Traumatized

(Victoria's point of view)

End of flashback

I woke up from my trance with tears in my eyes. Jonathan was still sleeping on my shoulder and all the girls were sending daggers at me. If you're asking I wasn't always single I used to have a boyfriend. But after what happened with Bethany I decided to never speak to any boy again. Bethany was a good friend of my sister and a sweetheart as I said. Although she apologized she couldn't help with my insecurities. Bethany had long wavy milk chocolate coloured hair and pretty Hazel eyes. I have a black curly mess the end of which I dyed Blue and purple a week ago and cold ice blue eyes. Well I always was a kawaii goth. My life my rules. I felt so bad with myself that I started starving myself. Moments like those are the reason that I'm grateful for having Miranda in my life. She's the one that helped me through all that trauma. "You don't have to cry over a traitor like him. He betrayed you and you know that he will never feel sorry. Although after he figures out what he threw away he will feel sorry for being such a loser. Never forgive him though. He doesn't deserve you. Even the girl he betrayed you with agrees. You saw him kissing Domna yesterday so what?! She's a brat. Don't cry over trash people." Well Jonathan doesn't seem like that kind of guy. What?! I mean he's cute and-NO YOU'RE NOT FALLING FOR HIM!

(Authors POV)

But deep down she knows that she's in love. Even though she doesn't want to accept it. But the truth is she just doesn't want to get hurt again.