Episode 39

Ava's Point Of View,

"of course, I remember. You used to ask about this all the time. And when you were in the fifth standard, you were not well, so you could not take participate in this. That year you cried a lot. You used to cry every time you go to school and all your teachers used to call me and tell me that you are crying again", mom laughed when she told me. And I also chuckled a little.

I still remember how crazy I was for these functions. I did not miss a single function in my school. You could say that I was kind of obsessed with these. These things make me happy and I want Luke too.

I mean I do not want to force him on this, but somehow I want him to get some interest in these. I like when they give messages to kids through these dances and plays, they should learn from it.

"Mom, when I was a kid, I liked it so much. I do not know how Luke will react. He will like it or not, but I really want him to like it. He would really enjoy this, right", she nodded her head again as she handed me the cup of coffee and I took a sip. I felt so good after that. I felt my eyes got open and some energy jumped into my body.

"Mom, coffee is really great and energetic. I loved this", I said to her and she passed me a big smile.

"Have this sandwich. It is your favorite, right", she passed me the plate and I just did not say anything.

I just took a slice of it and started eating, and I just remembered the sandwich I ate the last day. He made that for me, and no doubt that was so yummy. He is the best cook, after all.

I loved the food he made, and now I am thinking about him again. There is not a single time in my day when I could stop my mind to think about him. He is everywhere, I was just lost in my thoughts when I felt my mom's hand on my hand.

"Ava, is there anything you want to tell me", she asked me all of the sudden and I just looked at her with narrow eyes. I just know that she thinks that I am hiding something from her and she is already worried about me and I do not want her to get more worried about me, so telling her the truth would not be the right thing to do.

"No mom, what happened? Why are you asking me this all of the sudden", I asked her as I was trying to act normal.

"I do not know, I just felt that you are acting different from the last some days. You are being careless and there is something stressing you and you are not telling me this? You know Ava, Luke is almost four or maybe more than four, but you never disappear for a single moment now, all these days, you did not come home for the whole night and you disappeared for the whole day. You did not even bother to inform me. I know that you love Luke and you love me too, but that was really strange. I did not ask you anything because you are not a kid. You are a mom now and I do not have any right to interfere in your life, but it was all so different and I expect you to tell me if you feel that thing is bothering your mind", mom told me everything she was feeling all these days.

I already had a hint in my mind because if she is my mom, so I am her daughter too. I can read her eyes and I can tell what she is thinking. So I just know that something is running into her mind but she is not sure whether she should say this or not, so now she did it and now I do not feel that I should not lie to her now, so this is the time when I am gonna tell her the truth.

"Mom, you are just thinking too much. I mean", she cut me off already, gosh. There is no way that I can lie to her at any cost. She could catch my lie and that is the thing.

"Ava, it is fine that you do not want to tell me now, but there is no need to lie to me. I am your mother Ava. I gave you birth and I raised you. I know what you think and I know when you lie. You do not have any idea that your eyes get changed when you lie to me, so do not ever try to do it with me again. Just take your time and when you feel comfortable telling me, just say it okay? I will wait for it", she said to me as she forced a smile on me.

I just took a deep breath and closed my eyes so that I could get some courage and then I opened my eyes and saw her eyes were fixed on me as she was waiting for me to speak.

"Mom, he is back", I do not know how did I say this word but I did, and the moment those words escaped from my mouth, I saw how her eyes got wide and she looked at me with shocked eyes.

She did not say anything to me for some good seconds and then she just put the cup of coffee on the tray and looked at me.

"What did you say, Ava? Can you please repeat it? I am feeling that I heard something wrong", she asked me and I just looked down.

She is acting so differently. I know that she was so fucking angry when she got to know that he left me alone and there is no way that I can forget her reaction when she got to know that I was pregnant.

She cursed him so much and now how could see what is gonna come to him now, if by any chance I will forgive him someday but I do not think that mom will forgive him ever.

"I said to repeat what you said", she asked me again and I just gulped hard.

"Mom, relax, I just said that he is back in town and he wants me back", I told her the truth. I mean the half-truth.

There is no way that I can tell her that I already slept with him because I was dying to fuck him. I was dying to see him and kiss him. I could not control myself and ended up in his bed, she will kill me first, and then she will kill him too.

"Did you go to see him", she asked me and I shook my head instantly.

"He came to my college", I told her and she just glared at me like she is gonna kill me with her eyes.

"Ava, listen to me very carefully. I know that he is the father of Luke, but you are not allowed to see him or talk to him, did you hear that", she was giving me a serious warning and I just did not say anything to her and nodded my head like a scared kitten.