9. Forbidden Emotions

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A/N I don't know why this took me so long! But I'm afraid from now on; the chapters will come with bigger time gaps inbetween! I will try my hardest though to put up chapters as quick as possible but I'm just warning you that it might not happen!!

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Malfoy went rigid as he felt Hermione's hands circle his neck and lean on his chest. He blinked stupidly and smiled as he wrapped his arms around her and rested his chin on her head.

His head was in complete turmoil. Next to him on the bed was his daughter that wasn't waking up and holding onto him was Hermione.

Half of him wanted to push her off and pretend Ella didn't exist but the other half of him was worrying about Ella more than was healthy and he felt a strong need to comfort Hermione.

'She looks so tiny' A voice said from under him.

He looked down at Ella and nodded. 'She'll be ok'

'I'm being so silly. This isn't rational, I mean she's only a stupid spell, she'll be gone in a week anyway' She said her voice quivering.

'Yeah but she means something to you ... to us' He said as he rested his cheek on her head as he looked down at the tiny baby.

Throughout the day Hermione remained next to Ella writing and doing homework. Malfoy popped in regularly to see how she was and Hermione also got a visit from Harry and Ron to see how Ella was. There was no progress during the day, which continued to upset Hermione drastically.

Madame Pomfrey made it perfectly clear that Hermione should leave and go to sleep when it got dark but Hermione refused flatly so the nurse appealed to Malfoy to help get her away.

'Come on, you need to sleep' He tried.

'No, I don't'

'There's nothing we can do'

'I'm staying'

'Don't make me force you'

'How are you going to do that?' She challenged as she sat beside Ella's bed.

He walked up to her, picked up her small frame and put her over his shoulder. She screamed.

'Malfoy, put me down right now!'

'No' He said simply walking out of the hospital wing with Hermione struggling.

'I'll bite you'

'Getting kinky are we?' He said huskily. 'And it would be lovely if you would stop staring at my ass'

'I am not staring at your ass'

'Fine, not that I care... Quite a turn on'

'Shut up'

He got to their living area and stumbled across the threshold and threw Hermione onto a sofa.

'You make me so mad' She said getting up.

'You wouldn't move'

'Its like you don't even care that Ella may never wake up from this coma thing!'

'We have to remember she's just a spell Granger'

'She's effected you though. You're not as harsh to me anymore as I'm the "mother" of your child'

'Don't flatter yourself'

'Oh I won't' She said getting angrier. 'If you wouldn't have left her with that stupid Slytherin girl, Ella might be fine'

'Your being stupid, Dee didn't do anything'

'Pfft, if I had left her with a decent human being and not a heartless Slytherin, we wouldn't be having this conversation'

Malfoy was biting back insults as he stared at Hermione who was on the verge of tears.

'I hope she'll be ok' She said softly looking down at her feet.

Malfoy sighed, however hard he tried, he couldn't stay mad at her when she looked that vulnerable.

'She will be' He said softly.

'Malfoy' She said walking over to him and putting her hand on his cheek. They both looked at one another deeply for a second before their lips met. Hermione was startled by her own actions but decided for just this once, not to object.

He pushed her back onto the sofa behind them and pressed himself down as his hands began to wander causing her to let out a small moan.

He started kissing her neck softly until Hermione let out a yell. 'Arrrgghhh! Slytherin!'

Malfoy jumped up from the sofa panicking. 'Where? Where?!'

Hermione looked at him shocked. 'I meant you!'

'Ohhh, how observant of you Granger' He said getting back on top of her which caused a glare to cross Hermione's face.

'No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no' She said quickly as he tried to kiss her again.

'Ya know... that word just lost all meaning' He smirked as he attempted to kiss her again but she was struggling underneath him.

Hermione looked up and rose a challenging eyebrow. 'For crying out loud Malfoy, get off me'

'Why?' He said kissing her on the neck quickly.

'Because ... there's laws against sexual harassment' She smiled.

'You didn't seem to be complaining a moment ago'

'I was upset about Ella' She said nervously playing with a bit of clothing.

'You found me irresistible didn't you?' He said smugly

'Don't flatter yourself, now please will you get off me?'

'Let me think about this... hmmmmm' He bit his lip in mock concentration as Hermione did her very best not to be effected by how close he was to her. 'No'

'Malf-' She started but got cut off by a knock at the door. 'Who's calling so late?'

Malfoy gave her a curious look and got off of her and walked lazily to the door and opened it to a cheery Australian. Claire saw Malfoy and gave him her best grin and flicked her hair, he found this quite amusing so responded with a charming smile in return.

'G'day' She grinned.

'Hi?' He said curiously.

Claire looked past Malfoy and saw Hermione get off the sofa looking quite ruffled, which caused her to stare suspiciously at Malfoy.

'Have I interrupted anything?' She said signalling Hermione with her hand.

'However much I wish you were, no' He drawled shooting a glance at Hermione who came to stand next to Malfoy.

'Come in' Hermione said with a strained smile.

'I just came to ask how Ella is. When we all found it, we all felt so sorry for you guys and I thought I would see how you two are'

'We're OK, she will be alright' Hermione tried but her voice was breaking.

'Yeah, she will' Malfoy said putting an arm around Hermione's shoulders. Hermione wasn't the only one there that flinched when he did this, Claire's smile disappeared momentarily.

'Well, that's good. I'm pleased you guys are OK. You both will probably feel better after having a good sleep'

'I hope so' Hermione said with a cheery voice as Claire walked out after giving them one more glance.

'That was odd' Hermione said as she watched the figure go down the hallway.

'I think she fancies me you know' He said shooting Hermione a smile.

'Not every girl fancies you'

'You fancy me'

'No I don't'

'You want me' He said moving behind her and kissing her softly on the neck.

'No. I don't' She said a little harsher but not making any attempt to move away. He kissed her again softly on the lips and every thread of self control slipped away as she tilted her head up towards his.

'Not again' she screamed as she pushed him away.

'This is getting kinda boring Granger, us kissing, and you pushing me away. I think you need to give in to this increasing sexual tension between us'

Just as Malfoy was about to attempt to kiss her again he realised she wasn't paying attention to him which annoyed him. She had a slightly dazed and thoughtful look about her.

'What?' He snapped, bringing her out of her daze.

'Sorry, I just really have this craving for ...chicken' She said slightly confused.

'Chicken?'

'Yeah'

'Right...'

'I'm off to the kitchens to get some, want anything?'

'No' He said sighing as he watched her leave. Now he was going to get bored, so he decided to wander. His wandering took him to the hospital wing, which didn't shock him in the slightest.

He crept into to the long dark room and saw Ella, completely still, on her bed. His insides turned as he walked slowly toward the bed and sat down next to the tiny bundle.

He laid his hands down on the edge of the bed and propped his head on them. 'Ella?' He tried. Nothing.

'Come on Ella, please wake up or your mum is not going to be a very nice person to know. And, I want you to wake up. Slytherins don't quit Ella. Well I suppose you're not a Slytherin entirely. You're a Gryfferin or a Slythindor' He smiled.

He sighed heavily making the bits of hair covering his eyes fly up and out of his way. 'If you see a light Ella, it would be lovely if you could not go towards it. Well anyway, I suppose you're leaving us in just over a week anyway but could you please come back to us for now? I swear I'll stop yelling at your mum.'

'It's because she's a Gryffindor you see, they think their all high and mighty which makes it a lot harder for someone who is in fact higher than them to befriend someone that thinks their higher than everyone.'

He suddenly heard himself in his head and smirked. 'I do talk a lot of crap sometimes Ella. Especially to Granger...but she deserves it for being all...bookish.'

'I mean, she carries around about 500 books at a time and you wonder how a girl so small can carry that much. It's not right.'

'Atleast I know that when Granger has kids when she's older, she's gunna make a good mum'

'Complimenting a Muggle born?' A female voice said from behind him.

He turned to see Claire standing in the doorway. 'I wasn't complimenting Granger'

'No, you were pronouncing your undying love for her, to your child' She smirked.

'Like I would ever do that'

'Your right, everyone tells me about you hating muggle-borns, always insulting them and yet I haven't seen a trace of pure hatred towards Hermione. I find it fascinating'

'I'm pleased for you' he deadpanned, not really interested in what she had to say.

'Ella's a beautiful child'

'I know' He said softly. 'Well, I better get back to Granger. She's probably worrying... who am I kidding? She probably hasn't noticed I'm gone' He said walking by Claire who was smiling.

'You should tell her you know' Claire said over her shoulder as he passed.

'Who? ...' He knew who. 'Tell her what?'

'That you love her and can't live another moment without her'

'What? As a joke?' he said smirking.

'Just a thought, but if I'm wrong about the way you feel about her, I wouldn't mind getting to know you better' She said winking at him.

'You are wrong and thanks' He said striding down the hall and back Hermione.

When he got back he saw Hermione sitting on the sofa eating and writing.

'And where have you been?' She said accusingly.

'Sorry mother' He snapped at her tone.

'It's against the rules to go out this late'

'You just went out to get chicken, so you broke the school rules too'

'I was hungry'

'Well that changes everything' He said sarcastically. They fell into a relatively comfortable silence until Malfoy got bored.

'I just saw Claire' Hermione's head snapped up to look at him. For some reason, it brought a lot of satisfaction to Malfoy to see Hermione react like this.

'You were with her?'

'Yeah, we bumped into one another'

'Oh I bet you did' She said her tone a little angrier.

'Are you jealous?' Malfoy teased.

'No, why would I be?'

'Because I'm amazingly handsome and you know it' Hermione shot him a withering look.

'Maybe..' She said giving him her full attention. 'You want me to be jealous'

'Maybe, you want me to want you to be jealous'

'Maybe, you want me to want you to want me to be jealous'

'Maybe, you want me-'

'Ok we have to stop this here because it's late and this could go on for quite a while' She said yawning.

'I went to see Ella' he said when Hermione looked back down at her work.

'Any change?' Hermione said not keeping the tone of hope out of her voice.

'No'

'Oh' She said yawning again and looking bleary eyed at Malfoy who was staring at her. 'Yes?'

'Nothing. You should go to bed' He said as he watched her lean her head back on the sofa.

'Here's good' She sighed sleepily as her parchment fell to the floor and she curled up into a ball and shut her eyes.

'Come on' He said standing up and moving his hands around her. Hermione was way too tired to care so she wrapped her arms around his neck as he pulled her up and took her into their room.

He put her down and the bed and threw a sheet over her. He stood in the darkness looking at the silhouette of her for a while. His thoughts were having a battle over her. He walked over to her slowly and kissed her very lightly on the cheek before moving away at remarkable speed and into the living room.

'Why did I do that?' He muttered to himself.

I have to get away from her. Ok bad points about Granger...I think I'm going to make a list. He thought. This time I'm going to hide it though.

He pulled out a bit of parchment and labelled it 'Bad things about Granger'

Oh so many to name, where do I start? He thought as he smirked.

'She's a mudblood, she's bookish, she's a Gryffindor, she's friends with potty and weasel, she's cleverer than me, she's...Granger.'

Well, that's a start. He thought when he looked at his list. Hmmm, I should really get to bed. I wonder what Granger's dreaming about...probably books.

He got up and stuffed the parchment into his back pocket and went into the bedroom. He took of his clothes and crawled underneath his sheets and fell asleep.

He woke up with a hysterical Hermione straddling him and yelling something at him. He was extremely displeased.

'What?' He snapped as he opened his eyes to see Hermione on top of him grinning.

'Atlast! You're awake!' She squealed.

He got up on his elbows and looked at Hermione who was glowing. 'What is it?' He said squinting against the light pouring in the window.

'It's Ella'

'Ella?' He said trying to mentally wake himself up.

'Yes! Daughter Ella. She's awake!' Hermione squealed again.

'It's way too early' He said trying to tug the covers from underneath Hermione who was still straddling him, grinning.

'Get up you lazy sod' She said happily as she bounced off the bed and out of the room.

He shoved on a robe and stumbled out of the room to see Hermione hopping from foot to foot near the open door.

'Come ooon' She whined as he ran his hand through his hair.

'I'm-coming' He said through yawns. 'I'm too young to deal with all this emotional pressure'

Malfoy was having trouble keeping up with her, which he thought was very strange considering his legs were a lot bigger than hers.

'Oh I knew she would be ok' Hermione said over her shoulder as Malfoy started jogging to keep up with her.

'I wish you would walk slower woman' He growled from behind.

'Well, we are making improvements...you're acknowledging that I'm female' She said with a grin as she pushed the door to the hospital wing open.

They both walked in to screaming coming from the baby in the nurse's arms.

They watched as she attempted to quiet her but to no avail. Hermione rushed up to her and offered her arms, which the nurse gladly put Ella in.

'Oh thank goodness you're alright' She said hugging her tight while Malfoy stood behind the bed trying not to smile and remain as void of emotion as possible. It wasn't working, he's feet were inching their way to Hermione's side and the corners of his mouth were rising.

He stood next to Hermione and looked down at Ella whose cheeks were red and her eyes, wide as normal. Her crying had stopped, and she seemed extremely happy to be back with her parents. Malfoy took the tiny baby's hand and kissed her on the nose.

'Oh I missed her' Hermione said softly as she put a quick kiss on Ella's cheek.

'Yeah' Malfoy agreed quietly as he stared at Hermione and Ella. Hermione turned to give Malfoy a huge grin as Malfoy leant forward and kissed her soundly. Hermione smiled at him as she rested her head on his shoulder and looked at the baby in her arms.

They heard a cough from behind them and saw McGonagall giving them very suspicious looks.

'Professor' Hermione said moving a step away from Malfoy. 'When uh did you get errr here?'

'About 50 seconds ago' She said shooting a warning expression at Malfoy who fidgeted. 'We still do not know the cause of this sudden illness and I don't think we ever will to be honest. But she appears to be absolutely fine which makes things more confusing.'

'Can we take her back home now?' Hermione said giving Malfoy a glance.

'I'm not sure-'

'Oh please' Hermione begged.

'Ok, but if this wasn't just a spell. We would keep her here a lot longer' She said turning on her heel and walking out past Madame Pomfrey who was scurrying around someone's bed at the end.

Malfoy, feeling emotions he thought of as a weakness, decided it best to fix a neutral expression onto his face as Hermione continued to smile.

'Come on, let's go home' Hermione cooed to Malfoy who nodded and followed her out.

A/N Honestly...next chapter shouldn't be too far away! I HOPE! I love you all though...thanks to everyone that reviews! It means a lot to me and I'm still in shock with how many reviews I've got! I was expecting like...30..if I was lucky! Stay shippy everyone and review!