24. Am I really gay?
Ashley's POV
As I left Michelle to go say hello to my friends at the pool area which is their favorite spot whenever the threw a party, I didn't really plan on staying long with them I know Michelle would be feeling lonely so I need to say hi to them and rush back to her but I guess things don't always go the way we planned most times.
"Heyy Ash!" Screamed Emily my best friend as she waved her hands at me, looks like she has company, "heyy watsup, you look super hot" I complimented while pulling her in for a hug, "hii, you must be Ashley...I'm Benjamin but you can call me Ben, you look really even more beautiful than I expected,it's nice finally getting to meet you" wow his so handsome how come I haven't seen him before, I thought and for a moment I was lost but how come he knows my name?? "Umm how did you know my name?"I asked while avoiding eye contacts lols I think I'm shy but why?? "Ohh sorry my cousin here tells me a lot about you so I have been wanting to meet up with this amazing person that keeps a crank head like Emily as a best friend" he said while blushing like calf...his so gorgeous, "ohh nice to meet you too, i didn't know Emily had a cousin as handsome as this" wait did I just compliment him out loud, damn what's wrong with me I'm in a relationship for goodness sake and I'm gay!, I have never been attracted to a guy before, this is the first time and I really don't know how to approach it, " thanks you look even better, hope you don't mind having a private chat with me" he said as he took my hands in his without waiting to get my consent and for some strange reasons it doesn't seem offensive in fact I like it, "so I heard you were dating" he asked as we sat on a coach giving a distance from where my friends where, "yea I'm in a relationship" I said while staring at my dress, I was feeling so nervous right now and I don't know why, "what if I'm in interested in you and I want us to give it a try even if it's just for tonight" huh, what exactly does he want to try out with me and for goodness sake why do I feel like I want to try out whatever it is with him gwashh what's this feeling??I have a girlfriend that I love so much or do I?? Having a taste of him tonight won't hurt right and Michelle won't find out anyway.... "heyy watchu thinking?" He asked as he cupped my face and drew it closer to his, before I could clear my head I felt his lips on mine part of me wanted to push him away but seems like the other part was stronger as I pulled him closer and deepened the kiss, we shared the moment for while till we finally let go to get some air, "I think I like you" he said as he pulled me closer into his arms, He smelt like sweet corn..I was lusting over everything about him, from the way he looked to the way he spoke and the way he held me ... his so perfect and I wanted more gwashh this is bad! Am I really gay?! Or I just didn't find the right guy at that time but I love Michelle or I think I do or maybe I did urghhh I'm confused I know I might regret this later but it's a risk I'm really willing to take.