17. Insecure

Michelle's POV

"Why isn't Ashley returning my calls?" I muttered to myself as I kept pacing around in frustration. Lately Ashley hasn't been texting me randomly or calling me either and even if she manages to call we don't talk up to five minutes and she tells me that she will call me back but she never does and most times I will just shove it away with the assumption that she's probably busy but doing what exactly? It is weekend, we have been together for seven months now and I think it's too early for me to start feeling insecure but I really do miss her so much and I want to tell her that I will be coming back tomorrow but she isn't returning my calls neither is she texting me back, out of frustration I decided to pack my things and head back to my lodge that evening "Mich where are you going to by this time with your bag?" My mum asked as I was about to head towards the gate, I really didn't expect her to be out here, "uhhh mum I have early morning lectures and I need to rush back to my lodge this evening so that I can meet up for the lecture tomorrow early" I lied and it seems like she bought it ", "okay mich just be careful and call me once you get there" she said as she took me in for a hug, " okay mum, I love you" I said as I bid her goodbye, "I love you too baby".

As I reached for my lodge and dropped my bag I dropped my mum a message telling her that I have arrived so she won't be worried, I headed straight to Ashley's lodge part of me was worried that she might not be feeling okay since she told me that neither her friends nor her brother was around which made me regret ever leaving and the other part of me was hoping that I don't get to meet what will break my heart, "don't blame me for thinking this way guys I have been hurt so many times I still wonder how I'm capable of loving someone after all that I have been put through, lols sometimes I wonder if I was born to heal damaged people and after that the will let me go but then it makes me wonder if I will ever meet the person that will heal me, well I guess I have found her already or have I? Well time will tell".

As I arrived at Ashley's door I knocked twice and she opened the door staring at me like I came at the wrong time,"did I interrupt something?" I asked cause she looks really tense right now, "uhh no babe my friend is actually here and I didn't expect you to be back today" she said trying to avoid my gaze, but why is that? Is Ashley cheating on me already? Lols I just left for barely two days and she's already cheating on me! But she said it's just a friend but why do I feel like that's not the case with the way she's behaving, "are you not happy to see me?" I managed to ask I could feel my heart breaking apart already and tears threatening to spill already but I need to be strong I can't let her see me this weak " umm that's not the case babe please come in" she said while opening the door wide permitting me to come in, as I stepped in I saw a blond haired girl with dull blue eyes, an oval face, a glowing skin just like mine lols, she's perfect I thought to myself and she looks just like the girl Ashley showed me her picture, the friend that she normally ran shits with back then lols although she looks better in real, she told me her name is Betty lols yea I can't possibly forget her name I don't know why but ever since I saw her picture have been wanting to meet with her I don't know for what reason but I just wanted to,but she told me the no longer talk hmm if the are back in good terms that means she's a threat to me but why am I not feeling insecure anymore? Why do I feel like I like her already? I mean who wouldn't?,she looks damn gorgeous ohh gwashh why am I thinking like this she's the girl that wants to take my girlfriend away from me, I was lost in thought that I didn't realize I was still standing on a spot for a while now till she held my hand and I could feel the sparks gwashh wait a minute did she just hold my hand I realized what was happening and slowly released her hand from mine with my other hand and she kept smiling from ear to ear gwashh she's so adorable, damnn wtf is wrong with me?!, I'm supposed to be feeling insecure seeing her here but why does seeing her here makes me feel so good and unbothered?, my eyes ain't even searching for Ashley anymore, no no no! I can only love Ashley but there's something about this girl that's making my insides go crazy, don't tell me I have a crush on her already, this will be disastrous!