BETRAYAL

As a teenager I went through a lot starting from 2015 until this recent year..

When I was in the 6th grade, I was almost raped by the only person I trusted deeply and whom I took as my big brother. He tried to take advantage of the fact that I considered him as my brother. This completely shattered my heart, and I still haven't forgiven him in which he never apologized for his actions, instead he made fun of the fact that he wanted to rape me to his friends.

Since that year I lost trust in a lot of people, I never told my family about the fact that I was almost raped because he threatened me and I was too young so I took threats very seriously and he was also a psychopath. Living in a world were I was going to see him everyday and pretend as if nothing has ever happened shattered me into so many pieces. Every time I saw him, I would keep quiet , or if I saw him in the road I would change lanes or go back to where I came from because I was really afraid of him.

After this incident, when I go to school I would tell myself outside the school premises that everything that has happened at home or outside the school premises will remain outside. I told myself this to maintain a positive energy and a clear mind for the rest of the day at school and not to vent anger at my schoolmates.

Till this day I am still not over the fact that I was almost raped but I'm hopeful that someday I will.