Soft touch!

..Crina pov

"It is okay, I will put my self to bed." I insisted but Ryder was actually not one to listen at all. from the time that we arrived from the hospital, he has not let me do anything by sefl even when I want to.

He is acting a way I can not put a name to. I don't know if he is just being regretful for what he had done by kissing me. Maybe he badly wants to tell me that he is sorry but he just cant get the words to say it.

But then I personally cat seem to get comfortable with him any more. From the moment that he kissed me I swear I have tried so much to see that everything gets back to normal but as you know it is not an easy thing as you might thing it to be.

It was one of the greatest shocks in my interior life since it came at a point when I did not at all see it coming at all.

But I am not ready to loss my son and so I am going to try as much as possible to see that I don't lose him at all.

"No , son. It is okay . I will be able to get into my bed even without your help." I replied but still remained as calm as possible. It was the thing that I really had to do not to loss my boy ever again. I did not have the guts to look in his face so I was not able to know how she actually was reacting to the statement that I had just said.

"No , mom. I know you are so strong and all that but I am not letting you do this by your self." He insisted . I knew my son very well and I know how much he can mean to insist on something if he wanted it plus I really did not want to make him any uncomfortable based on the little history that we were holding now.

"Okay , as you say." I give up and let him take my hand leading me into my bed. He first lets me stand a bit and then opens the bed for me to get in. After that, he helped me to sit down on my bed and then went ahead to help me lie down putting the pillows right for me to sleep on it.

After that , he put the sheets and then the blanket over me. All this time, I could not even put a name to how I was feeling. It was in a way that I could as well not put a name to even if I wanted to do.

I thought that things could easily get back to normal after everything but I can tell you that things are not that easy to bring to normal as I had thought that it could be. Ryder sat at the edge of my bed . I was curious as what he was going to do next.

In fact my heart was pumping more than what I initially thought that it could do so. The pace was actually not twice but even thrice it's normal way of pumping . The anxiety that I was feeling at the moment was too much.

It was actually just killing me. The next thing that I knew was the feel of his hand on my cheek. It went on moving slowly on my cheek.

I found my self involuntarily close my eyes. All efforts to keep them open were actually effortless.

He continued to move it on my cheek at a very slow pace but each time he did it , the sensation that I was getting went straight up to the tiniest part of my body. In fact I equally tried so much to stop my self from moaning out. There was no way that I was going to let my step son make me moan.

His hand then started to move from my cheek going down stairs towards my shoulder parts. I was losing it . I had to act as quick as possible so that I could not let him go any farther with anything on.

However he did not do what I thought that he could do, instead he leaned in and pressed his lips pn my forehead and kissed me briefly before whispering,

"Good night , mom." He did neither wait for any more time to for me to say anything nor did he say any more words. He was soon out of my bedroom.

The moment he got out of the room , I released the breathe that I did not even know that I was holding all this time. God, what the hell was wrong with me. How did I really get to this point really. How did I begin to get such effect over my step son.

With all the pain that I was feeling , I managed to sit up in bed . I was sweating yet a few minutes ago I had not yet faced any of that .

"Crina, what really is wrong with you?" I questioned my self. The fact was I had so many questions that I really needed answers to but unfortunately their was no person to give me any answers that I needed .

I had to keep asking myself all the kinds of questions and at the same time I was to remain just like that with no answers at all. I actually never thought that I could end up in such a state at all.

I continued to sit in my bed as so many things ran through my head. Three hours later , it was actually when I finally managed to sleep once again… I just wished that by the next day all the confusion could have ended and I back to the new teacher at the college… I just wished so .

Hello good readers, thanks for reading .At least three updates a week with this book from now onwards.