His Fallen Conditions

~~~NATE'S POV~~~

I'm pissed right now and the appearance of Daisy in front of me when I already told her that she is not allowed inside my office and whatever her business with me should pass on to Catherine before it proceeds to me made it worse.

I don't know if she doesn't know how to understand simple instructions or if she is just deliberately ignoring them. Not to mention how the girl tries to get my attention and flirting with me. I would always glare at her in return or ignore her but obviously, the girl doesn't get the message.

As much as possible, I don't want Catherine to see someone giving me that kind of attention. And I don't want to waste my time and attention on insignificant people like her. I know where I should put my full attention is, to the company, my daughters, and now to Catherine.

If Daisy is not helpful to Catherine I would have fired her long ago. But Catherine needed someone to help lessen her workload. The last thing I need is to see her in the hospital bed again and in pain. If I could take that pain away from her I would have done it the moment I found her curled on the floor of her office.

God knows that I would do anything to take that pain away from her. I would rather it be me than her.

As I flipped the papers on my desk, my thoughts drifted back to our conversation earlier. Everything was fine these past few weeks, so I wonder where did she suddenly get that idea of commuting when I already made it clear that I will never allow her to commute again.

I will treat her better and I will take care of her, look after her, make sure that she is not in pain, that she is comfortable and she is eating well. And I mean all of it. Then why is she suddenly refusing to let me do those things? Was there something her best friend, Grace, told her to change her mind and even threaten to resign?

No, I will not let that happen. I need her here near me, beside me where I could always see her. And I want her to need me as well even though she seems to be acting as if she doesn't need anyone in her life. I will change that.

Though I seemed to be denying it, hell yes, I am giving her special treatment the way she deserves it. She deserves everything in the world and I am giving it all to her.

These past few days I got closer to her. I pick her up in the morning and learn a few things about her. I found out that her mother died of depression a couple of years ago and that she only has her Aunt Molly who lives on the outskirts.

I also learned that she only has one bag, the one that she uses every day not because she cannot afford a few new bags, but because she doesn't have the habit of changing bags every day. And her reason is one of the most practical I've ever heard. And I found it amusing.

I fell in love with her deeper every day. Especially every time I see her walk inside my daughter's school holding both their hands and kissing them on their cheeks goodbye. It was a sight that I want to keep forever. She said that it was a way to relieve Faye of her school anxiety. But whatever the reason is, I definitely tolerate it.

Every day, she would spend a couple of minutes with my daughters just listening to them. It was something that I didn't realize my daughters needed. Someone they could talk to and someone who would listen to them. And Catherine gave it to them without any condition.

Damn! I need her in my daughter's life.

I need her in my life.

And I hoped that she would want to need me in her life. Not just because she needs me, but because she loves me.

The thought of her being in love with me makes my heart flutter inside its cage. It's a feeling that I cannot describe. Something I've felt towards my late wife, and maybe much more.

I closed the folder in my hand. Damn! I cannot focus. I need to see her and that damn curtains are blocking my view of the only person that will give my focus back.

I reached out for my phone that is in the inner pocket of my suit and sent a message to Catherine.

Draw the curtains.

I put back my phone in my inner pocket and looked ahead of me. I waited and hoped that she received my message. Please, because I need to see her now. If she doesn't draw that curtain in the next minute, I'll be going out there and see her for myself. Do nothing or say nothing. Just stand there in front of her and watch her.

I may sound like a creepy stalker, but that is what I feel right now.

A minute is far too long.

I stood up but in time, the curtains were drawn and there! I can finally see her. My beautiful angel is looking at me with confusion. But I just stared at her angelic face. I cannot seem to get enough of her. So I stared at her for what seemed like a lifetime and I can see that though she was confused, she stared back at me.

I love her damn so much!

I realized that long ago.

I would do anything and everything to make her feel the same way towards me. Though I know she feels something, maybe an attraction but I don't know if it is the same as the way I feel towards her.

But how can I make her fall in love with me? How can I show her how much I love her when she just wanted to distance herself from me? Although it is not what she said earlier, it was clear that she is distancing herself from me and I wonder why.

I have no choice but to agree as long as she'll stays. She needs the job and I'll give it to her as long as she'll stays by my side.

She doesn't want me to pick her up or take her home. Now I should think of a way to make sure that she'll be safe.

Eating lunch without me is fine as long as she is with her friend and eating the right food.

We stared at each other for what seemed like a lifetime until she averted her gaze from me and continued working.

I watched her for a couple more minutes before I started working but once in a while, I would raise my head and watch her. The sight of her gives me the focus and calmness that I needed right now. I was angry earlier not because of her but because I couldn't find her when I came back and then her words made me even angrier.

But not anymore, I cannot stay angry at her. Not with that sight. I cannot believe I have the privilege to watch an angel do her magic in front of me. Every movement of hers seems like magic to me.

I spent the rest of the day working and once in a while watching Catherine. I saw her stand up and walk around once in a while. I saw her once she left her office and I am sure she went to the pantry because when she returned, I saw her with a cup in her hand. I wonder what it is because I am sure she doesn't drink coffee or tea.

I didn't notice that it was already time to pick up my daughters until Catherine stood up from her chair and picked up her bag.

I watch her with anticipation as she walks towards the door of my office and knocks.

"Come in," I said pretending to do something on my laptop when the truth is, I already closed what I am doing. I still have a lot of work to finish but this is the only time I get to spend with Catherine.

She doesn't want me to pick her up and take her back to her apartment. She doesn't want me to eat lunch with her. So I am not losing my chance to spend time with her while picking up my daughters.

That reminds me, I have to find out the reason why she suddenly wanted to distance herself from me.

The door opened and Catherine's head peeked through the door.

"Nate..." At least she still calls me by my first name.

"It's time to pick up the kids," The way she said 'the kids' instead of 'your daughters' made it sound like they were ours and not just mine. And I can't help but be hopeful.

I smiled as if we didn't argue earlier. "Okay, I'm coming with you."

I noticed the slight worry on her face but it was just for a fleeting moment only as if it was not there a couple of seconds ago.

"Okay, I'll wait for you downstairs," She said, making me frown.

Something happened and I will find out soon. I think I'll have to talk to her best friend.