Highschool/Friend zone

Since we moved to Los Angeles, everything hasn't been the same. Angeles High School isn't the kind of school for lazy ass students because of their high standards and I have to cope with extra school lessons, home reading with frederick of course, lots of other curricula activities in order to maintain a good grade.

I'm always stressed out whenever the driver comes to pick me up from school, oh yeah I'm licensed to my own personal driver even at my age.

Some kids in school don't enjoy such privileges except the ones that have rich parents like me of course.

I'm not a spoilt brat like Betty cause I don't let my parents wealth, influence me negatively, I relate well with other teenagers and I sometimes ask the driver to drop some of my classmates at home.

I wouldn't say I'm the best students, but I try my best to make good grades and I can be regarded as one of the good students.

I recalled the day I was made to go for detention because I failed one of my test which I was supposed to ace, my parents were the main reason I failed cause I asked my dad to teach some law terms since he was in that field of work.

I was so sad that day, even Frederick couldn't cheer me up. My dad apologized after seeing how bad I felt about his action of refusing to help on the topic.

These are similar problems I face everyday just because my so called parents are always too busy to show even the least attention towards me.

I almost failed my last examination because of emotional trauma I went through which almost got me depressed.

Sometimes after school, I get so bored at home that I often go to "Miss Cindy's" house, our next door neighbor.

She's an independent lady who got separated from her husband and had to become a single mother to her daughters.

I've always dreamt of being a writer cause of my love for books and sometimes I read three to five books at a stretch mostly during weekends especially at my leisure time.

I would make a good narrator not just because of my love for books but my ability to read at length. I always imagine my name written on a book cover like "authored by Lisa Wellington" that would be so exciting for me.

This feeling of emptiness in my life kills my youthful joy sometimes and it makes me feel like I'm "losing my pride as a youth".

My life has been a roller coaster of emotional trauma which is affecting my academics and social life. Apart from Betty and Frederick, I don't have any other friends to associate with, not even any of my high school mates or anyone else in my life.

Sometimes I assume that my parents are not even a part of my life cause they literally don't care about me.

But I won't stop at believing in my dreams of becoming a prolific writer and the most surprising part Is that sometimes I feel Iike I'm writing my own life story, it's weird but that's how I feel or like my life is a story being written as a book , maybe that's how writers think I guess but that's how I feel most times especially after Reading a book about someone's life.

"Oh well, I guess my own kind of imagination is wild" I mutter quietly.

"Frederick's recent gestures towards me is what I don't seem to understand" Lisa sneered. "He had been a long time friend now, but is his friendship suddenly turning into feelings for me?" she pondered.

Sitting in the balcony of her bedroom while many thoughts thrilled her mind made her unaware of the door bell.

She quickly got up from the chair and walked down stairs to see who wants at the door.

"oh, talking of the devil" she muttered as she saw that it was Frederick.

" Hey Lisa, how are you?" he jolted like someone who was having cold feet.

"Hi Frederick, I'm fine" she responded with her eyes fixed on him like she knew what he wanted to say.

"so you won't let me come in?" He continued. they were both behaving like two strangers, maybe it's because of the incident that happened few days ago.

Lisa's parents traveled for a societal function in Malibu, but sadly she couldn't attend because of a test and she can't afford to miss it.

There was no actual difference with when they traveled or not cause of their busy schedules, so Lisa never felt their absence.

Since Betty was out having dinner dates with her "so called boyfriend" in quote, Frederick was that only person she could relate with and she wouldn't want to stay at Miss Cindy's house, it would be as though she's bothering her.

After school, Frederick would follow her him and they would chat,eat, study and spend time together.

But something happened on the third day.

As usual they both came back from school, Frederick had to go home to change cause he didn't want his parents to get mad at him for staying out after school. Since both of their part knew each other, Frederick's parents had no issues with him staying over at Lisa's house especially while her parents were away.

On that particular night he decided to sleep over cause Lisa complained of having night mares the previous night.

" you're such a scared little baby" Frederick jolted with a smile .

"oh, thanks to the insult, you jerk" she slammed back at him for teasing her.

They both had fun for a while till he asked they watch a scary movie. Lisa hated horror movies but since she wouldn't be alone in the house, she agreed. Twenty minutes passed and they were both still watching the movie not until a really scary part started and Lisa held him tightly on the arm. At that moment the scene got even more horrifying for her, "I'm so scared" she said in a gentle voice but frederick felt her soft hands around his arms.

" I had always wished for a moment like this" said Frederick in a soft tone while he looked at Lisa grip in fear.

"Lisa I....I......." before he could finish, she removed her hands from his arms and as she tried to stand up from the sofa, he held her back.

Looking straight into her teary eyes he said "I've always loved you from the beginning but because of our long time friendship, I couldn't just bring myself to tell you how I really feel about you".

"but we are friends, how could this be" Lisa responded with tears in her eyes.

"It all looked like a romantic movie she always watched on TV" she thought in her mind. She never expected him to ever develop any feelings for her, so it all came as a shock to her.

"I love you lisa" Frederick continued.

As tensions continued to rise in the atmosphere, he tried to touch her on the cheek and played with her hair. Lisa became really uncomfortable cause he held her tightly to his chest while he tried to kiss her on the lips.

But as his lips came closer to hers, " oh my God, this isn't happening" she screamed loudly while her legs quivered in fear. Suddenly she pushed frederick away from herself and ran upstairs. He followed her but couldn't catch up with her cause she had already shut the door behind her.

"I'm so sorry it had to happen this way, okay?" he yelled out just outside the door.

Of her room. "Goodnight Lisa he sneered after hearing her scream loud at him to leave.

Frederick shut the door behind him and left that night while she watched him through her window into the lonely streets leading to his house which was two blocks away from hers.

Since that night, they both avoided each other in school not until frederick decided to come to apologize for putting her through such emotions and after that day it was clear to him, she really didn't want any entanglement between them only the friend zone was allowed. But Lisa herself knows she has feelings for frederick but she's just not ready to give her heart out.