MEMORIES
Pishka's POV
I am a 15-year-old African girl, born and breed in South Africa. I'm a normal teenage girl, who has lived in her little bubble for years. In all actual reality, I just wanted someone to save me from all of the hellish pain I've felt all my life... Yet no one came for me, soon I gave up on the idea. Seeing no good could come out of complaining or talking about it, I started bottling up my emotions. They would slip out every now and then but now I'm just lost. I don't know what to do with my emotions or his to express them anymore
I have an awkward, boring life routine, with teenage and family problems. And seeing other people happily living their lives with their families always reminded me of how broken mine was... I hated it. Since I'm an orphan, well half an orphan since my mom(Talia) died earlier this year, around the beginning of March on a Tuesday. I cried silently because the people there - that were watching over my mother's body like she was on display at a museum - didn't allow me to cry, it's a superstitious thing.
My sister and I moved in with my grandmother and three cousins now, ever since that day. Don't get me started with the funeral, it was a disgrace and very unworthy of my mother really. But it also brought me to realize that she had died and left me... Left us forever, never to return. After the funeral, I told my dad
It's really beautiful here in Johannesburg and warm, I just moved here with my daddy (Daniel) and his girlfriend, yes you heard me I said daddy, I grew up calling him that. I don't like how the word dad comes out of my mouth, it kind of sounds a bit rude. His girlfriend is super cool she treats me like her own daughter even though she has no kids, she's really beautiful too but my mom beats her though. My father wants us to move to America soon for his new job
Sometimes I would sit up at night and think about her, asking questions like 'didn't she love me enough to fight and stay alive for me at least?' they had issues with my mum but it wasn't like I didn't love her. I accepted her back into my life after she had abandoned me and my sister for almost two years. Then she leaves me forever this time around, it's not fair. WHY IS MY LIFE NEVER FAIR, AAAGGGGHHH.
By the way, the person with this sad, broken life's name is Pishka Heart, just so you know I'm not a cold-hearted person, rather I'm the opposite but I just hide it from people now, I hate to love it's stupid and useless, it's what caused the death of my mother, by the way, LOVE. I do this so I can protect myself from being vulnerable to the big cruel world I have to wear a mask. Anyway, let's get back to the story it started around 2018 in South Africa, in the capital city, Cape Town.
Date: 18 September 2018
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Location: Cape Town
Pishka's POV
I was around the house waiting for a call to come in from my daddy with my bags packed, it was about 9 am when I received the call and quickly answered - cause I know that my daddy complains about me not picking up the phone quick enough whenever he call. I can't help but roll my eyes in my head
Daddy: Hello Kapish Kabash, my baby how are you
Pishka: I'm good just waiting on you to tell me when my flight will be, daddy
Daddy: Okay so, it's gonna be at 1 o'clock so you better get going now. I already sent you the transport fare, you'll be travelling on Mango airline. Okay baby
Pishka: Okay daddy, see you soon daddy ~
Daddy: Make sure you call me or send me a call back when you arrive at the airport and checked in, okay
Pishka: Yes daddy, I have to go now, daddy.
Daddy: Okay baby, dakurrr
Pishka: Ndeyakurata
(means "I love you")
Daddy: I love baby
Pishka: I love you dady
After the call ends, I walk to the door leading to the yard outside we have to call my grandmother(Angel) from outside since she was out hanging the laundry on the line.
Granny: Yes, Pishka did you call me?
Pishka: Yes granny, I wanted to let you know that daddy said that my flight is in a few hours, like at 1 o'clock so we better get going soon
Granny: Okay then, let me just finish here then we can go around 10:30, okay?
Pishka: Okay
I walk back inside, leaving my grandmother to finish hanging the clothes and my cousins to play outside
I pray that my granny will be okay without me staying with her and I hope the kids' mother will be okay with staying with their mom - my aunt is a weed smoker and is jobless with three kids, plus jumps from man to man. But what will I do if granny passes away, when I'm gone, how will I manage it? I have no choice but to deal with it when the time comes *sigh*
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~•° Time Skips °•~
We arrive at the airport with the kids and I buy a few snacks for myself before arriving. I also bought for the kids, so we checked in at the counter and then we were led to the waiting room with an hour to spare before the plane arrives at 1:30. Yeah I know right, there was an extra 30 minutes, my dady always does this to me! Well, it's the second time though, but whatever. So we waiting and I'm tapping away on my phone and the kids are playing, while granny is talking to a stranger about something
When I see that we have like 15 minutes left I start to feel my heart beating fast, cause it was time to say goodbye. After I cried a bit and wiped away her tears, a helper came to fetch me. I have been to the airport many times but after a very long time, so I needed help again...... After walking for a while I arrive at the gate and we wait for the plane to allow us to board it. After like 5 minutes, though it felt like an hour. We boarded then I packed my stuff and took my seat
When the plane lifted off I felt a headache that reminded me why I hate aeroplane rides, I shifted trying to fall asleep and not feel as uncomfortable as I always feel in a plane.
~•° Two Hours Later °•~
We finally land, the people exit and then I meet my daddy waiting for me with his girlfriend I hug them both, and then we head home. Where I eat a delicious meal and head to bed cause I was tired
~•° A Week Later °•~
After being here for a whole week dady comes home earlier than usual since he comes home around midnight when we are all sleeping mind you. I greet him.
Daddy: Hello baby, come hug me now.
Pishka: Okay daddy
I stand up and walk toward him to give him a big warm hug
Daddy: Mmmmm... How are you and where's aunty?
Pishka: I'm okay and aunty is in the room
I walk back to the couch and take my seat.
Daddy: Okay, I'm gonna go talk to her real quick, did you pack your things yet
Pishka: I never unpacked my things daddy
I smile
Daddy: Okay that's good just make sure you're ready cause we leaving for the airport when I come out
Pishka: Why, are we going somewhere?
Daddy: We going to America remember baby
My dad grins widely revealing his small straight teeth
Daddy: Make sure you are ready, okay?
Pishka: OKAY DADDY
I slip on my flip-flops and run to my room. Packing the few little things into my backpack. By the time they come out I'm already done and ready to go, just waiting on them. When we arrived at the airport, we checked in and we headed to a food store to get a few snacks for me since I asked for them but in the end, they got themselves something too. Then it dawned on me to call my granny since we were sitting and waiting for the plane to arrive, so I took out my phone, dialed her number and called her. After a few beeps, she answered
Granny: This is Angel speaking, hello?
Pishka: Hello granny, it's me Pishka
Granny: Hello Kapish, how are you? I've been meaning to call you but haven't had the time, sorry I didn't pick up your calls
Pishka: No, it's fine I understand you are probably busy. I just wanted to say I'm going to America, I'm at the airport waiting for the plane right now!!
Granny: What did you just say, Kapish?
I sigh before replying to my grandmother
Pishka: I'm saying that I travelling to America today!
Granny: Wow, really you must be happy
Pishka: Yes, I am. So ho-
I see people entering and daddy cuts me off
Pishka: I have to go now, we are entering the plane
Granny: Okay, call me when you land, bye
Pishka: okay bye
I drop the call. I quickly rush after dady and aunty, after we board I put my phone on flight mode. Once we are in the air I put my headphones on, but unluckily I woke up an hour later. But I woke up just in time though, it was meal time and I love my food, gosh, only god knows how much I love my food. I am in between and I'm working on losing a few pounds, though. I fell asleep along the way, about an hour later and woke up about two hours later to eat my supper. As you have probably noticed, I-love-my-naps, PS NAPS RULE! And let me tell you I fell asleep the whole way after that - later on I got woken up by the vibration of the plane shaking