Chapter 16

she sat down leaning on the door and started knocking one , two , one , two. and calling his name like a whisper. he also sat down lost in thoughts .

lei , lei , lei ! ; she called as if it was a song she was singing to cool down a baby crying.

what do you want D! ; he asked

I want to tell you something, I want to do something , I want I want ..... and I can't do it with the door closed. she answered.

but I want to be alone Dana! he added

and I can't let you do it , am asking a small thing lei , to open the door, I want to see you in the eyes and I promise after that if you tell me to leave i will do what you asking me. she said in a soft voice like a whisper.

he kept quiet for a minute and then opened the door for her to come in. she entered and found him sitting on the floor. she sat beside him .

lei, can you look at me please ?; she asked him.

like as if his body obeys her, he turned his head and looked her in the eyes.

thank you, ; she said . can I please hug you? a really good hug . plz ; she asked again.

yes ofcourse he said opening his arms for her to come in for a hug.

hhuuhuu she chuncked, and you expect me to sit on your laps and hug you?. she asked

he smiled at her, ok let me sit on the chair if you not comfortable to sit on my laps facing me . hope it's not a problem on the chair am not feeling good to stand for long. he said standing up.

fine with me, she said . and went to him where he was sitting on the chair for a hug. she hugged him for minutes and after she pulled herself from the hug and held his face in her hands .

lei , you the special thing I have ever had in my life, and if it's a dream I wish I never wake up. lei , you did much for when I. wasn't even expecting a living in my life only existing. and I wanna do the same .please don't make me lose this opportunity to do the same . she said in a calm voice causing him to feel what she was feeling .

it not that I don't trust you but I .....

lei you not the only one who wants to do something good to me , I do want it too. she said cutting him out before he could end what he was about to say.

am a fraid to say it Dana , my heart is now about to bust for thinking about it when it's been a long time ago pushing it to the back of my head so that I can't think about it. he said even his hands shaking.

I know what we can do to keep this fear away.

whenever I was scared or losing it . your hug gave me a good impact and kept me warm. I think I can help you with it if you feel what I feel.; she said.

it feels good when you that close to me , more specially in a hug. ; he said.

then you will tell me what it is while hugging you, maybe then you will in someone's presence and love . and a good shoulder to cry on . she said coming close and their foreheads met.

you will feel me beside you. she added.

he breathed out and held her back Even more tight causing her pain but she didn't wanna show it to him that he was hurting her . if that was what making him feel good she is fine with the pain. she wrapped her arms on his neck and brought her body even more close and hugged him. " am right hear lei, and for you" she whispered in his ear. you can tell me .

I don't think I can do it now please maybe some other time.; he said to her ear and holding like she is going to be taken away from him.

it's ok lei just know that am hear for you that's it ok. she said and got up . am heading to work my clients may be are waiting for me to reach. she added while standing up.

am staying home am not going anywhere I want to feel good first. can you please go by yourself am.not good to take you home .he said looking as if it was his last breath.

call me if you need me, ok after I speak to the clients and do some few things I will leave the rest to them . they will take care of it. don't worry I will be back in few hours . ok . be good. she said and left.

she headed to the shop and got few things to do and then went home for a bath got dressed and went to Lei's .

they watched a movie without talking to each other . Lei breaking the silence.

D! can I hold you please? he asked

she turned her head to look at him , she looked at him for seconds and . "ok" ; she said and came close to him and leaned to his chest . feeling good now? she asked.

Yes, he answered.

and why do you want to hold me like this ? are you scared or maybe you want something to hold. she asked

something to hold. he answered

are you feeling empty??? she asked again . coz you won't need something to hold if you don't feel like that. she added.

he made her look his way and looked in her eyes. D! I share the same story as you and my very aunt was the one who did it to me , not once , twice but more than five times and more , I can't say she raped me but she used me . he said almost yelling.

Dana got speechless and didn't know what to say just looked at him.