate her forever but she had to make up for what she had done when she reached the house he was outside waiting for her
"I'm so sorry Lucas"
"I'm not worried about that I'm worried about you" he replied
"What do you mean?" she replied
"You know what and don't ever lie to me again!" he shouted
"I'll never lie to you again I promise!" she replied
"I know and I'm sorry for yelling at you" he replied
"It's all good" she replied
"Can we go back to being friends?" he replied
"Sure we can" she replied
he said and hugged her
And for the first time in a month, she felt happy
they made up and now they were officially back to being friends
right? but something was off -she could feel it
she had to get out of there and she did what she had to do and when she went back
they would do what they were meant to do and the end would come
she hated how unfair fate was and always seemed to be
and it would be her fault for acting the way she did she would have to pay for what she did and she was scared and she would have to live the rest of her life with the guilt of what she did she was the reason drew almost died
she was the one who said those hurtful words to Lucas
she didn't appreciate his kindness- why did this feel like deja vu?
she didn't accept Gared's kindness either
but he still forgave her and that's what Lucas made it seem like
But was he truly forgiving her?
no, he was just going along with the flow he was too kind to say no to her
she didn't trust him and for that she was sorry
but she did what she had to do to make him like her
because she wanted to be friends with him
it was a very dark path she chose to take but it was all for the better at least she got to be with Lucas and even though life was tough and everything seemed to be falling apart, she managed to hold on and eventually it all came together
and everything was great
but she knew that things wouldn't last forever
she would have to move on and that was fine
but it would hurt for a while
and it would take some time
but eventually, she would be able to move on
and find her happiness
and it was all thanks to Lucas for showing her the light and for everything he did for her if only she were able to tell him how much she appreciated it
but she was never able to say those words and instead broke his heart
she wishes she could make up for it and have his friendship again but was that even possible?
she didn't know and she didn't have the courage to find out
Lucas wasn't the same as Gared
and it was hard to make a new friend after a month of being with the same person
it would be best if she just forgot about him
that's the way it was going to be
the past was in the past and she wasn't going to go back and change the future
it was sad at first but as time passed it got easier
and life did get better
it was as if everything was meant to happen and she had the best possible life even though she knew that would never be the case and that was okay because life was full of joy and love and she would never take that for granted
if she could just have it but it was just a dream and she had to accept that and she had to be happy with what she had
and Lucas was her best friend for the rest of her days
she would be thankful for everything that had happened everything that had made her who she was and everything that she had accomplished, of course, she would miss Lucas but she would accept that he was gone and in time she would be okay and eventually, she would be able to move on and be happy again with Lucas and with a life she was finally ready to leave and that was when it happened and she realized she was a horrible person she didn't have any friends she didn't have any family she didn't have anything but her shitty life she was so full of regret and she was a horrible person and she wished she could take it all back but she knew she couldn't and she was still glad she did what she did because it made her happy it made her feel loved the end of the day that was all that really mattered
all she really needed was Lucas
and he was more than enough
but there was no happy ending for her and he would never come back
she would miss it but she couldn't go back
and she would be okay with that
she listened to the trees hearing a song that reminded her of Lucas
she drifted off feeling at peace she was finally free she was ascended to the heavens
and she felt at peace with everything
and she couldn't have been more grateful for everything that had happened in her life
and even though she wouldn't be coming back
she knew she would be okay with that
and she would be able to move on
and be happy
so she would leave it all behind
and she would ascend
and she would be okay with that
and she would finally be at peace
and Lucas wished that things hadn't turned out this way and he couldn't help but feel like it was his fault he wanted to make up for everything because he truly loved her but he couldn't tell her