It was suffocating. Even when I tried to breathe normally, I couldn't help this lingering feeling of devastation inside me. To elucidate my sentiments at this point seemed to be difficult for me. It was supposed to be this way. I should've known the consequences. However, I was younger than Augustus, I was supposed to be the mature and wise one judging I was the female. It was shameless of me to even think about a mated male. One with a child.