Chapter 26: Slaps, Pain and Lies

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My legs felt numb, I felt like I had no legs. My eyes felt watered and ready to spill like an overflowing cup, I wanted to scream. I could already see how everything was getting planned out like those romance movies or series where the girl sees her boy with someone slut and starts screaming.

I knew it was going to play out but, nothing came out of my mouth. You could say I screamed a silent scream, where only I could hear it. Tears never fell from my eyes, before I knew it I walked away.

By then all the tears fell, most likely ruining my face paint but I could care less. As I entered the Gymnasium, music was blurred out, almost as if I was underwater but with the amount of tears running down my face it was likely I was drowning in my own ocean.

I pulled over my hood as I grew closer to the door leading to the classrooms and dorms, my legs were about to give out on me. My body felt so heavy, as I exited. Voices and yells we're blocked out as I picked up my pace, as I turned to the dorm area, I lost those who were calling my name as their footsteps carried off somewhere else.

I leaned against a wall with a flow of tears dripping from my face, my lips felt chapped and I felt weak, fragile almost. Eventually I knew I had to pick myself up, so I did and dragged my feet to my dorm. Hesitantly I opened the door, the smell of familiar vanilla and chocolate wafted to my nose.

That smell always made me smile, but now it's a smell I wish to forget. I stripped down and walked into my bathroom and took a cold, shower to numb the pain.

A type of pain that never affected you then, but suddenly does now.

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The cold subdued the pain, after getting changed I hopped out. Unconsciously, I sat down on my bed and pulled my knees to my chin, wrapping my arms around myself and rocked back and forth.

Memories plagued my mind, and my body grew cold as I sunk deeper and deeper into the memories and thoughts..

As more memories stained my mind I felt colder, I could take the roll as Elsa in frozen due to how cold I was feeling. Before I knew it I heard the door open and I looked up.

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He looked out of breath, and his hair looked tousled. My breath was caught in my lungs, I could feel my face drain of colour. By the looks of it he noticed too,

"Marinette.." he whispered faintly, I felt my head lowering, resting my forehead on my knees to hide the tears that might come. "Please Mari.. look at me" he said again, but this time it was heard loud and clear, his hand dug into my hair and he used his other one to lift my face.

My glance was adverted somewhere else immediately, "Marinette, please just look me in the face" his tone grew agitated, but I didn't obey.

"Marinette!"

"What do you want Adrien?!" I yell, my patient grew thin and I looked at him with a fire in my eyes. I could feel the tears threatening my eyes. It took everything not to let a single tear drop, but I knew eventually I would breakdown and let it fall.

He sighed, before looking at me with concern in his eyes. "Where were you?" He asked quietly, I felt something in me snap and just like that I pushed him away.

"What do you mean where was I? Where were you?" I pointed a finger at him, his face looked confused and shocked, "Oh that's right! You were in the hallway with Chloe! Making out!" I yell anger dripping in my tone. His face looked pained and regret, he what I was talking about.

"I can't believe you! After everything you told me did it mean nothing?!" I yell again, demanding an answer, by then I felt something warm run down my cheek. In my mind I was hoping he would say something to make me feel better, something to stop this anger and pain. But I knew that it wouldn't happen, this is real life not some pointless Netflix drama show.

His face that was now painted in regret and well pain, turned into disgust and seriousness.

"It did mean something Marinette! Do you think I just throw my affection around like some toy I was given!? No! I have heart for gods sake! I have feelings too!" He yells back, I noticed how his eyes turned glossy.

"So why?! Why did you do it then Agreste?!"

"Because I had to! Because I.. I needed to!" His eyes looked away from me for once, right then and there I knew he was lying, why should he? He could just tell me the truth and everything will be okay, why make it more complicated?

"Why are you lying to me?-"

"Marinette! Will you just drop it?! You don't need to know what happens when I'm not with you! Because it's none of your god damn business!" He roared, I felt my confidence die a little and I felt like hiding.

We stared at each other in silence, our eyes fighting our battle. It was when I opened my mouth like the stupid idiot I was and asked a question.

"Adrien..do you even me anymore?" I faintly whisper, his features soften before returning to its sour look.

"I-I do." He stuttered, his gaze looking somewhere else. It hit me like a truck,

"Look at me and tell me" I reply firmly, my voice barely above whisper, he did what I told him to do. "Do you love me?" I felt demanding, and I didn't like it but I needed- no I was to know. I sounded clingy and one of those annoying girlfriends but I was desperate to know if he really did.

"No..I-i don't" He replied,

It was then, I let all my held back tears fall and stormed out. As I stormed out of my dorm, I saw Chloe and her little clique.

Chloe looked at my tears, and a smirk was painted all over her face. Before I knew what was I doing I lifted my hand and slapped that smirk off her face.

And you know what? It felt fucking great.

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