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As I leave y/n's house, I think on how awkward we were.

Last night really left us weird.

I wonder if she knows I was talking about her?

She seemed a little sad when I mentioned I liked another girl besides Ladybug, maybe that means she thinks it's someone else, and she does like me?

I kind of hope it's true, I don't want her to be sad, but I do hope she likes me.

Unless Ladybug accepts, then I don't want y/n to like me, and be upset.

That's the last thing I want.

I guess I'll talk to Ladybug tomorrow, it's a joint patrol night.

But do I even want her to accept?

She's always shot me down, never treated me as anything more than a friend.

Sometimes not even that.

I'm so confused, I hate having to choose between two people I like. 

But I guess I'll take y/n's advice and ask Ladybug first.

When I get home and detransform, Plagg quickly scarfs down a wheel of cheese then goes to sleep, I won't be talking to him anymore tonight.

Guess his advice from yesterday wore him out, he doesn't want to talk today.

I get ready for bed and fall asleep quickly, but restlessly. Ladybug and I always meet at 10:15 on the Eiffel Tower for joint patrol, since I can't get out until a few minutes after 10.

It's been a regular, boring day doing photoshoots.

But I haven't been able to focus much, I've been thinking about what I'll say to Ladybug.

I finally know what I'm going to say, but I don't know if she'll accept me.

If our previous history is any indication, then no.

But maybe she's changed her mind?

I can't say that I haven't thought about what would happen if Ladybug turns me down again though.

If she turns me down, I'll continue my usual routine and go to y/n's house, but instead of just hanging around, I'll ask her out.

Or at least try to find out if she likes me.

I'm finally clear to leave, it's 10:10.

I make my way to the Tower, and land on the top viewing area.

I think to myself.

Before I can shake the thoughts from my head, I hear the familiar zip of Ladybug's yo-yo.

"Hey, LB!"

"Hey Cat, ready to patrol?"

"Yep!"

"Come on then." We jump away together, and swing through the city.

No akumas, but one creepy guy who looks like he may be trying to rob a store.

We scare him away and go back to the Eiffel.

"Hey, uh, Ladybug?"

"Yeah?"

"Can I ask you something?"

"What is it, Cat?"

"Well, um, you know I've liked you for a really long time now, and I was just wondering if-" She cuts me off before I can finish.

"Cat, save it. You know that I like someone else. And I know that like someone else. So just go tell it to her!"

She's never been this rude about it before.

"What do you mean?"

"Cat Noir. I know you like y/n, you don't have to hide it."

"I'm not hiding it, I-" She cuts me off again.

"Then what are you doing? Huh? You don't like me very much anymore, maybe a little, but it's just friendship now! You like y/n, I know it. I saw how you two were  dancing! You like her!"

"Well, yeah, but I like you both! I don't know who to pick..."

"Not me. Because I don't like you in that way. So go on and tell y/n you like her! Go ahead and announce it to Hawkmoth while you're at it! Have him take her as bait, just to get to you."

I just stand there, watching Ladybug rant, I've never seen her like this.

"What were you thinking Cat?! Falling for a civilian, who you don't even know in your normal life!"

"How do you know I don't know her?!"

"She told me. She said that she's only met one boy that has reminded her of you, and that was in a grocery store. Then she tried to figure out if it was you. Was it?!"

"Um, yeah, probably. I did talk to her in a grocery store once..."

"I knew it! She's dangerous Cat, she's gonna find you out soon. I know it."

"I'll tell her not to! She'll stop!"

"I already told her that. Hopefully she's going to listen."

"She will. Don't worry, I've got it under control."

"You better! I can't believe you even hang out with a civilian, there's so many things wrong with it. You're lucky Master Fu doesn't know, or he just might take your miraculous!"

"You think he would?"

"Most likely. I probably would, if I was him!"

"You don't really mean that?"

"I sure do. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'd like some sleep!"

She leaps away quickly, leaving me there alone.

I can feel tears welling up, I can't believe she said Master Fu should take my miraculous.

She has been tough on me before, but never like this.

This is not the girl I fell in love with.

She's changed, I don't know why, but she has.

I blindly head in the direction of y/n, she's the only one I can go to, and the only one I want to go to.

I get there, but her light is off.

I can see in though, she's in bed.

I don't want to wake her up, so I just stand there, unsure of what to do.

Tears are running down my cheeks now, and I quietly choke out a sob.

Ladybug really thinks I shouldn't have a miraculous, all because I'm friends with a civilian?

By the time I hear the flutter, it's too late.

What the heck did I just do?!

Why did I say such horrible things to him?

He's my partner, the one I can always count on to help me, why was I so mean?

I don't know.

I mean, yeah, I do think it's dangerous to be friends with a civilian, but I went too far.

Just like I did with y/n the other night.

I don't know what got into me then, either.

It's like I was possessed or something, I couldn't even control my words.

What is wrong with me?

Maybe I should try to apologize to Cat, he's probably still around, heading to see y/n or something.

He may be with her already, but I don't know where she lives.

I turn around, I was almost home, but I have to apologize to Cat, there's something going on with me, I just hope he won't be super upset.

"Laaaddyybuuuggg?" I hear someone call.

I look around, but I don't see anybody.

"Laaadyybuuugg. Where arrre yooouuu?" The voice is still calling, but I don't see anything.

But then, something white flashes by in front of me.

I gasp and step back, unsure of what it was.

It flashes by again, and then stops.

I look and see it's not an but a

And not just any he.

It's my partner.