Forgive me

Because of your friendship with your brother, you could travel freely to your home. Your mother's affectionate caress and hospitality is not really to be forgotten. From the time I was introduced to you until my relationship with him was severed, he did not call me by my first name. I wouldn't talk to you like that. One afternoon it started raining in torrents. I was at your house then. After a while you will actually have tea and mudri with me. There is no one at home except you and your mother. If there was anyone at home, you would not come to me. I sipped my cup of tea and asked if there was anyone you liked. You can easily answer. I wanted to know who? In other words, you. Our relationship started from that day. Then you are a student of class nine. I told you, "Yes, I can have a relationship with you on one condition." If my mother likes you then I agree, not otherwise. So I invited everyone in your house to my house. I put you and your mother together for a long time. After dinner, I said goodbye to you and asked my mother how the girl felt. My mother liked you unconditionally. I could make love on vacation because I was unemployed. There was nothing left but to look at my father's property. To do business to give you full support. So your brother and I run a chicken farm together. A few days went by but one day I got bored of using it. I left the business and started working again in 15 days. I used to see you every day because of your proximity to my house. The role of your friend Shipra spread the whole area about our relationship. No one in your house could accept this except you and your mother. Because you are the youngest in the house and I used to call everyone in your house by name and rule over them. Since no one would dare to speak in front of me, is it permissible for the younger sister's husband to call her by name? They could not accept it. I used to tell you not to show respect, it comes from the heart.

Fourteen years of relationship life I never thought I would lose you. So sometimes I find an answer by asking a thousand questions in my mind. There is no such thing as love in the world. Your family's intention was to marry a BCS cadre boy. I never thought I would get a job. I worked for you, you wanted me to do the job at Chittagong port. Because your father was a port officer, your choice was a port job. I could not do that. So I got a job in a private firm hoping to get you. I knew your every move, you didn't understand. I would tell you the messy thoughts of my mind when I met you. I quit my job in 2000. After the death of my mother in 2001, I moved to Dhaka. Meanwhile, burn the tension between me and you. I do not understand what to do. I could not communicate from Dhaka under any circumstances.

One day I met your friend Sabita in front of Mohammadpur Town Hall Market. There was a lot of talk that day, she was at my house. My friend Jamal's wife came to take the primary school job exm. I went to Commerce College to give him time. At the end of the exm, your friend Sabita with my friend's wife. I know Sabita they can't believe it. Sabita is my mother-in-law. Tell us how our identity is. I had a very good relationship with your friends. Selim was admitted to the law department the following year after being admitted to history with you. Poppy's house and Bithy's sister's house were often visited with you. My friend Mamun married your friend Daisy. I attended the wedding of Poppy and Daisy. You didn't go to any of them, even though you were supposed to. Road accidents have not taken away from Bithy's life. The long journey was to take you to Mirswarai Bithi's house. Once or twice I went alone without you. I just went one day on the way back from Kishoreganj one day I came and told you. You never objected to that. Bithy met me at Newmarket. Tell me the details of the letter you wrote to Bithy. I thought what was the problem with telling you know about the letter? I have never had a quarrel with you in our relationship. But to ask you about the letter that day, you got very angry and insulted a lot. Why did I read your letter? I didn't tell you then because you wouldn't believe it. I just said that I did not quarrel with you about anything. Today it was crushed. If there was a quarrel in the relationship or marital life, I would say that I have never had a quarrel with you. You know all the future in our house. No one has ever quarreled. I hope you will always be with them. But no matter what Allha puts in the pen, it cannot stop it even with a thousand attempts. I was no exception. I realized I ran after a mirage for fourteen years. The mirage disappeared. I lost. I started my married life. You are not married yet. You got married almost 3 years after my marriage. And I said in my mind, I woke up in moonlit night, my new partner.

In the middle of January 2020, when I was going to get on CNG from Chawkbazar, I heard a woman's voice calling my name. I'm getting on the CNG and I'm not looking back because I don't know the woman. My student Raihan told me, "Sir, I think he is calling you." Daisy was recognized as soon as she opened the niqab. Still introduced. At first, she rejoiced at Daisy's custom of marrying one man to another. Without saying anything, I asked where is Mamun? Why are you here? Said my son fell to Kamal Sir and stood down for him. I don't know your son, I study in the room next to Kamal Sir. Tell him to contact me. Daisy asks where you are? Left his job at Bakalia Government College in 2017 and only coaching here. Then Daisy herself said that many years later that day I met Shahida at a wedding. I also tell Sahida as I wish. Shahida did not answer. He is busy with her daughter. The girl attended Silver Bells School. I said it was not her fault. Their family did what they wanted.