Chapter 2

What else can I do except accept that I am fine!

Though I can't remember the moments at all, I do know that these are all meant to be mine. It's this unknown feeling of mine that's controlling my mind.

From when did I start sensing these feelings?

The day I met Cordelia?!

...

I don't know_

"I want some fresh air."

"Don't worry; I'm not gonna go insane, and run into a car!"

"I'm only going for a walk; I'll be back in a minute, you guys go home first."

"Don't give me that look, okay!" I snort.

"I only need some time to know what's wrong with me!"

Though they were still hesitating, it's a crime to force an adult not to go on a walk; When she's Absolutely Fine.

...

Within a day, I became completely weird!

Why in the world would a person suddenly forget about her entire life? Which level of amnesia is this?!

Then again I am Absolutely Fine here.

I don't even know what kind of emotion I should wear.

Should I cry, or should I panic, or should I laugh, or should I be angry?

These thoughts of mine made me unable to notice the red light.

...

'Am I dying?'

'In the end, I truly ran into a car; truck actually!'

'Did I hit that badly that I can't even feel pain?!'

...

"Can you hear me?" some strangers rushed toward me.

"Someone call an ambulance!"

"Thank goodness... you are alive!!"

"Luckily, the truck only passed her..."

"Thanks to God that you're safe and alive!"

"To think that she's not even hurt, it's truly a MIRACLE!"

Their worlds were continuously twisting inside my head.

My body! There was no blood, not even a single scratch. Even if someone only gets hit by a cycle, they will surely get brushes and scratches, but how come... I don't even have a single scratch!

"Is this real?" I mumbled.

I don't know what others saw, but I know that that truck clearly ran over me! IT TRULY DID!

'It was real!'

'What I saw was real!'

It is said that laughing helps you to stress out; so

I surged with a burst of uncontrollable, absurd laughter.

...

I returned home.

I returned home as if nothing happened.

I entered my room and locked the door.

There really was not a single bruise on my body. Only my clothes were slightly ripped, slightly!

Several emotions and feelings were hunting me down, along with the constant thoughts about today's event.

I stayed silent.

...

"Let's see what happens," while intensely staring at the paper cutter, I mumbled.

I immediately grabbed the paper cutter and clenched my hand tightly.

Without any second thought, I didn't even hesitate to stab my hand as hard as I can.

Miracle enough... I felt no pain, saw no blood, no wound, no scratches at all.

And what was my reaction?

I again laughed...

Cause it is crazy! Crazier than a five-rated thriller movie!

I still can't quit my habit of writing my daily diary, and how can I miss such a precious story?

"Can't wait to see the end," concludes my writing for today.

The next day I went shopping.

Why did you expect me to be in a mental shock?

Actually, I'm a pro at moving on!

But I wouldn't have if I knew I would encounter Alan there.

My genuine hater Alan was suspended for a month and was seriously humiliated for picking a fight with me. Also, someone whose mouth is blessed by the Devil himself. There have been many incidents in the past that make my body burn just by looking at him.

I tried to ignore him, but he grabbed my hand tightly.

"Let go!"

He snorted and said, "Is it that hard to say hi at least?!"

I immediately shook off his hand.

He again said, "hey, it was all in the past, right; I just wanted to say hi only."

As I turned back, he said,

"Actually, I was curious about something."

"How does it feels pretending to be an innocent bitch?"

"Must be fun, right; Manipulating everyone!"

"But I don't think I can be as good as YOU!"

"..."

"Oh, looks like I hit the nail right!!"

"Man... I truly feel pity for you. The way you thirst for attention and money like a dog, I truly feel pity."

"Hey, STOP IT!"

"I bet you too love seeing those jealous eyes of others and how much they hate your luckiness!"

"I said STOP IT!"

"A maiden who doesn't even realize that the reality she's into is nothing but a mere dream."

"You should wake up now."

'I hate it.'

"Poor... you..."

'I hate that disgusting grin on his face.'

'I want to rip it off that badly that my blood is boiling.'

...

'Should I?'

...

The rhythm in the sound of the shower; I can feel it.

It's like, every drop of water is cleaning my thoughts little by little!

I came back home_

Thanks to someone, my shopping was entirely spoiled.

I'm already enough mentally unstable; not interested in becoming physically as well by wrestling him at that moment.

It's a dog's nature to bark!

"The more I'll think about it, the more it'll ruin my mood."

"So the more I'll ignore it, the more it is better!" I mumbled to myself.

Later that night, when I was writing my diary, I could hear the TV news sound from downstairs.

'Who turned the volume that high?'

Just now, when I was about to ask someone to turn it down, the details about a victim startled me!

I immediately rushed there, and to my great surprise, I saw Alan's horrible dead body on the screen.

My eyes couldn't believe it...

There's no way to deny the fact that it is him!

"A Mysterious Death; not natural yet no sign of murdering," was the highlighted matter of that news.

I was stunned!

This strange feeling inside me; how should I describe it?

I named it the feeling of "Shock" but...

The moment I saw my own reflection in the mirror,

That smile on my face was more disgusting than Alan's.

"?!?!"