Shattered Dreams

"Honey listen I know I have been a horrible father but I want to apologize and explain myself. When I noticed you were stronger and not like normal wolves I decided I needed to make sure you would keep up this strength and something in my mind said that if I acted like those bullies from school when you were a kid that you would get stronger. It was a horrible and stupid thing to do, I do believe that you got stronger but I should have never done it that way. The reason you are stronger than most is because you have Alpha blood. I was supposed to be the Alpha of the Dark Moon pack of Ohio but I did not want to be Alpha so I did the one thing I knew to do as a teenage wolf, I ran. I ran here and tried making a better life for myself under the radar. You are part Alpha Jade. I found my mate here in this pack yesterday and I am going to start a new life and I would love it if you are a part of that some day. I am so sorry for how I treated you and I hope that some day you can forgive me but I don't expect that day to be today". I am so shocked by all of this information that I cannot form words so I just nod my head and hug him. Afterwards we go to the door and I start walking back to the very irritated Alpha. My head is spinning so much from the information that I don't notice the bushes next to me rustling until a large white wolf jumps out and claws open my lower stomach. The Alpha runs to me and picks me up as I fall to my knees and everything goes black. When I wake up I have no energy to move or talk. I can hear voices and decide to listen in, "I'm sorry Alpha but Jade's uterus was injured, we fixed it as best as we could but Jade will have a lower chance of pregnancy and may not be able to have pups at all". The one thing I had always wanted in life and dreamed of having but now I may never have it. I tried to cry, I tried to get up, I tried to scream but nothing happened. A sudden burst of energy shot through me as I tried opening my eyes again, this time with success. I tried to scream once more but all that came was a small whimper. I looked around and spotted the Alpha standing next to a doctor, his eyes black with anger and disgust as he looks at me. My eyes blur as tears fight to get out as he storms out of the room. After I am healed, which takes a few days, I am able to leave the hospital. "I'd rather stay here attached to those stupid beeping machines then go rot in that cell again. My legs are sore" Athena whined and I agreed with her. Some warriors pick me up from the hospital to take me "home", I hadn't seen the Alpha since he found out I may not be able to have pups. Once we arrive I'm thrown back in my cell but this time I'm told by some smirking warriors that they are allowed to come beat me whenever they wanted and they did for weeks, maybe even months. Multiple bones broken and a lot of blood lost. I somehow managed to convince a guard to give me a piece of paper and a pencil so I wrote a letter directed towards the Alpha. I wrote who I am and who my father is explaining that I in fact was an Alpha and not weak but even if I was it wasn't right to do what he had done to me. I write this letter in hopes that one day I can escape and he can read it and realize how much of a fool he has been. One day I overhear the guards talking about taking me outside to beat me so I put the note on the bench and let them take me. Once we are far enough away so no one will see, I wait for the perfect angle when one warrior tried to strike. I kick the legs out from under one as I dodge the punch from the other snapping his neck in the process. The other starts to get up until I place one foot on each side of his head and do a full body twist, snapping his neck as well. I take this opportunity to run, I don't know where to go but I run. I can hear an alarm being set off at the pack house as I run, the sound getting quieter. I let Athena take control as I shift into my beautiful black wolf with light blue eyes and I run until I find an amazing lake. A faint smell of wolf lingers in the air but nothing near or strong at least. I shift back as I sit at the edge of the water letting the tears start to drip down my face. My mate doesn't care about me or want me and I may never have my dreams are shattered. I notice a small piece of glass next to me and pick it up while Athena begs me not to, I had hurt myself before but never to die, just to feel the pain my father had caused before my mother took me. I got used to the pain and my mind told me I deserved it and needed to continue it for him. I lift it to my wrist and let it slice through my skin, screaming before I switch sides, "I am pathetic, no one will ever want me". I drop the glass and lay back letting the blood pour from my wrists. My tears come to a halt as I hear rustling between some bushes nearby.