13: the truth

alex knew that she was dying but she didn't know why and what happened wasn't she in her bed taking a nap while thinking about how she should style her hair to the banquet what happened what changed it felt like it even hurt to move a little she may be a soldier but she was just a simple cadet soldier not a person with special training and special place the only thing she could do was try to breath and try to listen around in hope that someone could help her but the more she tried to breathe the more she could feel pain and the more she knew how much hurt she was , her right leg felt like it was broken, some of her rib bones were also broken there was not a single place in her body where it didn't hurt the moment she tried to move it would feel like hell and alex started thinking maybe it would be better to die then handling this pain but then she noticed that while one of her hand was covering her mouth so no voice gets out the other was holding a pendant near her heart which reminded her that no she had to somehow live she cannot die just yet this hope gave her courage to move and get out of the bed and limp toward the door but the moment she reached the door she could hear some muffled voices from outside alex felt panicked but she still putted her ear against the door she could hear voices talking and laughing

"do you think she is still alive " a familiar voice asked she tried to remember who it was but her head felt dizzy

another familiar voice started speaking " if she is still alive i would salute her damn she has some will power even after knowing her life was all a game which we were playing just for fun , besides how many years had it been hahaha she is 18 now "

and that's when it hit her alex knew then and there that they were talking about her but what hit her more harder was , that the voice who was speaking was of the person she trusted her whole life to , it was the person she would even give her life to

it was the voice of chief

alex knew why then why people say that if the emotional pain is bigger then physical pain it makes us gorget about the physical pain

she was hurting but not because her leg was broken and she was standing , not because her arm was dislocated, not because some of her rib bones were broken , and not because of the stab wounds on her

but because the person she trusted the most was sitting on the other side of the door laughing and talking about how her life meant nothing but a game to them

but she was also puzzled because she thought she was 16 , it means she cannot remember 2 years of memories, what happened in those years that she ended up like this

alex couldn't handle it anymore she thought she knew what pain was after her mom died and thought she couldn't be more broken then how she was after her father broke her but here she was standing so broken that even the tears had stopped flowing and her eyes looked lifeless

another voice sounded " I finally feel like myself now that I don't have to show oh how much i love her and don't have to be the loving grandma it was so gross but she thought it was love that she could trust me hahaha like now she knows that i killed her mother and sent those advertisements about boot camp and the chief she must be feeling like hell sigh i really want to ask her how it feels like to be played as puppet from the moment you were born"

she knew she was dying and she would be dead in another 3-4 minutes because of the stab wound near her heart but she wanted to know why , why her , why did they play with her life so she opened the lock of the door and pushed it open and that's when she saw who the people sitting and laughing together were all the people she knew from the chief to her grandma to all her uncles and aunts and cousins

alex knew her time was running so she looked straight at her grandma and asked

" Why "

everyone stopped to look at her mockingly, she knew and all the eyes felt like they were stabbing her heart

"why" she asked once more

alex though she wouldn't get and answer but she still asked

unexpectedly she did got an answer

"sigh you can only say that you were unlucky i was just going to kill you with you mother but even at the last moment of your mother's life she begged me not to kill you so i agreed to her while telling her that okay I won't kill you but since your mother loved you soo much i would play with your life , let you feel the love , let you fall in love with the person i want and at the end let him torture you so that you can slowly die from his hands with a dagger to your heart" grandma said with the same same sweet smile she used to show her and she felt loved but now it only makes her sick

alex knew she was missing some of her memories but did she really fall in love but who , who was it before she could think more she saw her grandma signaling to james

alex saw james getting about taking his dagger out and walking toward her

he started smiling and said "it's a pity you know that i had to waste 2 years running around you making you fall in love with me but damn those years will become worth it when i can kill you with my own hands it was lovely torturing you and now goodbye my love "

alex knew she had to make a decision she couldn't let them win so at the last moment she smiled , she smiled so brightly and sweetly that everyone frowned but she simply said " you better all pray that I don't come back as a ghost or i will haunt you your whole life , you all will pay " and then she suddenly pushed a small knife in her heart yes she killed herself when she woke up she saw a knife in a corner too she was keeping it for this moment when she fell she gripped the pendant tightly near her chest with the knife while thinking I'm sorry mom i couldn't avenge you she closed her eyes but didn't see how her blood flew into the pendant and it started glowing how everyone's face around her turned pale with panic how they tried to come near her to take the pendant away but couldn't come near her , alex's heart stopped beating but her body started floating in the air and time stopped and a hole opened near where alex was and swallowed her