When Jordan walked away I was still stunned. Something deep inside kept telling me that he was actually mad at me for everything and he only said those things to calm me down. I believed that inner voice because I felt it was true
Let me take you back as you may be confused.
I was on my way to the gym when I got stopped by Luca. He rammed me into the wall. I was scared. He still scares me with that crazed look in his eyes.
He told me of how he missed me and how he was going to get me pregnant again when this was all over as he wanted me to be the one to carry his child. After he said that, my breathing got difficult. He smiled at that and walked away while my vision was getting dark.
I was still scared of him and ashamed of myself anytime he was near me. I can't explain the fear I feel, it's that powerless fear, a fear that comes when you want to do something but you just can't and you are taken advantage of.
I hate it but there is nothing I can do about it.