Chapter 20: Flash backs

Yoongi's POV:

"Jungkook-ah! Why did you run out of the dinner like that?" I exclaimed the question entering Jungkook's room. He's my annoying step brothers best friend. He still lives with his parents and is one year below Jimin in high school. He's basically a baby. And he proved that today. Jimin invited him over for dinner with my parents, of course I was forced to attend as well. Typical of them, honestly.

Anyway, my father and mother is very abusive towards me, it's always been like that. My dad was fine before he met his new wife Linda, a little neglectful but never physical abuse. But once we moved in with Linda he started taking after her and beating me to a pulp. Jimin, my step brother, is two years younger then me. He never really got much physical abuse from his mum, so my dad left him alone. I think the worst he's been through growing up was being embarrassed by how clingy and weird his mother is in public. Like all rich kids, he's a spoiled brat and gets whatever he wants whenever he wants it. I don't blame him though, I honestly don't think he knows about how his mother has been beating me. He thinks shes a saint sent from heaven, and I don't see him as the type of person that would think a child abuser is saintly.

Anyway, back to the story... again. My mum and dad is very abusive towards me. And Jungkook picked up on that quite quickly. He's always asked about all the bruises and scars I have whenever he had the chance to. I think it's adorable how he tries so hard to be my friend. He's such a nice kid, I don't want to have a bad influence on him so I rather stay away. But when he came to have dinner at my house he finally understood where the bruises and scars came from. I don't think he could handle reality, so instead he just yelled, "YOU PEOPLE ARE COMPLETELY HORRIBLE PARENTS!!! I CANT BELIEVE HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM JIMIN!!!" and ran out of the house and back home. Jimin didn't understand what happened and completely blacked out. I think he had a panic attack. But I'm not sure because I ran after jungkook to stop him, or at least to stop him from going home alone. But once I got outside I couldn't see him anywhere. Fuck, I knew he was a fast runner but damn.

Back to reality, "Jungkook!" I exclaimed worriedly the moment I saw him crying on the floor of his bedroom. He was sitting facing his bed and resting his arms on the bed, with his head laying on top of his arms.

"Jungkook-ahhhh, why are you crying?" I asked in a whiney voice, as soon as I touched his shoulder he turned around fast and attacked me with hugs that could strangle someone so tight it was.

"I'm so sorry hyung!" Jungkook exclaimed as I fell over from the sudden impact of hugs. "Aish, what a cry baby." I said hugging him back feeling my over-sized white t-shirt begin to become wet with his tears.

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"What the hell happened last night?! Mum and dad said Jungkook through a fit and ran away. But why can't I remember and where have you been?!!" Jimin yelled at me following me as I walked into my room. "Through a fit?" I asked placing Jungkook's black hoodie on the chair next to my desk. "Yeah?" Jimin said questioningly, he probably didn't believe his mum. "You had a panic attack after Jungkook yelled at your parents for being horrible people. And he also said you were horrible for looking up to them. And I ran after him to see if he was okey and stayed the night at his." I tried to explain without ruining his image of them, I didn't want to and I was really close to snapping and telling him just how horrible they can be. "Horrible? Panic attack?" He asked as I sat on my bed with my history book. Usually Jimin would leave and stop disturbing me when I take out a school book because he thinks I'm studying. Which is kind of cute and admirable.

"Mum and dad are wonderful! Why would he say that?" Jimin came to sit next to me on my bed. I just ignored him and pretended to read until he grabbed the book and through it on my desk. Shockingly it landed perfectly. Like one of those anime scenes. It was rather impressive, of course I couldn't let him that I was impressed, he'd never let it go. "What. Do. You. Want. I've already explained." I said in my 'i hate you and you're annoying me' voice that I honestly hate using on him, he's such a nice guy and honestly have no real reason to hate him. I got up from my bed and walked over to my desk again, of course he followed me,why wouldn't he?

"Don't give me that tone, I did not do anything to you. Why are you always acting like this anyway?! You think it's cool? If you do it's not and you're just being an asshole!" Jimin grabbed my hand and turned me around to face him. If I didn't know any better I'd think he'd push me against a wall and kiss me like in dramas. I love how I'm explaining my brothers actions through anime and dramas.

I gasped dramatically and said "Did the perfect child just say a swear word? Mommy and daddy isn't going to like that!" before I slapped his hand away.

"That's what this is about? Because I'm the favourite? You know, if you didn't act like a prick twenty four seven then maybe they'd like you a little more." Jimin said crossing his arms giving me his 'i don't like how you're acting' face.

I just about lost it with that.

"YOU THINK THAT'D HELP?!! YOU THINK I HAVEN'T TRIED?!! I'VE DONE EVERYTHING TO TRY AMD GET THEIR ATTENTION BUT ITS ALWAYS ABOUT YOU!!! 'OH JIMIN GOT AN A IN MATH. JIMIN GOT INTO DRAMA CLUB. JIMIN MADE SOME NEW FRIENDS. JIMIN JIMIN JIMIN ITS ALWAYS ABOUT JIMIN. YOU DONT THINK I HATE THE WAY I AM RIGHT NOW?!! WHY DO YOU THINK I SHUT MYSELF OUT ALL THE FUCKING TIME?!! NOT ONLY DO YOUR PERFECT PARENTS COMPLETELY IGNORE ME BUT THEY ALSO BEAT ME UNTIL I ALMOST DIED AND CAN BARELY MOVE BODY AND THEN TELL ME TO GO TO THE ER ON MY OWN IF IT WAS REALLY THAT BAD!!! YOU CANT EVEN THINK TO SEE WHAT THEY'VE BEEN DOING TO ME MY WHOLE LIFE, AND NOW YOU HAVE THE BLOODY NERVE TO TELL ME IM AT FAULT?!! SINCE YOU THINK THAT, FUCK YOU JIMIN!!! I HAVE TRIED SO HARD TO BE THE PERFECT BROTHER TO YOU AMD ALL YOU CAN DO IS TALK DOWN TO ME!!! WELL YOU GOT WHAT YOU WANT, IM LEAVING AND YOU'LL NEVER NEED TO DEAL WITH MY ASSHOLE ATTITUDE EVER AGAIN!!! AND JUST BY THE WAY, I HAD SEX WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND LAST NIGHT!!!"

By the time I finished Jimin's face was completely covered in tears, but I didn't care. I just pushed him to the side and headed for my closet to get a bag and pack up my things. Jimin fell down when I pushed him and it looked like my anger outburst clicked the off switch. Jimin looked like a robot, he didnt move at all. He didn't even blink.

"I'm sorry...." I whispered while lowering my body to the ground to hug him. "I didn't mean to lash out on you like that...." I hugged my brother tightly and started silently crying. Only after a few seconds did I feel his trembling arms slowly rap around my waist.

"I'm sorry... I never knew what our parents put you through," Jimin said softly crying into my neck. "Please don't leave me.... I promise I'll do better. Just please don't go." Jimin pleaded, why is he apologizing and promising to do better?

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"Hyung?! Jiminie asked me to- Fuck...." Jungkook suddenly barged into my room. I had just taken a shower and was completely naked other then a white towel hanging very loosely around my waist. "Fuck..." Jungkook repeated staring straight at my abs. I was a lot more fit then the last time he saw me naked. I think he liked it a lot. "Why are you just standing there?! Get out!" I through a pair Celvin Klein black boxer briefs at his head, causing the towel around my waist to slip and fall off. Jungkook removed the boxer briefs from his head and within 0.2 seconds he was right in front of me gripping my towel in his right hand while holding my waist left. I'm pretty sure my brain collapsed upon itself. My body stopped moving, my intake of air increased as he stared into my eyes.

"May I?" Jungkook asked after lowering his body into a proposal position in front of me. I would say no but just remembering how good he sucked my dick the last made me so hard. "Yes....." I whispered, not able to say or do much more.

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"What the fuck are we doing?" I asked laying completely naked on my bed, Jungkook had just given me the fucking best ORGASM of my life. Yes I said orgasm. About a year had past since the first time we had sex together. And this time was so much better. The first time was full of anger and sadness, but this time he was passionate and gently while at the same time rough and hard. "Do you regret it?" Jungkook asked, I could hear the sadness in his voice. I don't know wether he wants me to respond with 'yes' or 'no'.

So I did the smart thing, and I lied to him. "Yes, I do regret it. You're so annoying, at least you can do one thing right," I can see the hurt in his eyes, I don't want to do this, I don't want to hurt him. But it's not like we could ever be together. "You were just a quick hook up, understand? If anyone asked it didn't happen. And it will never happen again." I said with the coldest voice I could muster up. I hated seeing the expression Jungkook gave me. It hurt so damn bad.

"Yes.... " Jungkook forced out an answer, I could clearly see tears in his eyes. I hate myself for what I'm doing to him... and myself. "Get dressed and leave." I said also getting up to get dressed.

"Leave? I've already left. And it was all your fault." I heard Jungkook say. I turned around confused, but instead of Jungkook naked in front of me he's covered in blood and bruises. "What?...." I ask, suddenly I'm in a street, Jungkook's still there. And behind him I see a crashed car. "It's all your fault." Jungkook suddenly appeared behind me. I turn around in fright but he's gone. When I turn around again he's in the car. He's covered in blood. His body is completely broken. He looks at me with a smirk. I can't take this. I don't want to see this. I don't have the strength to move. I can't even breathe. Please let me go. Please....

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"AHHH!!!" Yoongi screamed jumping up from bed. He was covered in sweat and Taehyung was crying next to him, he was sitting on the floor facing the bed. Clear as day he was trying to wake Yoongi up. "Yoongi hyung! Are you okey?!" Taehyung almost screamed at Yoongi, he immediately hugged Yoongi tightly. "You were screaming and crying in your sleep! Why wouldn't you wake up?" Taehyung sobbed loudly hugging Yoongi as tight as physically possible.

"What happened?" Hoseok asked with a more calmed voice. "Jiminie? Where's my Jiminie?" Yoongi asked, he was so used to Jimin always being there for him after he had a bad dream....

"Yoongi, wake up." Seokjin said with a cold voice, snapping him back to reality. Yoongi immediately started crying remembering. "I-i-i... I'm sorry...." Yoongi sobbed into Taehyung's neck, soon Hoseok joined in on the hug and Seokjin did too. They were all trapped in an endless loop of pain filled fading euphoria.

They were all at Hoseok's house, none of them were emotionally stable enough to be alone and Hoseok's house had the least amount of memories of jimin and jungkook.