Thought of love

Laraazhi went in the room and started crying. I am so helpless and hopeless. I have no way to led my life because of my condition and now Devil is also torturing me to a bad way. What can I do so that my life will become easy. Where I stuck I came here to do my duty as a family member of werewolf hunter but now my powers and mind are stuck. I am tensed why my unknown powers aren't working? why my life is so difficult although I ma living here but I have no love for Devil. I hate to get married. I wanted to live my life alone as my father lived when my mother died . I don't believe in love. What happened when my mother died my father loved her very much untill today and may be love her till the last day of his life.

Nothing is changed after love other than that a person is went into a state of tension and fear because the person he or she love meant alot to her so they want to protect his or him at any cost and if the one die from the lovers the others life became hell. But the situation is different for me my life is already hell without love. I had a forced marriage and I also has to birth a child who I don't want at first but now the baby is part of mine. I have to do it. But Devil doesn't know about it. Is he believe my when I tell him. No he will not accept it or what if he accept it or want me to aboart. What will I do then? The fear of Laraazhi is kept increasing and Devil didn't come at all. Laraazhi said I am going to die may be today. She walked numbly to the dror and took medicine for the sake of baby and slept.