Chapter 52

When I don’t answer, Derek storms out of the room with a guard following behind him. ‘m torn between going after him and staying. I can’t imagine what it would be like to be in his shoes. I know how strongly I feel for him and my heart’s divided. How much would I feel if it was the opposite? I know I feel like I am drawn to him, I feel the sparks when we touch, I feel the warmth that he gives me when holds me. How much more for him? How much is this hurting him to know that I am still in love with another man? To know that I am willing to acknowledge what we feel for each other because of this other man. I don’t know how to explain it. I am also trying not to become too attached because I know what will happen if I fail and I don’t make it back here. Meril makes the decision for me, by grabbing my hands.