8

I just began to get a bump and I grew fast every day, Connor loved to kiss my stomach and talk to our baby, he cuddled with him or her when we'd sleep. He was very excited to be a father; I wasn't certain about it being only 17 but I still was happy. He loved me so much more and gave me his full attention, he made an effort to prove himself every day. I was always tired my first few months, at 5 months we found out we were having a girl. She began kicking and moving, we enjoyed feeling her move. I walked downstairs to sit with Connor in the living room

"Hey babe."

I sat down next to him he asked

"Are you feeling okay?"

I sighed

"I have a headache, she won't let me sleep and I miss my dad."

He wrapped his arm around me

"I'm sorry babe."

I kissed his cheek

"I'll hurt but I don't want her to feel that."

He looked down

"It really blows my dad had to do that."

I tried to change the subject before I cried

"Honestly I didn't think you'd stay with me that's why I didn't tell you when I found out."

He ran his fingers through my hair

"We may be young and most guys wouldn't stay but I wouldn't be able to do that to you."

I looked up at him

"What are we going to name her?"

He kissed my forehead

"How about Lilianna but we'll call her Lily?"

I smiled

"I already love it."

He smiled

"Lilianna Marie Andrews."

I laid back on the couch with my head on his chest

"I miss my dad so much, he would've accepted us eventually. He would be happy to be a grandpa."

Andria came into the living room

"Hey sweetie how are you feeling?"

I sat up holding my back

"Fat, exhausted, and nauseous."

She frowned

"Patricia had to run some errand's but she was wondering if you'd like to do homeschooling instead of going to school every day."

I stood up, upset

"Is she afraid of being embarrassed of me?"

Connor sat up

"Babe no."

I looked at him with tears in my eyes

"Really? Because I know you are."

I ran up to my room and locked myself away all day, I used Connor's pillow as support for comfort. I eventually fell asleep, as my due date got closer I got more miserable and moody, Connor and I fought a lot more and eventually he moved away to the abandoned house. He came by and visited but it always ended up with us arguing.

I began homeschooling and Connor dropped out of school a few months before his senior year, Connor came over to check on me, he did everything to stay around but I didn't want him around, I wanted to be left alone. We never broke up but agreed it'd be better if he lived away from me and his dad's house wasn't an option.

My cousin and her boyfriend had come into town and that kept me distracted from Connor. I sat on the staircase waiting for them to arrive when the door opened. I quickly ran into her arms

"Casey!"

She looked at me in shock

"Kay! Wow! You're about pop!"

I looked at her boyfriend then at her

"Is this Ryan?"

She looked at him and smiled

"No, this is Tomas."

I nodded my head

"Ohh I'm sorry! I'm Kayla!"

It kind of hurt to see how in love they were but I kept a smile on my face. She grabbed my hand

"Lets go down to the beach! Come on screw that dick Kay!"

I pulled my hand away

"I'll meet you guys there."

She grabbed his hand and ran out the front door, I love my cousin, she was like my sister. She was never involved with the gang stuff, she was innocent and had a normal life of a teenager. I pulled out my phone to see if I had any texts from Connor. Nothing. He hasn't called or text me in almost a week. I sighed and threw my phone on the table and followed them, I bumped into Devon on my way out. He apologized to me, I rolled my eyes and walked past him.

I walked through the loose sand to the tattoo shop where Tomas and Casey said they'd be at, I walked in sweating from the killer sun. I noticed Connor walked up to Casey. They were talking and she was giving him a lot of attitude; I walked over before it got bad. I pushed him away from her

"This is my cousin."

Casey crossed her arms

"I met him and he's a complete douche."

I looked at her

"This is Connor."

Casey was about to hit him when I grabbed her forearm

"No. Not worth it."

Casey got angry

"Be happy she stopped me you really deserve to be hit right now."

Connor shook his head at me and walked away without saying anything to me. We got our lemonades and headed back, she sat next to her boyfriend and handed her slush to him, he had a sleeve halfway done and was taking a break. I sipped on my lemonade slush thinking about Connor not saying anything to me or asking how I was.

"I forbid you to have any children Casey. This heat is outrageous."

She looked at me

"Not anytime soon but maybe in our future."

I laid back in front of the AC

"You hear that Tomas. Keep it safe."

I raised my eyebrows at him and exhaled trying to cool down. She sat next to me with her leg up on the chair, I joked

"Must be nice being able to do that."

A few weeks have passed and my cousin was getting ready to leave when she came to me

"Can we go upstairs to talk?"

I took her up to my room and she sat on the bed

"How did you know you were pregnant?"

I frowned and my mouth slowly opened but I gave her support

"I was late so I took a pregnancy test."

She frowned

"I'm 2 weeks late and I was thinking maybe it was just stress of school but nothing."

I nodded my head

"Come on we can go get one."

She shook her head

"It will be suspicious, he's going right now for gas. I'll just go with him and get some snacks with it."

Before I could say anything else, she was running downstairs to stop him before he left. They left and when they came back it seemed like he found out about it. I came downstairs as she came out of the bathroom

"Congrats!"

She got mad

"I'm not having an baby at 17."

I got upset at her

"You both did this Casey! This is what happens when you aren't safe!"

Tomas gave her a hug, she pushed him away and went outside. I looked up at him

"She isn't taking this well but congrats."

He told me thank you for everything and headed out the door to talk to her. I sat on the stairs and mumbled

"I would kill for that attention right now. Be grateful Casey he still cares about you."

Andria came out of her office

"Family can get crazy huh?"

I rubbed my head

"I love her but she is such a drama queen, she should be happy she has him, he actually freaking loves her. Connor could careless if I'm carrying his child right now."

She sat next to me

"He doesn't get to experience this with you or be a part of that little girl's life. It's his choice baby girl."

I gave her a side hug

"Have I told you how much I appreciate you?"

She chuckled

"Not quite but I know you do sweetheart."

The follow week, I became very nauseous and began throwing up every day; I was ready to have our daughter any day. I'm about a week over due and I just felt miserable. Connor still hasn't come over or tried to contact me, I happened to go into labor. Andria and Patricia called Connor, he answered them but never showed up. Patricia pushed me through it, I kept coughing and crying from throwing up so much. The one person I needed bailed on me, after hours of excruciating contractions and pushing, she was born and screaming. I was heartbroken he didn't come, I gave all of my attention to her and eventually forgot about him.

When she turned 3 months old her eyes started going hazel like Connor's; I still loved my little Lily. By the time she was 5 months she was learning to crawl and her hair had lightened to that dirty blonde like her dad's. I graduated school a couple months early and spent all my time with her, she had my attitude and his looks by 6 months old.