Wood Golem

I have changed. I know that. Since I reincarnated, I experienced more emotions, different experiences, different feelings. Before reincarnating, I felt only anger and pain. When San Mei'er came into my life, that changed a little, but not enough to change what I am. But everything has changed since I reincarnated. Maybe my body, my brain, has changed who I am in my soul. But one thing I am sure of: I like what I am now more.

As much as I can get out of control at any moment, which never happened before, at least now I feel something besides pain and anger. Centuries, millennia of loneliness. I tried to meet other women, trained disciples, and made friends, but that emptiness I felt inside my chest, that emptiness that seemed to want to swallow me up, never disappeared. I tried to live in a mortal city, surrounded by so many people that it would be hard to count.

But in my mind, in my head, I was alone. The city, full of laughter and joy, with a bright sun above the city on the autumn festival day, looked like a ghost town with a cloudy climate in my eyes. I tried to get better, I tried to control my anger. I stopped sleeping on those days, afraid that the Dark Dimension would make my emotions worse. But nothing changed even when I stopped sleeping.

After so many attempts, instead of getting better, I got worse. I didn't feel like getting out of bed anymore. I ended up digging a cave in a mountain, a few miles away from the mortal city. There, I lived for 100 years, doing absolutely nothing. I just lay down on the ground and stared at the ceiling of that cave for 100 years. For 100 years I did absolutely nothing. When I came out, I went to the mortal city, only to find that the mortal city was already gone.

That's when I thought: If, just like this city, I just disappeared, wouldn't all this emptiness that I have felt for so many years end?

But as soon as I woke up in this life, my mother came running to me, even though wounded, and gave me motherly love. When I have nightmares, Jorge helps calm me down. No, I don't want to go back to those times, even though I am weak now, even though I can't even defend my mother from those bastards who want to take my mother to a war, I can't go back to the way I was before.

And I will never, ever let them take away anyone who helped me get better! I will use everything I have, until my soul is destroyed, until my existence disappears from this world or this universe, I will annihilate all existence, from this universe and any other! If anyone close to me doesn't live, no other being deserves to live!

Haaa... calm down San Meili, don't lose control again. Jorge is in your head, don't be stupid and hurt him.

Realizing that I had temporarily calmed down, my mother began to say what we would learn today.

"Very well. Now begins the classes for magical beasts...and vampires. Hellen, although you have the Plant element, which is rare for vampires, your basics are all wrong. Jorge, you have to learn to channel spiritual energy, that's what you will work on. As punishment, if you cannot do this in a week, your punishment will be not sleeping or spending the day with the puppy. We are at war, and I don't want my cub to suffer anything because you can't defend yourself."

Before I could protest at the sight of Jorge's sad face, my mother gave me a serious look. I eventually forgot, that as much as I love my mother, she loves me back, maybe even more.

"And sonny, what you will learn today is something more complicated. Let me deal with the vampire and Jorge soon, and soon it will be your turn." Saying this, my mother waited for my answer.

"Yes, mother." I nodded at her arrangements, and decided to take a nap while I waited. After all, everything she is going to teach the two of us, I already know and learned ages ago.

I soon fell asleep, feeling safe, and soon lost track of time, and space....

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I was awakened by a light touch on my forehead. Opening my sleepy eyes, I soon saw my mother's white serpentine body, and her big red eyes were looking at me full of love and affection.

"Good morning mom." I said. Even though I was still sleepy, my voice came out serene. After all, my voice was not coming out of my vocal cords.

"Good morning, my little boy." My mother replied, with a voice and full of affection.

Leaving that tender feeling within my heart, I stretched and soon followed behind my mother to another corner away from the others who were training. Near the end of the clearing, my mother stopped beside the nearest tree, standing with almost half her body erect.

"What I'm going to teach, today, is called a Wood Golem. Unlike other Golems, like Earth ones, for example, is that the Wood Golem, has sentience. They are not living beings, they have no soul, but they can make their own decisions based on the moment."

Saying this, she touched the tree with the tip of her tail, and the tree began to creak, and break. The tree soon shrank, to the size of 10 feet (3.05 m), taking on a humanoid form. The Wood Golem's difference to humans, however, was that the Wood Golem had long arms that went down to its knees, and the claws of its hands went all the way down to the ground.

"Although it has no soul or life, the Wood Golem has intelligence. I think you'll be able to...do it with some ease."

I understand what my mother means. She thinks George was made that way, which proves that even though they watched things with the bluebird's eyes, they couldn't see George's soul.

I spent the rest of the day training with my mother's methods, but without much result. The most I managed was to blow up a tree, which strangely enough made me feel very bad.

Today, as my mind was troubled, I didn't know where to sleep. The worries I have about my mother going to war, reminded me that my daughter is alone in the Immortal World, that cruel and bloody world, this fills my heart with pain and despair. Knowing that she might be in danger, that she might end up getting hurt, makes my body shudder, my head spin, and my heart tighten....

Feeling a touch on my head, I calmed down as I felt Jorge's touch on my head. Although it had the same touch as the branch of a tree, to my senses it was like a soft handful of care and concern.

"I'm fine Jorge, don't worry, let's sleep with the vampire girl, it will do us good to rest in a comfortable place."

Saying that, I headed towards Hellen's house. That metal hut looked incredibly cozy today.

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Hellen was in the bathroom of her cabin. She had already taken her shower, but was still in the bathroom, rinsing off some skin products. Today, she was wearing pink sweatpants and a loose beige shirt. After such a stressful day at work, she didn't have the patience or the drive to dress better. She wanted to put on some comfortable clothes and rest today. On ordinary days, this training would be so exhausting that she would have to drink a bag of blood when she got home. But today, even though she was tired, she couldn't feel any blood.

Putting on her slippers, she left the bathroom. When she arrived in her room, she sighed at the sight of the black snake. She was about to start arguing, but she was too tired for that.

"Why are you here again? Don't you have a bed?" She asked in an exasperated tone. She was too tired to even speak.

"No, I don't have a bed. Could you please let me sleep with you tonight? I'm not well... my head is all messed up. And your presence calms me down." San Meili replied in a soft, serene voice.

Hellen was surprised by San Meili's honest statement. She thought he would lie, or be arrogant, but his response was completely opposite.

"You... are you serious? This isn't like earlier, when you said I was a fast learner, but you were actually calling me dumb, weren't you?" She asked skeptically.

"No, I'm not lying. And I didn't lie earlier, either. You probably learn faster than ants and an ass, don't you?"

Just as she was about to start arguing, San Meili apologized, and said he wouldn't do it again. Giving up and going to bed, Hellen lay down, and soon San Meili's head rested on Hellen's shoulder. On impulse, Hellen stroked San Meili's head, while Jorge climbed onto the pillow and snuggled down to sleep.

"Good night, Hellen." San Meili spoke, almost in a whisper.

Hellen liked San Meili's tone, but didn't comment on it.

"Yes... good night."

And soon, everyone was asleep.