CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE:I Don't Have Feelings For Her.

Alejandro's pov

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In all my years of being in this world,of living this kind of life,in my own world where the gun and  revenge answereth all things

I have never seen nor met anyone like her,I honestly could admit that this was the first time i had been  intrigued to know what it is about Angelina Lopez,there was something about her that called out some part of me that was long hidden.

I was way too interested to know more about the girl,who had a knife pointed straight to my face,a mistake that had me nearly taking her life again.

Which was not what i wanted or did?

Sometimes i can't really understand what's going on in my head,it's a messed up place in there,all thanks to her dad who made me lose every bit of my reasoning ever since my parents death.

This was a strong point that i should have held against her,that should make me hate her and wish for nothing for the girl and her sister's painful death.

Looking at her, reminded  of her late dad,whom i regretted not killing myself.I shouldn't have given Juan the honor of doing that when it should be me,who pulled the trigger on the motherfucker.

Maybe if i had done that,I would be having this urge to return the favor by taking from him what he took from me,it's a tie and I had to do mine.

But her eyes,her fucking eyes always seem to get to me no matter how badly i wanted to see the lights die in her eyes.

i wondered if she had any idea that it wasn't because she's lucky that she's still breathing,it has nothing to do with luck,that's because i wanted her alive…that's because i couldn't seem to do it!

You are weak Alejandro!

Your father would be highly disappointed in you!

She's an enemy,so She has to die,why are you still hesitating?

Kill her…kill the traitor's daughter now!

"Arrrh!"

I punched the mirror in the bathroom as it shattered into pieces,my blood mixing with the shattered pieces that fell to the ground.

I was losing it.

I'm about to go crazy,and there's nothing i can do about it,they wanted her dead..the voice's…no! I wanted her dead.

That's what i wanted right?

But can i do that?

Ofcourse you can,kill the bitch already!

"Stop!..stop it"I yelled, clutching my head when the headache didn't seem to stop,it hasn't gotten this bad since after the death of my parents.

But right now,I didn't know why i was feeling this much pain,I went for my drugs but the impromptu appearance of Nicole had  my attention,no..stopped me from what i was about to do.

No one knew.

Not everyone but the gang knew what's up with me,I didn't have any idea how she got into my room,and the last thing i wanted right now was her  finding out that there was something wrong with me.

"Baby"Her  bitchy voice called,I'm not her baby! She should stop making everyone  think that i was smitten by her,when it's not the actual truth.

She's sick in the head,going around telling everyone that we were a couple when our relationship was far from that.She knew that,and also knew that i would have her head once i heard what she was doing.

But maybe it's been a long time since i showed her my true colors,and how i treat the people who get under my nerves,she's nothing but the girl who opens her leg for me.

For the fact that she's Nate's sister, should have been what i should have reconsidered,when she approached me to touch me,and i saw red.

"I rushed in when i heard the crash,what's wrong ba.."my hand went  to her throat,and hauling her to the nearest wall scared the shot out of her,while i loved every bit of what i was doing.

Fuck!  The fear in her face,what i would do to see that everyday.She had no idea how hard i was right now seeing her squirming In my hold,that's what turns me on about them…when they cry.

But Nicole was becoming so annoying lately, and I didn't know exactly what it was i wanted to do with her right now.

Should i kill her?

"What are.. yo..u doin..g?''She managed to breathe out,pushing at my hand that was on her throat,while her other hand nearly damaged my face with long acrylic nails.

Kill her Alejandro.

Kill ..

I staggered a little bit,my control slipping as she used that opportunity to knock my hand off, attempting to run away from me,but i dragged her from her leg as her face hit the floor.

"Let me go!"She cried,but i was far gone to notice what exactly it was i was doing. Hearing her talk reminded me about the brown eyes that I wishes were in this position.

And my wish was granted the moment she turned to lie on her  back to look at me,she gasped when she saw my eyes…they were pitch black.

So shady,like my soul.

"I don't really know what is wrong with you baby,I'm Nicole ,I'm not your enemy"The woman in front of me says,but I laugh at the silly excuses to escape me.

Was this another plan to let her go so that she could take her sister, and ran away just like she attempted a few moments ago?

Kill her Alejandro,no hesitation this time!

So i approached the indisposed Angelina who was on the floor, with her gray …no it was supposed to be brown looking at me like i have gone crazy.

I dragged her up by her hair,an ear piercing scream leaving her lips before the interruption of juan who rushed in,only to shout when he saw the scene.

"Help me Juan,I didn't know what's wrong with my baby,he was about to kill me"Nicole cried.

Hearing her call me her baby, brought me back as i realized that there's no way on earth Angelina would do that.

Although i wish she would do that,call me her baby,rather than the scared Nicole who rushed out of the room the moment i released her.

"Are you okay? What happens here, Jandro?"Juan asked,moving up to touch my shoulder as i hid my face in-between my hands.

He knew that something was wrong with me,but there's no use telling him that i have gone crazy for the red hair and those brown eyes that make up Angelina Lopez.

"I'm fine"I knocked his hands off my shoulders,leaving him to walk into my walk into my closet and shut  the door behind me.

I don't have feelings for her.

That's what i told myself.

She's a only but an enemy, that i wanted dead as soon as possible before i loose my remaining senses.