~ Chapter three ~

Sweet memories begin to creep into my mind. Then the pain only seems to get worse when there no distractions. And I'm left alone with my thought and memories . I trusted him and he betrayed me in a terrible way.I know I'm leaving out the details but I still feel the strange need of having him so close to me... I scold myself for being so stupid, for even considering him, when he clearly wouldn't do the same for me. Don't you think I should have thought about this possibility before I decided to be with him. Yes I know .You people go ahead and tell me how stupid I am, tell me you told me so.

The worse part is the fact that after telling me he loved me and making love.He could apparently turn around and make a mockery of what happened between us. I know he was going to hurt me. I just had no idea how bad it was going to be. I can believe how stupid I was , I gave up everything for him.But the worst feeling in this world is loving someone who doesn't love you. But he did me happy, so happy once. Making me believe that he loved me When I knew he didn't, it was all to get me. while I was falling in love with him. What the hell is wrong with me, I found myself getting irritated, jealous even over the idea of them. The thought of it just makes me shake my head vigorously. I don't know who I am without him anymore.I knew it wasn't going to work anyway. We both knew that.He was my everything, my breath, my pain, my heart ,my life, someone I could have sacrificed everything for.