“You can call me when you’re lonely. I’ll be your temporary fix.”

Those were the words that he said to me and it was plain simple, he wanted nothing but s*x and I wanted nothing more than to.

I was the kind of girl who was too scared of falling in love again because I feel like there is something more in life than being mournful over a guy who never actually gave a hell. I deserve something more than pain and misery over a stupid heartbreak. Since then, I got too scared of commitment that I no longer wanted to be in one. I wanted fun and I wanted to feel like I am alive again.

He was the kind of guy who was too busy for permanent relationships. The superstar that all women wanted to bang with. The kind of guy who would have any girls kneel in front of him because well, he is that kind of guy. He was a guy with a hectic schedule, sold out world tours, drinking champagne in private jets, holding a mic in one hand, and conquering all over the world in the other.

Maybe I needed someone to show me how to live again and he needed someone to show me how to love.

You Can Call Me

　　I stare longer at her and my heart hurts just by looking at her. I've been the best at keeping myself away from women because I don't wanna get hurt again. I've been the best at putting these walls up so no one would come and break it. I've been the best at pushing people away because I'm too scared of getting left behind once again. I've been the best at not taking things seriously most especially when it comes to relationships and commitments.


　　She's making me break every rule that I have been keeping for myself so I won't get hurt again just like before.


　　She's making me feel constantly happy again whenever I'm with her.


　　She's making me miss her when she's not around and making me feel jealous when I see her some other guy.


　　She makes me want to be with her all the time because she makes me feel like she's a part of me.


　　She makes me wanna do things that I've never ever done to my other fuck girls before. She's different.


CHAPTER 124 "Realizations" 2