CHAPTER 9: JESSY’S POV

It's like I didn't work today my mind was recalling Aiden's words , I was thinking about how he told me that his office was a private place that I should knock before i enter.

My heart was really and hardly broken , I wondered what was going on between him and his new secretary. Aiden I knew was not a guy who could fall for a girl that easily, since he was some how arrogant , but no matter his bad manners or him being arrogant I still loved him and still he was my choice .

And why did he choose his secretary over me ???he was always the love of my life and I couldn't imagine life without him .

Or maybe I was mistaken ? He was not in love with Amelia, because they didn't know each other for so long they were just partners and nothing else .

" but I caught them twice , when their faces were very close to each other as if they had already kissed and i exactly knew how Aiden acts when he he is kissing someone " those are the words that I was telling myself.

Why can't Aiden love me ?and why do I love him so madly , I can't hide my feelings anymore, all i wanted was to make him mine .

He was my high school lover and I bet ; everyone loved our couple because we looked good together and were the best match .

I do remember that all my high school friend told me that I was lucky to have Aiden and many girls were jealous of me , just to see me with him . And I wondered where his love had gone .

My office was on the sixth floor and I was standing next window , I was staring downwards looking to the people, and my thoughts were far away I can't admit that I was looking at those people that I was looking at because my mind was very far away , in that time My phone received a message and it was Karla's text inviting me to her place after work promising a sweet surprise for me . But I didn't reply that message . And after some time I heard my door open and someone approached me , when I looked behind I found Karla's face standing behind me and she crossed her arms around her chest and raised raised an eyebrow, she smiled faintly but I didn't return the smile .

" Jessy what's wrong with you ?" She said as she wiped my tears

My eyes were filled with hot tears and I wasn't able to speak too , I needed some time alone to fix everything, and I needed to go far away from my home town . My heart was really broken and I realized that love hurts and it hurts more when you fall for someone who can't love you back , it really hurts

" Jessy am talking to you "said Karla

I wasn't ignoring her and I can't do that shit , but I wasn't able to speak and as I looked down the floor a little, a lot of tears fell down to my cheeks and down to the white tiles . I looked up wards to the roof in hope that my tears would stop but Didn't. Karla became speechless too and she stood besides me without talking anything . Just looking at me only .and there was silence

" Jessy sit down and relax " said Karla as she broke the silence and as she pulled a chair for me to sit on

" Karla why can't Aiden love me ?? Why can't he see that I love him ??? Karla I will not be able to love someone else " I said

" what going on Jessy ?? Tell me, why are you saying those words? "

" today he told me to knock before I enter his office , and that's not a problem but from the time he had that new secretary he started acting weird, Imagine now he needs some privacy with that girl " I said

"Jessy that's not a problem, just because he asked you to knock that's why you are suspecting that there must be something between him and Amelia; no way Jessy and …..

"Karla I know everything and I'm sure of it , I saw them looking each other in unusual way , it's like they were kissing and as I opened the door Amelia was really shocked and then Aiden told me to knock before I enter "

" Jessy come on ….

"It's like I interrupted something, Karla believe me am not a kid anymore, I saw that with my own eyes " insisted

" Jessy how long will you fight for your love ? Don't you see that ….

" until eternity , until my last breath " I said as I got up and took my hand bag

" Karla I can't work today , tell Aiden that I'm very sick and I can't work "

I went in the parking , took my car and headed to my apartment to take a rest and relax my mind and reduce all the stresses I had .

As time passed it was getting dark and I was at home , I didn't even cook for myself and I was not even hungry, I was very angry at the extent of destroying almost everything in my house , I went in my bed to see if I could even sleep. My room was a messy and all the pictures which were hung on the wall were all down on the floor , I was laying in my bed and I was covered with a duvet but I was not sleeping it's just staying in the bed but eyes open , my bed was a messy too and the pillows fell on the floor , I could feel one of my pillows teetering at the edge and I nudged it over with my foot . My eyelids glowed pink , making it impossible to sleep, the blur of the lights over head often kept me awake but I never slept without them on .

I glanced over my laptop . Yawning I pulled myself up and swung my feet on the floor and the tiles were ice cold .

I turned my head just in time to see one of my photos clatter to the floor . I sat impossibly still , and the rest of the apartment was quiet.

I picked up the picture. It was a photograph of me and Aiden, taken a long time ago before he left me . Just a long time ago when we were in high school .

In that picture Aiden's unruly curls had been a torment since his childhood. Classmates who sat behind him complained that they couldn't see . He found himself smoothing down his hair throughout the day and glancing at his reflection as he passed windows. He had always wished for smooth hair but those curly hair looked perfect on him , they made him even more attractive , I sighed and carefully placed that photo in its special place on my bedroom wall .

In that time I went in my fridge to bring bottle of wine and took my cigarettes placed on the table which was beside my bed .

I started smoking and in that time i heard someone knocking on my door and I went to open

" You ???Karla what are you doing here at this time ? " I asked with smokes coming out of my mouth

" I wanted to know how you are doing, you were very sad and we didn't talk " she said as she entered my apartment " and why is everything like this in you house??please Jessy don't let love drive you like crazy "

" Karla you don't have any idea of how I'm feeling now "

" and you are smoking, taking a lot of alcohols , Jessy that will not help you " she said as she took my cigarettes away and my drink too back in the fridge

"You need to rest that's why I came here to stay with you the whole night she said

It was nearly midnight, and the night sky was picturesque . A black to navy gradient was the back drop for a full moon . The night sky so clear you could almost see every crater . The moon , a glowing yellowy white ; looked large, surrounded by an ethereal glow . Millions of stars were sprinkled behind it , a few large ones but mostly a multitude of little white pin pricks . Every now and then , a twinkle caught my eye . This was unfamiliar sight from my former home city . Where the lights never went down , perpetually, hiding the beauty of the nightmare sky.

I was laying in my bed but my eyes were open looking in the sky through windows .

The sound of the people laughing outside my apartment disturbed me from my peace , and I stood up and searched the source of the laughter . I saw a group of people who were madly dancing in the bar which was opposite to my apartment and ii didn't care at all , I went back to bed and pulled my hot duvet up over my body , up to my face and fell asleep .

The next morning was shining and sweet, there was a little sun shining, I pulled myself up and swung my feet on the floor , I went on the window and removed the curtains. Ohh my god ! The little morning sun blazed down upon my head out of a deep blue sky . There was few clouds in the atmosphere and that made the sky more colorful and artful. As I looked down I saw cars crossing each other and People moving around . WTF !! I have to go at the company

" anyway Karla told me that she will spend the night with me ! So where is she ???I can't believe that she didn't inform me "

I went in the kitchen to see if Karla was not there .

Everything in my house was placed in the right place there wasn't a mess in my house anymore. I run in the kitchen and found Karla there

" Karla hi… hi , I thought you were not here"

" Morning Jessy , I'm with you and I have already asked permission from Aiden "

"What did you tell him ?"

I told him that you are sick and you will not go to the company and I told him that we will be together the whole day and he admitted "

" okay , so …. And …. I'm sorry you cleaned the whole mess in my house alone " I said

" No don't worry , it's okay Jessy , that's not a big deal " she said

" so let me help you prepare breakfast sweetheart "

We finished cooking and ate our breakfast , it was a feast for the eyes and a certain delight for the palate .

Karla was my fine friend and my everything she did everything to Make me happy and she did all that without hoping anything in return . She was my best friend ever and I called her my secret keeper, she was all vibes and we were the best match ever . She never left me in the darkness alone , we were through everything together either in good times or even bad times . I was really lucky to have someone besides me , to comfort me when am sad and someone to clean all my mess without hoping anything in return, she was cute and beautiful in all corners.

We went to take a bath , put on makeup and decided to spend some time out of the Apartment and out of the city just to refresh our minds.

We went on the beach outside my home city , the shore there on that beach was so unlike the beaches at my home city , the shoreline at home had been picked through by the millions of people that visit everyday; all year round . It offered no more surprises . Here it was much less populated and the kids didn't have time to play in the sand and make sand castles and look for shells.

The gentle sound of the waves hitting the beach sounded almost like a lullaby . I closed my eyes nestling deeper into my chair , taking in deep a breathe of the ocean air as a small breeze blew by my face and ticked my nose .even though the beauty of the beach and the evening was captivating , it wasn't the same as the shoreline I had grown up on . It was the same ocean , the same sky , the same sun , but it was still different.

" did you enjoy the place ? " asked Karla as she brought two glasses of cocktail and gave me one .

I looked on my phone but I saw that even Aiden didn't text me to ask how I have been doing the whole day since Karla told him that I was sick, but i didn't mind anymore I never wanted to think about him again .